Came Back Wrong

[Verse 1]
You cracked the door with honesty,
One hour of warmth, I started to breathe.
You said the things I’d begged to hear,
Then vanished like it cost you to stay near.

[Pre-Chorus]
My heart said, ‘maybe he’s changing,’
My gut whispered, ‘don’t start.’
I hate how hope keeps outrunning
The lessons carved in scars.

[Chorus]
I fell for it again—
Your voice, your calm, your one-hour pretend.
Now I’m here, checking my phone like a prayer,
Fighting the urge to care.
I’m mad at me for believing,
For letting you back in.
It’s the same damn pattern—
You open up, then disappear again.

[Verse 2]
A week of silence after one night’s truth,
My nervous system pays for loving you.
You find your peace in running away,
I lose mine when you don’t stay.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
So I blocked the loop, cut the wire,
Trying to calm the constant fire.
It’s not revenge, it’s survival—
Choosing quiet over denial.

[Chorus]
I fell for it again—
Your softness, your almost-love pretend.
Now I’m here shaking off your ghost,
Learning not to self-defend.
I’m mad at me for believing,
For thinking this time it would mend.
Same damn pattern—
You open up, then disappear again.

[Bridge]
I wanted closure, you wanted comfort,
I keep confusing the two.
Every time you reach for me,
I forget what silence can do.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I fell for it again, but this time I’m done.
Blocked the loop, saved my lungs.
I can breathe without your ghost in my head—
I’m not falling for almost love again.

[Verse 1]
Dear Drew, I see it clearer now
You were looking out while I was looking in
Always searching for something better
While you kept me where you’d been
I was love, you were comparison
Lining girls up in your head
Keeping me as your safety net
While you chased what wasn’t there instead
You didn’t want me, you wanted options
You didn’t choose—you just delayed
I was giving you something real
You were shopping while I stayed

[Pre-Chorus]
And I felt it, but I ignored it
Every sign I pushed aside
You were halfway out the whole time
I was fully by your side

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, you never loved me right
You just loved that I was there
You kept me close enough to hold
But never enough to care
You didn’t lose me, you just stalled
Till something else came through
Dear Drew, the truth is simple—
I was always too real for you

[Verse 2]
Dear Drew, I tried to walk away
More times than I can say
I gave you outs, I gave you space
I tried to leave you anyway
But every time I got some distance
You pulled me back just enough
Not because you couldn’t lose me
But because you weren’t done
You needed it on your timing
On your terms, your final say
You didn’t want me to move on
Till you had someone to replace

[Pre-Chorus]
That’s the part that’s hard to swallow
You were planning your escape
While I was trying to fix something
You already chose to break

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, you never loved me right
You just loved that I was there
A placeholder with loyalty
While you went anywhere
You didn’t fight for what we had
You just kept me in your view
Dear Drew, I see it clearly—
I was convenience to you

[Verse 3]
Dear Drew, you came back when I moved on
Like you finally understood
Said you missed me, said you changed
Like maybe this time you would
And I let you back into my body
While you played a different life
You don’t come back like that for love
You come back when it feels right
You were sleeping next to me
While you had someone else too
And I thought you came to fix it
But you came back for what I’d give you
Then you disappeared again
Like you always do
Not confused, not overwhelmed—
That’s just who you are, Drew

[Bridge]
I wasted years trying to understand
Someone who never tried to be understood
I kept blaming myself for your distance
When you were doing exactly what you could
And what you could… was never enough

[Final Chorus]
Dear Drew, you never loved me right
But I loved you more than I should
And that’s the only thing I regret—
Not seeing you for what you were
You didn’t break me, you exposed
Everything I won’t accept
Dear Drew, I’m finally done
And you don’t get me again

[Outro]
Dear Drew…
Don’t come back this time.

[Verse 1]
I asked you straight, you smiled and lied
Said ‘everything’s fine’ while you planned your goodbye
One foot out, one foot in
I was drowning while you learned to swim
You knew my hands were shaking, my chest was tight
Still you let me twist inside at night
Guess the truth felt too much for you to say
So you left me guessing till you walked away

[Pre-Chorus]
And now I see it clear—
It was all on your terms here
The start, the end, the touch, the break
You held the cards, I felt the ache

[Chorus]
Dear Drew
Was control worth the price you paid?
All the love you slowly betrayed
Gaslight glow in the rearview
I believed your lies over my truth
Dear Drew
You wrote the rules, then broke the game
Left me holding all the blame
But the day I lost you
Was the day I found me too

[Verse 2]
You called it ‘respect,’ withholding your hands
While you built your exit plan
You said some days were good, some days not
So you strung me along with the scraps I got
And after the ending, you stayed the night
Like closing a book but keeping it in sight
If that’s kindness, I’d hate to see your cruelty
If that’s love, don’t waste it on me

[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah, I see it now—
It was never give and take somehow
Just your voice, your way, your time
While I kept folding my needs inside

[Chorus]
Dear Drew
Was control worth the price you paid?
All the love you slowly betrayed
Gaslight glow in the rearview
I believed your lies over my truth
Dear Drew
You wrote the rules, then broke the game
Left me holding all the blame
But the day I lost you
Was the day I found me too

[Bridge]
And I’m done with the waiting rooms you build
Done bleeding for a man who never healed
You don’t get to knock and step inside
When I’ve finally learned to love my own life

[Final Chorus]
Dear Drew
Was control worth the crown you wore?
’Cause you can’t hurt me anymore
Gaslight glow in the rearview
I’m stronger ’cause I walked through you
Dear Drew
You can keep your rules, your pride, your name
I won’t play a rigged game
The day I lost you
Was the day I found me too

[Outro]
Dear Drew…
Guess that’s my last line to you.

[Verse 1]
You pull in past midnight, headlights in my drive
Say you’re worn out from work—I still let you inside
You kiss me like muscle memory
Then leave before the sun hits me
We don’t talk—you say it “stresses you out”
So I stay quiet, pretend I’m fine somehow
You make breakfast like déjà vu
But baby, that doesn’t prove you’re new

[Pre-Chorus]
You hang with your boys on your days off
Same old laughs, same old walls
Guess I was blind to think you’d change—
You came back, but it feels the same

[Chorus]
You came back wrong
I thought you’d fight for me
But you just came to sleep beside what you miss when you’re lonely
You came back tired
Not ready, not strong
You didn’t come back loving me—you just came back wrong

[Verse 2]
Said “just friends,” but we both know that’s a lie
Every time you touch me, my boundaries die
I keep hoping you’ll finally say it out loud
But silence can scream so damn proud
You don’t miss me, you miss the part
Where I forgave your breaking heart
And I let you, ’cause I still care
But love can’t live on half-air

[Pre-Chorus]
We play this game, I know the end
You call it “space,” I call it pretend
You pull me close, then drift away—
And I hate that I let you stay

[Chorus]
You came back wrong
I thought you’d mean it
But you just needed somewhere soft to land for a minute
You came back quiet
I came back strong
But you didn’t come back loving me—you just came back wrong

[Bridge – Part 1]
We don’t call it love, but my body remembers
Your hands still speak in broken letters
I keep saying “this time I’ll stay strong”
But then you’re here, and I’m already gone

[Bridge – Part 2]
Maybe you feel it but can’t find the words
And I’ve been lost just reading yours
If this is what you call love
Then maybe I’ve had enough
If silence is safer for you
Then I’ll stop mistaking it for truth

[Final Chorus]
You came back wrong
And I can’t fix it
I can’t keep healing a love that’s inconsistent
I thought you’d stay, but you’re already gone—
You didn’t come back for me—
You just came back wrong

[Outro]
Yeah, you came back wrong…
And I’m finally done pretending that’s love

[Verse 1]
I see the cracks inside the story
Every promise bending thin
Every answer slightly different
From the truth you’re standing in

My friends say it’s obvious
They say the signs are loud
But every time you pull me close
The doubt just fades to clouds

[Pre-Chorus]
My mind is building evidence
But hope keeps breaking through
My heart keeps pleading innocence
But we need to be finally through

[Chorus]
My head knows better
But my heart still runs to you
I see the damage clearly
But my chest ignores the proof
Every red flag waving
Every truth I try to face
Still I keep believing
Love will change the way you stay

My head knows better
God, I know it’s nothing new
But logic loses every time
My heart still runs to you

[Verse 2]
You give just enough affection
Just enough to keep me near
Like a door that’s always open
But never really here
I memorize your silence
Try to read between the lines
Like if I solve the puzzle
Maybe you’ll finally be mine

[Pre-Chorus]
My body feels the distance
But my hope rewrites the truth

[Chorus]
My head knows better
God, I know it’s nothing new
I see the ending coming
But I still replay the view
How can two truths live inside me
Pulling every nerve apart?
My head says this is hurting me
But you still have my heart

I see the pattern clear as day
I see the way it bends
But every time I try to leave
My hope rewrites the end

And I swear I know the answer
But the feeling won’t agree
That’s the quiet kind of torture
Of loving what can’t love me

[Bridge]
Maybe it’s the loneliness
Maybe it’s the dream
Maybe it’s the way you feel
Like something in between
Maybe it’s the trauma
Maybe it’s the ache
Maybe it’s the version of you
I desperately create

And I hate that I can see it
While I’m still inside the flame
Knowing what this is
But loving you the same

[Final Chorus]
My head knows better
But my heart still runs to you
I hear the truth screaming
But my chest calls it untrue
Every sign was there
Every warning in plain view
Still I kept believing
In a love we never knew

And the hardest thing to swallow
Isn’t losing what we had
It’s how long I fought the truth
Just to keep from feeling sad

Now the truth is getting louder
Like a drum inside my chest
You were never what I needed
Just the ache I couldn’t rest

My head knows better
But my heart still runs to you
And the hardest part of healing
Is finally letting truth cut through.

[Verse 1]
Spent months rebuilding what you broke,
Now one glance and I’m back in smoke.
Therapist says, “You’ve grown, you’re free,”
Then your eyes undo the therapy.
Got people preaching what I deserve,
Holy love and steady nerve.
But baby, your chaos feels like home,
And I can’t quit what’s in my bones.

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not good, it’s not smart,
But you still know the code to my heart.

[Chorus]
So nobody can know,
That I still drive where I said I won’t go.
I hide my halo, wear your sin,
Let you ruin me all over again.
They think I’m healed, they think I’ve grown —
So nobody can know.

[Verse 2]
You text “I miss you” just to test,
And I fall back like it’s reflex.
I know you’re still out there playing games,
And I hate that I still love the flames.
I talk about boundaries, say I’m done,
But my self-control’s on the run.
You look at me — I cave, I melt,
And call the poison something else.

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not right, it’s not fair,
But damn it, I still meet you there.

[Chorus]
So nobody can know,
That I still crave what I outgrew long ago.
You touch my skin, my logic goes,
And I forget all that I know.
I play it cool, I keep it low —
’Cause nobody can know.

[Bridge]
I’ve had angels in my corner,
Showing me what love should be.
But I still chase the storm that warns,
There’s no safety loving me.
I keep my sins in pretty boxes,
Labeled “closure” so they’ll glow.
If they ask where I’ve been lately,
Say, “You don’t wanna know.”

[Final Chorus]
Nobody can know,
That you still haunt the parts I won’t show.
I preach self-worth and I mean it too,
Except when I’m tangled up with you.
It’s twisted, I hate it, I let it flow —
So nobody can know.

[Outro]
Yeah, I know it’s wrong,
But it feels like home.
So nobody… nobody can know.

[Verse 1]
I was already halfway out the door
Quiet peace I never had before
Didn’t need a promise, didn’t need a plan
I was letting go the best I can
Then you reached back, softened up the fall
Said we didn’t have to lose it all
“Still be in your life, just not the same”
But you lit a light you couldn’t maintain

[Pre-Chorus]
You made it sound like we’d still exist
Just a different version of this

[Chorus]
You said we’d still be something, not goodbye
Left a door open just enough to keep me tied
But silence hit me louder than the truth
And now I’m grieving twice because of you
You didn’t end it clean, you blurred the line
Gave me something soft, then took it back in time
If this was you protecting me somehow
Why does it hurt more now?

[Verse 2]
You didn’t want to wear the weight of it
So you dressed it up in something delicate
Called it “friendship,” called it “we’ll be fine”
But there was never action behind the lines
I would’ve taken honest over kind
If kind just means you’re leaving me behind
In something vague I couldn’t understand
While you just slipped right through my hands

[Pre-Chorus]
You tried to make it easier to leave
But all you did was double what I grieve

[Chorus]
You said we’d still be something, not goodbye
Left a door open just enough to keep me tied
But silence hit me louder than the truth
And now I’m grieving twice because of you
You didn’t end it clean, you blurred the line
Gave me something soft, then took it back in time
If this was you protecting me somehow
Why does it hurt more now?

[Bridge]
Don’t call it care if you can’t follow through
Don’t call it love if it’s convenient to you
You say you didn’t want to be the one
But you became the one I can’t outrun
You could’ve just been honest from the start
Instead you left me holding half a heart
A version of us that never stood a chance
Just words with no hands

[Final Chorus]
You said we’d still be something—you were wrong
I don’t exist in places I don’t belong
I’m closing every door you left half-wide
No more almosts in my life
You didn’t break me, just made it clear
I need truth, not comfort disappearing
So take your silence, I’ll take my peace
This is where you lose me

[Verse 1]
You came back like you meant it
Like you finally knew
What it felt like to lose me
What you put me through
Said you missed how I held you
How I loved you right
And I let you back into me
Like you were different this time

[Pre-Chorus]
You looked at me like it was real
Like you finally chose
But something in my body knew
What I didn’t want to know

[Chorus]
You came back like you meant it
Like I was the one you needed
Let me give you my body again
While you were already leaving
You let me believe it was real
While you were somewhere else
Touching me like I was yours
While you were someone else’s
That’s not love, that’s deception
That’s not care, that’s control
You didn’t come back to fix it
You came back because I was close

[Verse 2]
You didn’t even have the decency
To be honest to my face
Just played the part I needed
So you could have your place
I set a line, I said it clearly
“If you’re with someone, I’m gone”
And instead of stepping up for me
You just proved me right all along

[Pre-Chorus]
Now it all feels different
Every memory rewired
You weren’t conflicted
You were just a liar

[Chorus 2]
You came back like you meant it
But you never meant a thing
Just needed something easy
While you lived in between
You let me fall into it
While you knew the truth
That I was giving everything
To someone who never chose

[Bridge]
It’s not even that you left
Or that you couldn’t stay
It’s that you stood in front of me
And acted like you changed
While I was opening back up
Letting you back in
You were already giving
What was mine to someone else again

[Final Chorus]
You came back like you meant it
And that’s what makes it worse
Not that you didn’t love me
But that you rehearsed it first
You don’t get to say you cared
Or act like you were torn
You knew exactly what you were doing
The moment you walked through that door

[Verse 1]
You didn’t say you missed me
You just asked if I was home
Like I’m somewhere you can come to
When you don’t wanna be alone
You came back like it was easy
Like I’d still be on your side
Didn’t ask me if I’m healing
Didn’t ask what you broke inside
No “what are we,” no “where we’re going”
No “I hurt you,” no repair
Just slipped right into my life again
Like you still belonged there
No apologies, no effort
No intention, no plan
Just your hands around my body
Like that’s all you understand
And I knew it in the silence
In the way you didn’t speak
You weren’t here to rebuild anything
You were here because I’m open

[Pre-Chorus]
How do you come back into my bed
But not into my life?
How do you hold me like I’m yours
But never once decide?
You didn’t even try
You didn’t even try

[Chorus]
You came back wrong
Not to love me, just to stay close
Keep me in your reach
While you gave yourself to someone else
You came back wrong
Like I wouldn’t see it through
Like I wouldn’t notice
You were never choosing me—but you

[Chorus]
You came back wrong
Not a man, just passing through
Looking for a version of me
That asked less from you

[Verse 2]
I was gentle, I was patient
Held your chaos like it was mine
You were used to being fought with
I just tried to read your mind
Put your feelings over everything
Every time you pulled away
Made excuses for your distance
Called it space instead of pain
I made room for all your silence
Filled the gaps you never could
Loved you in the ways you needed
Even when it hurt me more

[Pre-Chorus]
And that says more about your limits
Than it ever did about me and you
I was never hard to love
You were just scared of having to

[Chorus]
You came back wrong
Not a man, just passing through
Looking for a version of me
That asked less from you
You came back wrong
Not to love me, just to stay close
Keep me in your reach
While you gave yourself to someone else
You came back wrong
Like I wouldn’t see it through
Like I wouldn’t notice
You were never choosing me—but you

[Bridge]
You don’t miss me, you miss access
Miss the version I let you have
Miss the nights I didn’t question
Why you only loved me halfway back
And I don’t hate you, I just see you
Clearer than I did before
You didn’t lose me to another
You just couldn’t be what I was worth

[Beat Drop / Pause]
You kept me close enough to have me
Far enough you didn’t have to choose
Called it love, but never held me
Only came when it was good for you
Said you cared but couldn’t show it
Said you tried but never did
You wanted me without the weight of
Actually being mine to begin with
You said don’t go, but wouldn’t stay
Said you felt pressure when I’d say
“I deserve more than in-between”
You heard it… but you didn’t mean
You didn’t want to see me move on
But wouldn’t give me something real
So you called me spiteful, just to
Hide the way you couldn’t deal

[Chorus]
But you came back like you chose me
Like I was finally the one
But you just knew I’d still be waiting
Knew I’d never really run
You came back soft and familiar
Like you’d finally become him
But you didn’t come to love me
You came back ’cause you knew I’d choose you again

[Final Chorus]
You came back into my bed
But never into my life
Held me like I was yours
But couldn’t once decide
You came back wrong
And I won’t make that mistake twice
You don’t get my body
You don’t get my life
You came back wrong
And now I see it clear
You didn’t break my heart—
You just don’t belong here
You kept me close enough to have me
But never close enough to choose
And that says more about your limits
Than it ever did about me and you
You said you cared—yeah, I believe you
Just not enough to follow through
And I was never hard to love
You were just scared of having to

[Outro]
Close enough to touch
Never close enough to stay
I stopped reaching out
When you kept pulling away
How do you come back into my bed
But not into my life?
How do you hold me like I’m yours
But never once decide?
You didn’t even try
You didn’t even try

[Verse 1]
I’m back in your arms, but it feels like a rerun
Same couch, same late nights, same walls I can’t outrun
I told myself “this time he’ll show up, he’ll fight”
But I’m still the only one proving I’m right
Your eyes say “I miss you” but your hands feel unsure
Your love’s a locked door I keep opening for
I wanted to believe that comfort was home
But familiar isn’t safe when you’re still alone

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I follow my heart, I lose my mind
Every time I give you a chance, you give me half the signs

[Chorus]
Second chances shouldn’t feel like begging
Shouldn’t feel like praying someone will stay
If you wanted me, you’d make it known
Not leave me guessing every day
I deserve someone who loves out loud, no proof to chase
Someone who’d never let me wonder if I’m in first place
So why am I still here, breaking my own rules?
Second chances shouldn’t feel like this

[Verse 2]
I keep telling myself, “maybe this time’s the cure”
But my scars know better, they’ve seen this before
Hope is a habit I can’t quit cold
You’re the wrong fairytale I keep retelling as gold
You say “don’t call me bro,” you don’t want me to roam
But you don’t build a future, you just visit my home
I’ve got a heart that forgives, but a brain that knows
Every time I come back, it’s just the same closed door

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I follow my heart, I lose my mind
Every time I give you a chance, you give me half the signs

[Chorus]
Second chances shouldn’t feel like begging
Shouldn’t feel like praying someone will stay
If you wanted me, you’d make it known
Not leave me guessing every day
I deserve someone who loves out loud, no proof to chase
Someone who’d never let me wonder if I’m in first place
So why am I still here, breaking my own rules?
Second chances shouldn’t feel like this

[Bridge]
Maybe somewhere there’s a heart
That beats steady, no stop-start
Someone who doesn’t make me question if I’m enough
Maybe someday I’ll believe
I’m worth a love that’s clear and free
Not a ghost of hope I keep waking up to

[Final Chorus]
Second chances shouldn’t feel like begging
Shouldn’t feel like waiting for someone to change
If you wanted me, you’d hold me close
Not keep me dancing at the edge of the stage
I deserve someone who loves out loud, no proof to chase
Who’d never let me wonder if I’m in first place
So I’m walking away, breaking my own chains
Second chances shouldn’t feel like this

[Verse 1 – Cold, Direct]
I was finally getting over you
Sleeping better, thinking clear
Then you show up acting different
Like you actually wanted me here
Said you missed me, said you changed
Said you finally understood
So I let you back inside my life
Like maybe this time you would

[Pre-Chorus – Realization]
But you don’t come back like that
Unless you know I’ll let you in
And you don’t say all those things
Unless you know just where I’ve been

[Chorus – Big, Angry, Clear]
You came back while you were lying
You came back already gone
You came back and slept beside me
While you had someone all along
You really thought I’d never see it
Thought I’d play along again
But I was trying to rebuild my life
While you were doing this again

[Verse 2 – The Call-Out]
I was right there and you still did it
That’s the part I can’t ignore
Not a mistake or bad decision
You just don’t respect me anymore
You don’t rise to meet a woman
You go where you don’t have to grow
That’s the difference between a man
And someone I outgrew long ago

[Pre-Chorus – Cutting]
I told you clear—don’t touch me
If you’re out here with someone else
And instead of stepping up for me
You just went and chose yourself

[Chorus – Harder]
You came back while you were lying
Like I was just your backup plan
Like I wouldn’t figure out
You don’t know how to be a man
You wanted me when it was easy
Late at night, no questions asked
But love don’t look like hiding things
And slipping through the cracks

[Bridge – Almost Spoken]
I wasted years on you
I wasn’t even happy
I kept trying to leave
But you always found your way back to me
And I let you
I actually let you
That’s the part I regret

[Final Chorus – Full Power]
You didn’t break me—you disgust me
That’s the truth I finally see
It’s not that I still want you
I just hate what you did to me
You came back while you were lying
And that says everything
You don’t ruin someone like me
And ever get me again

[Outro – Cold, Final]
Don’t ever come near me again

[Verse 1]
I can’t believe I stayed that long
Calling it love when it felt so wrong
Three years learning how to shrink
Just to fit inside your missing link
You’d show up when it suited you
Late nights, half-truth point of view
I called it hope, you called it space
But you just needed somewhere safe

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t fight for me
You just kept access
And I confused that
With something real

[Chorus]
I was your convenience
Never your choice
You kept me quiet
I gave you a voice
You took my heart
And gave me crumbs
And I kept thinking
You were the one
But love don’t feel like guessing
Or begging to be seen
You didn’t break me
You just showed me what you’ll never be

[Verse 2]
Funny how it all makes sense
Why you never crossed that fence
You said I was “too much” for you
But truth is—you just couldn’t
Rise up, grow up, be that man
Stand beside me, take a stand
So you found someone easier
Someone who won’t understand

[Pre-Chorus]
You played the part so well
Had me doubting my own mind
But clarity’s a cold thing
When it hits you from behind

[Chorus]
I was your convenience
Never your choice
You kept me waiting
I filled the void
You took my love
Like it was free
But nothing about me
Was ever easy

[Bridge]
I wish I never met you
Never let you back inside
Never gave you access
To the softest parts of mine
You don’t get to touch me
Then pretend you didn’t know
What it means to hold a woman
You were never gonna grow

[Final Chorus]
I was your convenience
But I’m not anymore
You don’t get this version
You don’t get this door
You didn’t lose me
You lost your chance
And one day you’ll feel it
When you understand
That love like mine
Don’t come twice
And you chose easy
Over something right

[Verse 1]
My head says this is over
My heart didn’t get the note
I try to sleep, but every thought
Still leads me where you go

I swear I’m fine until I’m not
Every silence says your name
Every room still sounds like you
Your laughter echoing the same

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep telling myself I’m fine
But my body’s still stuck in time
I tried to cut the cord clean
But it just cut into me

[Chorus]
I hate you
I love you
I don’t know how both can stay
I push you away
Then I break when you don’t chase
It feels like we broke up again
Just from not seeing your face

I miss your presence, our late-night laughs and
I don’t know how to live with that

If I hold on, I lose myself
If I let go, I lose everything

I’m losing either way

[Verse 2]
I said maybe we could be friends
Like that wouldn’t tear me apart
But I know the day you love someone new
I disappear from your heart
So I’m losing you either way
Slow bleed or sudden erase
I’m trying so hard to detach
But my mind just keeps you on replay

[Pre-Chorus]
I lie awake, replaying things
I still don’t know how to let go
Distance was supposed to heal
But it just made the silence grow

[Chorus]
I hate you
I love you
I don’t know how to let you go
I miss your presence
The way the silence felt like home
I don’t know if you were my best friend
Or the love I couldn’t save
If I stay, I’m breaking slowly
If I leave, I feel erased
I’m losing either way

[Pre-Bridge – Spiral]
I replay everything we said
Every almost, every edge
I spiral hard, I overthink
Like maybe if I breathe you’ll blink

[Bridge – Collapse]
I reach for space, then feel the ache
I pull away, then feel the pain
I don’t know how to stop loving you
Without erasing myself the same

I hate that I’m still here
Stuck between hope and fear
Trying not to text your name
Trying not to feel insane
I hate that loving you
Feels like something wired in my brain

[Break]
If I let go, I lose you
If I hold on, I lose myself
Tell me how to choose

[Final Chorus]
I hate you, I love you
I wish one would finally die
I’m tired of living in between
Where every night feels like goodbye
I miss your laugh, your gravity
You living rent-free in my brain
I thought time would make this easier
But it just keeps rearranging the pain

[Outro]
I don’t know how to leave
Without losing me
So I sit here
Still here
Loving you

[Verse 1]
I know the nights you go quiet
You’re chasing something new
Your phone lights up for everyone
Before it ever lights for me and you
I recognize the pattern
I know the timing too
You don’t reach out when you’re chosen
You reach out when you’re through

[Pre-Chorus]
When the bars close
When your friends are gone
That’s when my name
Feels easy to want

[Chorus]
I was never your first thought
I was your last call
The place you landed
When nothing else worked at all
You didn’t pick me in the daylight
You didn’t choose me proud
You only wanted me
When you ran out
And I couldn’t stay
Where love felt optional
I couldn’t keep pretending
Being last still counted as chosen

[Verse 2]
You finished living your night
Then showed up at my door
I gave you warmth, I gave you comfort
While you gave me nothing more
I felt it every time
You came after everything else
Like I was only real to you
When you had nothing left

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t plan for me
You didn’t make the space
You fit me in
At the end of your day

[Chorus]
I was never your first thought
I was your last call
The quiet place you came to
When the noise was gone
You didn’t want me publicly
You didn’t choose me loud
You only reached for me
When you ran out
And I couldn’t keep loving
From the bottom of your list
I couldn’t keep surviving
On moments stolen like this

[Bridge]
So I closed the door at midnight
Not because I didn’t care
But because every time I stayed
I disappeared in there
I didn’t leave because I stopped loving you
I left because I loved myself more
And I couldn’t keep teaching my heart
That being last was something to be grateful for

[Final Chorus]
I deserve to be chosen early
Not squeezed into the end
I deserve someone who wants me
Before the night begins
So if you’re lonely now
If you’re missing what you lost
Remember—I was there
You just waited until you ran out

[Outro]
I hope one day you understand
Why I couldn’t stay
I wasn’t asking to be everything
I was just asking not to be last place

[Verse 1]
You liked me better in the dark
After hours, no questions asked
1 AM, you’d play your part
Like honesty would break your mask
Said you “cared” but never chose
Kept one foot out the door
I was building something real
You were keeping score

[Pre-Chorus]
I felt it in the silence
In the space you never filled
You don’t lose a woman like me
You just prove you never will

[Chorus]
You took the easy way out
Didn’t have the guts to grow
Found a girl who asks for less
So you’d never have to show
What it takes to hold someone
Who sees you to your core
You didn’t lose me, baby
You just couldn’t rise for more
You didn’t break my heart
You exposed your fear
A man would’ve stayed
But a boy disappeared

[Verse 2]
Funny how you set the rules
Didn’t want me seen around
All your friends, your little world
Guess you feared I’d figure out
You were hiding in plain sight
Playing both sides clean
Calling me too intense to keep
While you lived in in-between

[Pre-Chorus]
Now it all makes sense
Why you never tried again
You don’t walk away from gold
Unless you’re scared to step in

[Chorus]
You took the easy way out
Didn’t have the guts to grow
Found a girl who asks for less
So you’d never have to show
What it takes to hold someone
Who sees you to your core
You didn’t lose me, baby
You just couldn’t rise for more
You didn’t break my heart
You exposed your fear
A man would’ve stayed
But a boy disappeared

[Bridge]
I was never hard to love
You were hard to be honest with
I didn’t ask for too much
You just didn’t have it to give
You don’t get to touch me soft
Then walk out like I’m nothing
That’s not love, that’s convenience
And I was never something

[Final Chorus]
You took the easy way out
Chose comfort over truth
Traded depth for something simple
’Cause you couldn’t face your proof
That love like mine takes courage
And you don’t have it yet
So you settled for a moment
You’ll outgrow and regret
You didn’t lose me, baby
You revealed yourself
I was something real
You chose something else

[Verse 1]
You don’t have to lie—you just have to show up
But you disappear every time it gets close to enough
I was starving for answers, you were guarding your peace
And I learned the hard way what silence means

[Bridge A – Intro Refrain]
You swear you feel so much
But only when it doesn’t hurt too much

[Verse 2]
You preach compassion, but you choose control
Every time it costs your comfort, you let go
You think your quiet keeps the peace
While I’m the one that can’t find sleep
You call it peace, I call it distance
And I’m left breaking in the silence

[Bridge B – Extension]
You disappear to stay composed
While I’m the one that overdosed
On waiting for a simple sign
That I still matter in your mind

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not anger—it’s the ache of being unseen
Of waiting for words that never leave your screen
You say you feel so deeply, but defense drowns empathy
Your calm is the storm that keeps breaking me

[Chorus]
If silence could speak, it would sound like good-bye
If distance could talk, it would ask you why
You keep your conscience clean while I fall apart
And I’m left carrying both our hearts

[Verse 3]
You say you don’t wanna hurt me
But you do it by doing nothing
I kept mistaking absence for honesty
When it was just avoidance wearing empathy
One message, one line—how hard could it be?
Your peace keeps costing pieces of me

[Bridge C]
I know it stings us both, but only one of us bleeds
Your wall protects you—it buries me
Empathy isn’t what you feel, it’s what you do
And doing nothing tells the truth

[Final Chorus / Outro]
If silence could speak, it would call your name
Tell you that caring shouldn’t feel like shame
You say you’re gentle, you say you’re kind
Then vanish and call it peace of mind
You hide from pain, I drown in proof
Your silence screams the loudest truth
You said nothing to spare yourself
And left me talking to no one else
If silence could speak, it would whisper your name
Tell you that peace and love aren’t the same

[Verse 1]
You come around when the night feels long
Hungry for my body, but not my song
Say you’ve missed me, but your eyes look away
I’m the place you hide, not the one you stay

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it pressure when I let you in
But the weight is the love you’ll never begin
You hold my hand, then you let it fall
I’m the house you enter when the world feels small

[Chorus]
You call it pressure, I call it pain
Dancing in circles, nothing’s changed
If you wanted me, you’d let it show
Not disappear each time I get close

Pressure’s just the name you give
To love you’re too afraid to live
I can’t be your midnight call
Your half a heart, your safety wall

If you wanted me, you’d fight to stay
Not drift in shadows, then fade away
I need a love that’s loud and sure—
Second chances should mean more

[Verse 2]
Your shadow lingers in my bed again
But daylight reminds me where this ends
Familiar feels easy, but easy’s a lie
It’s hope on repeat, it’s goodbye in disguise

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve played this role, I know the lines
I’m the silence filling your midnight
But I can’t keep bleeding for half a man
Who takes my warmth with empty hands

[Chorus]
You call it pressure, I call it pain
Dancing in circles, nothing’s changed
If you wanted me, you’d let it show
Not disappear each time I get close

Pressure’s just the name you give
To love you’re too afraid to live
I can’t be your midnight call
Your half a heart, your safety wall

If you wanted me, you’d fight to stay
Not drift in shadows, then fade away
I need a love that’s loud and sure—
Second chances should mean more

[Bridge]
One day I’ll give my fire to someone who stays
Who calls me his always, not just his escape
Who doesn’t make me question, doesn’t make me beg
Who builds a future, not a bed

[Final Chorus]
You call it pressure, I call it pain
Dancing in circles, nothing’s changed
If you wanted me, you’d let it show
Not disappear each time I get close

Pressure’s just the name you give
To love you’re too afraid to live
I can’t be your midnight call
Your half a heart, your safety wall

If you wanted me, you’d fight to stay
Not drift in shadows, then fade away
I need a love that’s loud and sure—
Second chances should mean more

[Verse 1]
You come to me when the nights get cold
Hungry for the warmth you already know
My arms, my body, my open door
But comfort alone can’t give me more

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not a shelter for your in-between
Not the halfway house for broken dreams
If you want me, it’s got to be real
Not just the pieces you want to feel

[Chorus]
You want comfort, body, and familiarity
But I need pursuit, love, and security
You don’t get me halfway, it’s all or none
I won’t be waiting when the night is done
Love should be safety, clarity, joy—
Not the constant question, not the noise
If doubt’s all you bring, then you’re not the one
Halfway isn’t love—it’s already gone

[Verse 2]
You call it pressure when I ask for more
But silence has weight I can’t ignore
If you miss me, then prove it clear
Don’t vanish, then reappear

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve learned to trust what my body knows
Love that brings peace is the love that grows
Anything less is a losing game
And I won’t play it in your name

[Chorus]
You want comfort, body, and familiarity
But I need pursuit, love, and security
You don’t get me halfway, it’s all or none
I won’t be waiting when the night is done
Love should be safety, clarity, joy—
Not the constant question, not the noise
If doubt’s all you bring, then you’re not the one
Halfway isn’t love—it’s already gone

[Bridge]
One day I’ll find a heart that stays
That calls me his always, not just escape
Love without fear, without disguise
The kind that meets me eye to eye

[Final Chorus]
You want comfort, body, and familiarity
But I was made for love, not uncertainty
You don’t get me halfway, it’s all or none
I won’t be waiting when the night is done
Love should be safety, clarity, joy—
Not the constant question, not the noise
If you can’t give that, then I’ll let you go…
Halfway isn’t love—I deserve to know

[Verse 1]
You came back when the silence broke
Saw me laughing, loved by someone who spoke
You missed my smile, my steady ground
But you still won’t let your walls come down
I feel you close but you turn away
Afraid of the words you don’t want to say
You hold my body, but not my eyes
It’s love in pieces, cut down to size

[Pre-Chorus]
You say it’s heavy, you say it’s too much
But it’s not the weight—it’s the risk of trust
Every time you reach, you pull back fast
Like love’s a flame that can’t ever last

[Chorus]
Your silence speaks louder than your hands on me
A love that hides is no love I need
I won’t beg for scraps, I won’t chase you down
You’re lost inside walls you won’t tear down
I deserve a fire that stays, not fades
A heart that’s open, not afraid
If you can’t be clear, then you’re not the one—
Love isn’t real if it can’t be sung

[Verse 2]
You call it pressure when I need to know
But avoidance is the only language you show
You miss me, you want me, but you still can’t choose
To risk the love you’re afraid to lose
I see the fear dressed up as pride
I see the boy still learning to hide
You come back lonely, but never whole
A body here, but a guarded soul

[Pre-Chorus]
You say it’s stress, you say it’s not right
But it’s not love if it only lives at night
Every word you swallow turns into doubt
And I won’t keep shrinking while you shut me out

[Chorus]
Your silence speaks louder than your hands on me
A love that hides is no love I need
I won’t beg for scraps, I won’t chase you down
You’re lost inside walls you won’t tear down
I deserve a fire that stays, not fades
A heart that’s open, not afraid
If you can’t be clear, then you’re not the one—
Love isn’t real if it can’t be sung

[Bridge]
I know the story, I’ve read the signs
Avoidance dressed up as love this time
But craving care is not the same as truth
And I won’t starve in the name of you

[Final Chorus]
Your silence speaks louder than your hands on me
A love that hides is no love I need
I won’t beg for scraps, I won’t chase you down
You’re lost inside walls you won’t tear down
I deserve a love that’s steady, known
Not half a heart, not a borrowed home
If you can’t be clear, then I’ll walk away—
I’m done with love that can’t be named

[Verse 1]
Oh no, you didn’t use me
You just took what felt good for a while
Left me with the echoes and questions
And that classic guilty smile
You saw me start to move on
Then came back right on cue—
Said everything I wanted
Then vanished like you do

[Pre-Chorus]
You wanted comfort, not connection
Validation, not reflection
But sure… you didn’t use me

[Chorus]
You call it honesty, I call it convenience
You say confusion, I say experience
You take what soothes, avoid what stings
Then act like silence fixes things
Confusion says, “I’m still finding out”
Use says, “I’ll take what feels good, then peace out”
But no—of course—you didn’t use me

[Verse 2]
You came back ’cause you missed attention
Not the person that gave it
You wanted soft when it suited you
Then silence when you couldn’t face it
You wanted relief, not meaning
A soft place, not healing
But no, you didn’t use me… right?

[Bridge]
You wanted the high, not the healing
The chase, not the meaning
You lit the match, then blamed the flame—
Guess shame’s your favorite feeling
You take what’s soft, turn it rough
Call it peace when you’ve had enough
But baby, comfort isn’t care
And I’m not yours to repair

You took what soothed you
Dodged what grew you
Left me holding both the truth and the bruise
And still somehow
You say you didn’t use me

[Final Chorus / Outro]
You call it honesty, I call it habit
You found comfort, then ran from having it
Confusion feels like maybe
Use feels like proof you’re empty
But no, you didn’t use me—
You just needed to feel chosen
I gave you peace
You left it broken

[Verse 1]
You walked in like you owned it
Every corner, every key
Turned my home into a habit
Like it didn’t belong to me
You’d reach for what was mine
Like it was yours to take
Never asked, never replaced
Never fixed what you’d break

Everything I gave so freely
Blurred together into one
Like my body wasn’t sacred, like my giving was your fun
You took without a question
Like I owed you oxygen
And I stayed there second guessing
What I knew within

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to trust my body but you rewrote what was real
Said I was overthinking what I knew I could feel

[Chorus]
You used me like a shelter, like a place to land at night
Like my love was just a resource you could drain and call it right
You took my time, my body, my forgiveness, my peace
And I kept on giving pieces hoping you’d finally see me
But you didn’t love me
You just loved what I gave
And I hate that I stayed long enough
To watch myself fade

[Verse 2]
You’d show up when you needed, disappear when I did too
I was never your decision, just convenient to you
Late night like a fallback when the world didn’t reply
And I let you in my bed while you kept me out your life
You took my softness like it was something I owed
Took my patience like a place you could unload
Took my healing, I was finally learning me
And you turned it into something I couldn’t even believe

[Pre-Chorus]
You never said it straight to me, just hid it in between
And my body kept on screaming what you wouldn’t let me see

[Chorus]
You used me like a shelter, like a place to land at night
Like my love was just a resource you could drain and call it right
You took my food, my energy, my spirit, my trust
And I kept on pouring into someone empty of us
You didn’t choose me
You just knew I would stay
And that’s the kind of damage
That rewires your brain

[Bridge – Raw, Almost Spoken]
I wasn’t crazy
I wasn’t wrong
I wasn’t asking you for too much all along
You took and took and took from me
Then told me I was hard to please
But loving you was costing me
My sanity
And that’s the part I can’t undo—
I almost stopped believing me for you

[Final Chorus]
You used me like a shelter, like a body, like a home
Like I was something temporary you could pick up when alone
You took my youth, my safety, my ability to trust
And I’m the one still healing from the weight of us
But I see it clearer now
I feel it in my bones
I was never asking too much
I was just asking the wrong one

[Outro – Reclaiming]
You don’t get my softness anymore
You don’t get access like before
What you took, I’m taking back
You don’t get to love me like that

[Verse 1]
You showed up at my door at 2 AM
We talked till the night gave up again
You said you thought I wanted someone new
But the truth is, it was always you
Jealous eyes and quiet fears
Mixed signals screaming in my ears
Hold me close, then let me go
You want me, but you’re scared to show

[Pre-Chorus]
You miss me in the shadows
But you hide when it gets real
You’re tangled in the push and pull
Afraid of how you feel

[Chorus]
Part of you wants to come back home
Part of you runs when you’re not alone
Your love is caught between the fear and the fire
Deep talks, then silence, tangled in the wire
It’s not that you don’t care, it’s clear
Your care is just tangled with fear

[Verse 2]
You read the books I begged you to
After I was already gone from you
Said you drive by just to see
Who might be laying next to me
You hold me like you can’t let go
Then vanish when it starts to show
It’s not that you don’t want my love
You’re just terrified it’s enough

[Pre-Chorus]
You want me in the quiet
But you flinch when I’m too near
You’re drowning in the what-ifs
Haunted by your fear

[Chorus]
Part of you wants to come back home
Part of you runs when you’re not alone
Your love is caught between the fear and the fire
Deep talks, then silence, tangled in the wire
It’s not that you don’t care, it’s clear
Your care is just tangled with fear

[Bridge]
You’re the jealous, regretful, restless side
And the boy who runs away to hide
I see the love inside your eyes
But it’s chained to the fear you can’t disguise

[Final Chorus]
Part of you wants to come back home
Part of you runs when you’re not alone
Your love is caught between the fear and the fire
Deep talks, then silence, tangled in the wire
It’s not that you don’t care, it’s clear
Your care is just tangled with fear

[Outro]
And part of me still wants you here…
But love can’t live on tangled fear

[Verse 1]
You’re not a villain, you’re just scared
I saw it in the way you’d disappear
Not angry, not cruel
Just folding into what feels familiar
I never needed you perfect
Or polished or strong
I just needed you willing
To face the places you run from
I could see the war behind your eyes
The way closeness felt like compromise
I never thought you didn’t care
I just knew you were terrified
And I loved you through it

[Pre-Chorus]
They say “just leave,” like it’s that easy
Like I didn’t see the good in you
Like I didn’t see the man you could be
If you wanted to

[Chorus]
It’s heartbreaking
Watching you choose comfort over growth
Choosing silence over hard conversations
Choosing distance when I needed hope
I would’ve stayed
I would’ve fought
I would’ve built something holy
But I can’t compete
With the version of you
That’s too afraid to change for me

[Verse 2]
I would’ve held your shaking hands
While you tore your walls apart
I wasn’t asking for a hero
Just a man with an honest heart
You said it was overwhelming
Said you didn’t know how
But I would’ve walked beside you
If you’d just taken one step out
I wasn’t asking you to be flawless
I was asking you to try
To stretch beyond your comfort
Instead of letting us die
There are a hundred things I love about you
The way you try in quiet ways
The way you soften when you feel safe
The way you almost stay
Except the part where love requires
Risking who you’ve always been
And I kept thinking if I loved you well enough
You’d rise

[Pre-Chorus]
Love is uncomfortable
It asks you to grow
But comfort is familiar
And you never let it go
Men move mountains when they’re sure
When they don’t want to lose her
But I guess I wasn’t the fire
You’d burn your fear for

[Chorus]
It’s devastating
Watching you choose ease over us
Choosing safety over depth
Choosing fear over trust
You’d rather stay the same
Than learn to love me better
And I can’t build forever
With someone who won’t evolve
It’s not that you didn’t feel it
It’s not that you didn’t care
You just weren’t willing
To meet me there

[Bridge]
Maybe I’m the girl
Who shows them how
To open up
To really feel it now
Maybe I’m the lesson
They only understand
After I’m gone
With no way back again
And God it hurts
To know you might
Become everything I needed
In someone else’s life
Maybe one day
You’ll look back
And see us for what we were
Maybe you’ll finally do the work
When losing me starts to hurt
But I can’t stay
Waiting on potential
To turn into a man

[Final Chorus]
It’s heartbreaking
’Cause I saw who you could be
But I can’t love potential
When it won’t choose me
Love isn’t just comfort
It’s effort and repair
And I deserve somebody
Who’s brave enough to meet me there
You didn’t lose me
Because you were broken
You lost me
Because you wouldn’t grow
And I can’t keep proving
I’m worth becoming better for
When love should make you want
To become more
Not run from what you’re meant for

[Outro]
You were everything
Except ready
And that’s the saddest part of all
You didn’t lose me
Because you were incapable
You lost me
Because you stayed the same through it all

[Verse 1]
You called it space
But it felt like distance
Like I was talking
And you stopped listening

You’d disappear
Without a warning
And leave me alone
With my thoughts forming

And they weren’t kind
No, they turned on me
Filled in the blanks
With worst-case memories

You could’ve said it
In a single line
But you let silence
Rewrite your side

[Pre-Chorus]
And I kept carrying
What you wouldn’t say
Like it was my job
To find a way

[Chorus]
Your silence was louder
Than anything you said
It built every fear
Inside my head

You left me guessing
You left me small
Trying to understand
Nothing at all

You call it peace
But it tore me apart
’Cause silence doesn’t heal
It just breaks a heart

[Verse 2]
I broke my rules
Just to keep you close
Crossed every line
I swore I wouldn’t cross

Let you in places
I don’t let people see
Trusted you gently
With all of me

And somewhere in between
Holding on too tight
I lost myself
Trying to make you right

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t have to leave
To let me go
You just stopped showing up
And let it show

[Chorus]
Your silence was louder
Than anything you said
It built every fear
Inside my head

You left me guessing
You left me small
Trying to understand
Nothing at all

You call it peace
But it tore me apart
’Cause silence doesn’t heal
It just breaks a heart

[Bridge]
So this is me
Not chasing you

No long messages
No “please come through”

No begging for answers
You won’t give
No shrinking myself
Just to fit

If you wanted to stay
You would’ve stayed
Love doesn’t hide
Or walk away

[Break]
This isn’t anger…
It’s release

[Final Chorus]
So I’ll give you the silence
You always chose
Let you feel the absence
Of what you lost

No more proving
What I’m worth
No more staying
Just to hurt

If you notice I’m gone
Just know it’s true

I didn’t lose you…
I chose me
Over you

[Outro]
And it’s quiet now…
But finally
It feels like peace

[Verse 1]
You knocked on a door you already walked away from
Looked me in the eyes like you still felt the same
You knew I would’ve never opened up that wound again
If I’d known another girl was already wearing your name

You sat on my couch and talked about forever
Like there was still a future left for us to find
But every promise sounded different in the dark
’Cause you were already hers while pretending you were mine

[Pre-Chorus]
I wasn’t crazy
I wasn’t imagining things
There was a reason I could feel you disappearing
While you were lying through your teeth

[Chorus]
You came back while you were sleeping with somebody else
You came back while she was waiting for your calls
You came back and let me believe you missed me
While building a life somewhere behind my walls

You held my hand with blood already on it
You kissed me with somebody else’s name on your lips
And when she found out what you were doing

You didn’t choose love
You chose the lie you couldn’t fix

And that’s what kills me

You came back

When you never should’ve come back at all

[Verse 2]
You needed somewhere safe when things got heavy
Needed someone who would always let you in
She got the version of you that got the future
I got the version that just needed somewhere to land again

You took my loyalty and called it friendship
Took my forgiveness and called it fate
Took every part of me that still believed in you
Then left me holding all the weight

[Pre-Chorus]
Now every memory is different
Every answer has a brand new face
Because the whole damn story changes
When the truth gets put back in its place

[Chorus]
You came back while you were sleeping with somebody else
You came back while she was trusting every word
You came back and used my heart like a hotel room
Somewhere to stay until reality was heard

And when she asked you who you wanted
When everything finally came to light

You reassured her

While leaving me behind

[Bridge]
You could’ve left me alone

That’s the part nobody sees

You could’ve stayed gone

You could’ve let me heal

You could’ve let me find someone

Who wasn’t already making promises somewhere else

But you wanted access

Access to my body

Access to my comfort

Access to my forgiveness

Access to knowing somebody still loved you

While you were giving someone else everything I thought we were rebuilding

And maybe that’s the cruelest part

You knew exactly what hope would do to me

And you came back anyway

[Final Chorus]
You didn’t lose me

You used me

There’s a difference

One is heartbreak

The other is betrayal

One is choosing someone else

The other is making me believe I still had a choice

You came back while you were already gone

You came back with another woman in your arms

And when the truth finally stood between us

You protected her feelings

While destroying mine

So don’t call this bad timing

Don’t call it complicated

Don’t call it a mistake

Because mistakes happen once

This happened every day you knew

And still looked me in the eyes

And came back anyway

[Verse 1]
Tell me what kind of man comes back
To a woman he’s already left
What kind of man knocks on that door
Knowing somebody else is waiting for him instead

What kind of man says all the right things
Lets her think there’s still a chance
Lets her open up old wounds again

While hiding another set of hands

You sat on my couch
You slept in my bed
You looked me in the eyes
And listened to everything I said

Knowing damn well
There was a truth you weren’t telling me

[Pre-Chorus]
And I would’ve walked away

That’s the part that eats you alive

Because if I knew what you knew

You never would’ve gotten access to my life

[Chorus]
What kind of man does that?

What kind of man comes back for comfort
When he’s already giving commitment somewhere else?

What kind of man takes love from one woman
While building a future with another?

What kind of man lets somebody believe
They’re rebuilding something real

When he already knows

He’s not staying?

Tell me

What kind of man does that?

[Verse 2]
You didn’t choose her the day you left

You chose her while you were still here

That’s why every memory feels dirty now

Every answer sounds insincere

Because while I was trying to figure us out

You were figuring out how to keep us both

One for comfort

One for commitment

One for today

One for tomorrow

And somehow you convinced yourself

That made you a good person

[Pre-Chorus]
I told you where my boundary was

I said it plain as day

If there was somebody else

I wasn’t staying

You knew that

And kept showing up anyway

[Chorus]
What kind of man does that?

What kind of man sleeps beside someone
Who’s making decisions based on lies?

What kind of man watches somebody trust him
And says nothing?

What kind of man takes the parts of a relationship he wants

The affection

The attention

The loyalty

The body

The comfort

And then disappears

When accountability finally arrives?

[Bridge]
And maybe the sickest part

Wasn’t even choosing her

Maybe the sickest part

Was how you ended it

Because you didn’t sit down and tell me the truth

You didn’t respect me enough for that

You didn’t call

You didn’t explain

You didn’t apologize

You just vanished

Because she found out

And suddenly I wasn’t allowed access anymore

Do you know how twisted that feels?

To realize someone can be in your house one day

And erase you the next

Not because they stopped caring

But because they got caught

[Final Chorus]
What kind of man does that?

What kind of man rewrites somebody’s reality

Then leaves them alone to sort through the wreckage?

What kind of man comes back

Pretends to love

Pretends to care

Pretends to rebuild

While knowing the whole thing has an expiration date?

You didn’t just break my heart

You broke my trust in what was real

You made me question memories

Question conversations

Question my own instincts

And that’s not love

That’s not kindness

That’s not confusion

That’s not a mistake

That’s a choice

Made over and over and over again

Every time you walked through my door

Knowing what you weren’t telling me

[Outro]
I used to wonder why you came back

Now I wonder something else

How do you look in the mirror

And live with yourself?

[Verse 1]
I don’t miss you
I’m disgusted by the things I learned
The way your actions contradicted
Every lesson that you preached in words

And I keep staring at the wreckage
Trying to understand
How someone I loved for so long
Could be someone I never knew

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep replaying every memory
Looking for the moment where the truth slipped through
Trying to separate the man I loved
From the man you turned into

[Chorus]
Maybe that’s the trauma talking
Maybe that’s the bond breaking slow
Not missing you, just missing answers
To questions I’ll never know

Because the hardest part isn’t losing you
It’s losing the picture I held
Trying to make sense of the lies
The manipulation and hell

And realizing the man I loved
Was a version you sold to me
Now I’m grieving someone who never existed
And that’s what’s killing me

[Verse 2]
I remember defending you
When everyone could see the signs
Believing every explanation
Even when it never felt right

You came back when you saw me leaving
Made me think you finally chose
But all you really wanted was access
While keeping your options open

I wasn’t asking for perfection
I was asking for the truth
But you let me keep believing
Things you knew were never true

[Pre-Chorus]
Now every piece is falling into place
But clarity doesn’t take away the pain

[Chorus]
Maybe that’s the trauma talking
Maybe that’s the bond breaking slow
Not missing you, just missing answers
To questions I’ll never know

Because the hardest part isn’t losing you
It’s losing the picture I held
Trying to make sense of the lies
The manipulation and hell

And realizing the man I loved
Was a version you sold to me
Now I’m grieving someone who never existed
And that’s what’s killing me

[Bridge]
I don’t want you back
I want my trust back
The part of me that saw the good
And never thought to question that

I don’t cry because you’re gone
I cry because it’s true
The man I gave my heart to
Was never really you

[Final Chorus]
Maybe that’s the healing talking
Maybe that’s me letting go
Accepting some questions don’t get answers
And some wounds heal slow

Because the hardest part isn’t losing you
It’s accepting what I see
You were never who I thought you were
But that’s no longer on me

And realizing the man I loved
Was a version you sold to me
Now I’m grieving someone who never existed
But he won’t keep haunting me

[Verse 1]
I forget the way you cut me down
How you laughed when I was bleeding out
How you’d turn your back when I needed your hand
Now my memory’s playing tricks on me
Only showing me the parts I miss
Blocking out the nights I cried, pretending to stand

[Pre-Chorus]
And these new boys don’t feel right
Drown themselves in whiskey, talk all night
You were quiet, let me pour my storms on you
And somehow that feels like truth…

[Chorus]
I wish it could’ve worked with you
If you wanted to, if you wanted to
All you had to do was meet me halfway
Drop the mask, let your guard break
I wish you saw what we could’ve been
Instead of hiding in your skin
God, we could’ve had it all if you
If you wanted to…

[Verse 2]
You were never honest, never kind
Loved the lust but not the fight
Mocked my feelings just to watch me fall
But now compared to what I’ve found
You look like gold in this ghost town
Funny how the worst of you feels better than them all

[Pre-Chorus]
I know I wasn’t happy then
Grieving us before the end
But I’d trade all these empty hands I hold
For a love that never got to grow…

[Chorus]
I wish it could’ve worked with you
If you wanted to, if you wanted to
All you had to do was stay and try
Stop the games, stop the lies
I wish you’d chosen healing too
God, I would’ve walked the fire with you
We could’ve been so strong, so true
If you wanted to…

[Bridge]
And maybe someday I’ll stop asking why
Stop replaying all the ways you let me die
But tonight I can’t help but see
The man you could’ve been with me…

[Final Chorus]
I wish it could’ve worked with you
If you wanted to, if you wanted to
I gave my heart, you gave your fear
I screamed for love, you wouldn’t hear
So I’ll hold the dream of what we missed
The life we lost, the love that slipped
’Cause all it needed, all it ever needed
Was you… if you wanted to

[Verse 1]
I keep telling myself I’m fine
But something in me tightens every time you say you’re “busy”
You talk like there’s no air left in your day
Like life’s too full to let me in
But somehow there’s always space for everything but me again

[Pre-Chorus]
And I’m not asking for too much
Just a place in the life you claim is overflowing
But when someone matters, you find room
And you don’t leave them guessing where it’s going

[Chorus]
’Cause if you wanted to, you would
If you meant it, you’d try
You wouldn’t hide behind excuses
Or tell me there’s no time
You’d meet me somewhere in the middle
Make it simple like love should
If your heart was really in it
You’d show up in the ways you could
If you wanted to, you would…
And that’s the part that’s finally starting to look like truth

[Verse 2]
You keep saying you can’t give me
The time you think I “deserve”
But all I hear is distance
Wrapped in careful chosen words
It’s the way you stay vague when I’m reaching out
The way you keep me close enough to feel
But far enough to doubt

[Pre-Chorus]
And I’m not asking for a miracle
Just honesty instead of shade
Just clarity instead of this fog
That never seems to fade

[Chorus]
’Cause if you wanted to, you would
If you felt it, you’d act
You wouldn’t tell me you’re overwhelmed
Then live like everything’s intact
You’d make space without me asking
You’d show me where I stood
If you loved me like you say you do
Your actions would look like they should
If you wanted to, you would…
But you don’t, and that’s the heaviness I’ve been walking through

[Bridge]
And I don’t even know what I’m feeling
It’s a mix of truth and ache and fear
It’s the trigger of remembering
Every time I’ve been told
“I can’t,”
When the real answer was
“I won’t.”

[Breakdown]
I’m not hard to choose
I’m not hard to meet halfway
I just need someone who shows up
Not someone who explains me away

[Final Chorus]
If you wanted to, you would
If your heart was in it, I’d know
I wouldn’t be sorting through confusion
Trying to read what you won’t show
Love wouldn’t feel this one-sided
This unclear, this misunderstood
If you wanted to, you would…
And maybe letting myself see that
Is the only thing that ever truly hurt

[Verse 1]
You said you needed space, said you didn’t know
Pulled away slow like I wouldn’t notice it go
But every time I stepped back, you’d pull me close
Like you wanted me there, just not enough to choose
You kept me in reach, but never in place
Close enough to feel, far enough to replace
And I stayed patient, thought you were just scared
Didn’t know indecision was you not being there

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t lose me overnight
You lost me in the maybe
In every moment you held back
Instead of choosing me

[Chorus]
You couldn’t choose me, so I chose myself
Now you’re calling it spite like it’s something else
Say I moved on just to make you feel small
But you walked away first—I just answered the call
You call it distance, I call it truth
You didn’t pick me—I outgrew you
And now your ego’s the only thing bruised
’Cause I didn’t wait around for you to choose

[Verse 2]
You loved me in a careful way
Like I was something you could lose
Not enough to let me go
Not enough to really choose
You held me just to keep me close
But never close enough to stay
I learned to live inside the space
Of almost every day
You watched me move on like it was a game
Turned it into something just to soften the blame
Said I was petty, said I did it to hurt you
But I was just doing what you couldn’t do
You had your chance, you just let it sit
While I held space for something real in it
Now you’re rewriting what you couldn’t face
Calling me wrong just to save your place

[Pre-Chorus]
I was trying to hold you
You were trying to feel less
You needed me close
Just not enough to commit to us

[Chorus]
You couldn’t choose me, so I chose myself
Now you’re calling it spite like it’s something else
Say I moved on just to make you feel small
But you walked away first—I just answered the call
You call it distance, I call it truth
You didn’t pick me—I outgrew you
And now your ego’s the only thing bruised
’Cause I didn’t wait around for you to choose

[Bridge]
I wasn’t hard to love—you were hard to decide
Wanted all of me without picking a side
And when I stopped waiting, you started to see
It was never too much—just too real to keep

[Final Chorus]
You couldn’t choose me… so I chose myself
Now you’re left with the space you created yourself
You call it distance, I call it truth
You didn’t pick me—I outgrew you

[Outro]
You didn’t lose me all at once
You lost me every time you didn’t choose

[Verse 1]
We started out like magic, hands held tight, hearts open wide
You said I was your peace, the one you’d always stand beside
But late at night, you’d scroll away—faces that weren’t mine
And I kept shrinking smaller, pretending I was fine

[Pre-Chorus]
You said you’d stop, swore you’d change
But the same damn names kept flooding my page
And the one I cried over from the start?
You double-tapped her post—like you forgot my heart

[Chorus]
You were laying in my bed, asking her on a date
Told me lies to my face, said you thought I was doing the same
But I gave you every second, every soft piece of my soul
Still, you were always reaching for more
Like I was never whole

[Verse 2]
OnlyFans tabs, strangers’ pics—was that your little thrill?
You said it meant nothing, but I was bleeding still
You watched me crumble, gaslit my doubt
Said ‘I thought you were with someone’—just to twist your way out

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I played the cool girl, stayed quiet and sweet
While you chased illusions you could never keep
Blamed me for your guilt, wore shame like a shield
But love ain’t love when it’s forced to heal

[Chorus]
You were laying in my bed, asking her on a date
Told me lies to my face, said you thought I was doing the same
But I gave you every second, every soft piece of my soul
Still, you were always reaching for more
Like I was never whole

[Bridge]
You’ll find a new girl, dress her in praise
But the cycle don’t stop when you don’t change
She’ll feel like a goddess… ’til she’s in my place
Staring at your screen while you lie to her face

[Final Chorus]
You were laying in my bed, loving someone else’s face
Said you thought I was gone—no, you just needed escape
I gave you all of me, while you searched for something fake
Now I’m done being less than enough
For a man who always breaks

[Outro]
Perfect in the beginning
Pulled away in the end
But I’m not the one who’s empty
You just can’t hold what’s real when it’s in your hands.

[Verse 1]
I wasn’t ‘too much’ for asking to be seen
Just the bare minimum—nothing extreme
But you kept me doubting, left me chasing
While you were out hiding, replacing
You called me flirty when I stayed true
While you were DM’ing someone new
Transparency was all I gave
But you spun it back like I misbehaved

[Pre-Chorus]
You kept me waiting, never gave me peace
But you couldn’t handle an ounce of your own disease

[Chorus]
Demanding loyalty while breaking it
Demanding reassurance while refusing it
Demanding transparency while hiding—
Your double standard was blinding
You couldn’t give what you craved from me
Kept me guessing just to feel in control
But here’s the truth you can’t erase
I carried it all alone

[Verse 2]
You left me guessing, but you couldn’t bear the same
Projected your guilt, tried to hand me the blame
Said I had shadows, but they were your own
I was loyal while you roamed
You accused me of things you did
Wrote me a villain so you could kid
But the cracks show through your alibi
And I won’t carry your lie

[Pre-Chorus]
You were terrified of giving what was real
So you left me spinning just to keep the wheel

[Chorus]
Demanding loyalty while breaking it
Demanding reassurance while refusing it
Demanding transparency while hiding—
Your double standard was blinding
You couldn’t give what you craved from me
Kept me guessing just to feel in control
But here’s the truth you can’t erase
I carried it all alone

[Bridge – Shouted / Guitars Punching]
You left me doubting when my gut was right
Gaslit the fire, killed my light
Needed me chasing while you disappeared
But the mask you wore is what I feared
Now it’s your turn to sit with the unknown
Taste the silence you carved in stone

[Final Chorus]
Demanding loyalty while breaking it
Demanding reassurance while refusing it
Demanding transparency while hiding—
Your hypocrisy’s not surprising
I gave the love you couldn’t hold
You played with fire, left me cold
But I’ve found the power you disowned
I carried it all alone.

[Verse 1]
You said I was different, said I lit up your sky
Called me your peace, your mirror, your high
But when the storm came, you pulled away
Too scared to feel, too scared to stay

You talked like a man but loved like a ghost
Told me you’d rise, then sank the most
It wasn’t that you didn’t care—
You just didn’t have the air

[Pre-Chorus]
You said I was too much
But the truth is, I was enough
You just weren’t ready for the weight of real love

[Chorus]
You couldn’t hold it—what I sparked in you
So you ran and called it timing
Said you needed space, but really
You needed hiding
And I saw the truth you wouldn’t face
I was a mirror, not a cage
You didn’t lose a woman—
You just couldn’t meet the flame you lit

[Verse 2]
I gave you soft when you were used to games
Offered depth, not someone to tame
You saw a future, then got scared
Thought loving me meant being bare

But love ain’t for the boys who flinch
At truth, at growth, at anything that pinches
You collapsed where you could’ve climbed
And left me in the ruins of your mind

[Pre-Chorus]
You said I was too deep
But the truth is, you were asleep
To a love that asks you not to run, but leap

[Chorus]
You couldn’t hold it—what I sparked in you
So you ran and called it timing
Said you needed space, but really
You needed hiding
And I saw the truth you wouldn’t face
I was a mirror, not a cage
You didn’t lose a woman—
You just couldn’t meet the flame you lit

[Bridge]
I don’t chase love
I am love
And when a man is ready
He won’t run—he’ll rise above
You weren’t cruel
You were just… not strong enough
To take responsibility for your heart

[Final Chorus]
You couldn’t hold it—what I sparked in you
So you ran and called it fate
But deep down, you knew
It wasn’t me you feared, it was your own truth
You saw a queen, but stayed a kid
I lit the fire, but you couldn’t live in it
You didn’t lose a woman—
You released yourself from the mirror I was in.

[Verse 1]
I see someone unsure of me, so I’m unsure too
You watched me give my all, and still said, ‘What did you do?’
You blamed your silence on my loyalty
Like my presence was the reason you needed to leave

You said you thought I had someone else
But I was just loving you—and losing myself
While you were in DMs trying out your next thrill
I was home, trying to believe you loved me still

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t call me beautiful, you don’t even try
You don’t double tap, but you double lie
You want control, not connection
You want options, not reflection

[Chorus]
If you wanted me, you’d show it—not just say it when it’s safe
If you cared, you’d prove it—not accuse me just in case
You don’t want me free, but you’re not all in
One foot out, and the other pretending
You don’t want me gone, but you don’t want to stay
So I’m done being your ‘maybe’ for another day
If you wanted me—you’d act like it
But I see now… you never did

[Verse 2]
You said you come around so I won’t be with someone else
Not to hold me—just to keep me on your shelf
You won’t invest in love, just crypto and your pride
But real men don’t let love slip by

I begged for something steady
You gave me half of almost-ready
Short answers and a shut-down stare
Told me you ‘can’t reassure’ what’s not there

[Pre-Chorus]
Never asked me out, never paid the bill
But suddenly you’re taking other girls to chill?
I was just easy—and always around
Now I’m watching how deep your standards go down

[Chorus]
If you wanted me, you’d show it—not keep me in between
If you cared, you’d hold me—not just say what you don’t mean
You don’t want me gone, but you won’t choose me
You don’t want love, just loyalty on a leash
You don’t want to try, but don’t want to lose
So you keep me close just to never choose
If you wanted me—you’d act like it
But I see now… you never did

[Bridge]
I want someone who sees my tears and shows up
Not someone who leaves when I open up
I want someone who drops what they can
Not just a boy scared of being a man

[Final Chorus]
If you wanted me, you’d claim me, not keep me secret
You’d build with me, not ask me to shrink it
You’d show the world, not act like I’m shame
You’d hold my heart like you wanted my name
But you don’t
And you never did

[Outro]
I’m not your fear buffer
I’m not your ‘until I find another’
I’m done being almost—I’m not yours to waste
I want real love, not just someone to chase.

[Verse 1]
I went quiet, not dramatic
Just took space, did it right
You were busy getting sloppy
With someone from my night
Didn’t call you, didn’t chase you
Didn’t play into your game
Thirty days of you in silence
Guess that bruised your pride… what a shame

[Pre-Chorus]
I didn’t need to see your page
Didn’t need to check your name
You weren’t even on my radar
Till you made it ’bout your ego again

[Chorus]
You blocked me back
The second I was free
Like you couldn’t handle
Not having access to me
You blocked me back
Tryna take control
But you only made a move
When you felt me let go
You’re hiding from someone
Who’s not even looking your way
That’s not power, baby
That’s your ego on display

[Verse 2]
Private stories, no one watching
You don’t even post like that
So who you performing for
With your little counterattack?
I was out here living freely
You were busy keeping score
Funny how you needed distance
When I wasn’t yours anymore

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You say I’m spiteful, I’m the problem
But look at what you do
You rewrite the whole damn story
Just to not look like it’s you

[Chorus – Evolved]
You blocked me back
Right when I let it die
Like you needed the last word
Just to soothe your pride
You blocked me back
But it’s easy to see
You didn’t want distance
You just lost control of me
You’re hiding from someone
Who already walked away
That’s not power, baby
That’s your ego on display

[Bridge]
Wait—
You thought I was checking for you?
Thought I needed access?
You were sleeping with someone
I’d just been around
And now you’re blocking me
Like I’m the threat?
No…
You’re just mad
I didn’t come back begging

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I didn’t lose you
I just stopped choosing
And you felt it
You blocked me back
But I see it clear
You needed control
When I disappeared
You blocked me back
But it don’t mean a thing
You can’t win a game
I’m not playing
You’re hiding from someone
Who already walked away
That’s not power, baby—
That’s your insecurity on display.

[Verse 1]
You reached out like nothing was wrong
Said we could be friends, just ‘move on’
Part of me wants to see you, to hug you
Part of me still bleeds from what you put me through
I wouldn’t take that treatment from my friends
So why’d I let you do it again?

[Pre-Chorus]
I asked you, was it selfishness or fear?
But silence is the only thing I hear

[Chorus]
Why did I think you’d be different this time?
Why did I hope you could speak your mind?
You can’t even answer the questions I write
So I’m left with your silence, staring at the night
Why did I think you would change?
Why did I think you’d ever use your voice
Instead of running away?

[Verse 2]
I miss the way your presence felt
Even while hating the cards I was dealt
It’s cruel to want comfort from the same hands
That cut me down when I couldn’t stand
I’m torn between anger and missing your face
But I can’t forgive lies that can’t be replaced

[Pre-Chorus]
If honesty was too much to give
Then why’d you pretend, why’d you let me live…

[Chorus]
Why did I think you’d be different this time?
Why did I hope you could speak your mind?
You can’t even answer the questions I write
So I’m left with your silence, staring at the night
Why did I think you would change?
Why did I think you’d ever use your voice
Instead of running away?

[Bridge]
You said, ‘I miss you,’ but didn’t show up
Empty words don’t equal love
I wanted closure, I wanted the truth
But all I got was more proof

[Final Chorus / Outro]
Why did I think you’d be different this time?
Why did I hope you could speak your mind?
You can’t even answer the questions I write
And maybe that silence was always the sign
Why did I think you would change…
When you never could use your voice
And you never stayed.

[Verse 1]
I told myself I wouldn’t hope,
But hope is stubborn when it knows the shape of someone’s hands.
You showed up like a ghost in the doorway,
Your voice soft, your eyes familiar…
And suddenly my heart forgot all the reasons
It learned how to live without you.
You said you missed me—
And God, I wanted those words to mean
You’d finally choose me.
But you only stayed long enough
To wake the part of me that still believed in us.

[Pre-Chorus]
I knew better…
But my chest still opened like it was waiting for home.
And now I’m left here
With this old ache wearing a brand-new face.

[Chorus]
So I’m grieving you again.
Grieving the “maybe” I knew would never come.
Grieving the version of you I hoped would fight for me,
The one who’d say he couldn’t lose me.
I’m grieving the life where you came back
Because you finally knew I was the one.
I’m grieving the love we’ll never have,
The future we’ll never touch,
The way you let me go
And never looked back enough to stay.
I’m grieving us—
And the truth that we will never be.

[Verse 2]
You walked back in like a promise
I’d spent months trying to erase.
And I let myself imagine
That this time you’d mean it.
That this time you’d choose me first,
Not last,
Not when you were lonely,
Not when the night felt heavy
And I was the softest place to land.
I let myself believe
That maybe you’d fight for me.
But you didn’t.
You couldn’t.
And I’m the one carrying the bruise for it.

[Pre-Chorus]
I should’ve run from the memory
Instead of running toward the hope.
Now I’m holding a goodbye
I already said once…
And it hurts worse now
Because I knew better.

[Chorus]
So I’m grieving you again.
Grieving the dream I kept tucked under my ribs.
Grieving the chance of us finding our way back
In a world where you’d actually show up for me.
I’m grieving the way my soul reached out for yours
Only to find empty hands.
I’m grieving the girl who waited,
The girl who wanted to be chosen,
The girl who thought love would be enough.
I’m grieving us—
And the truth that we will never be.

[Bridge]
Maybe in another universe
You look at me and stay.
Maybe in some soft, impossible world
You realize what you had.
But not here.
Not this life.
Not this version of you.
And I have to let go
Of the story I wrote in your name
Before it destroys me.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
So I’m grieving you again…
Grieving the way you touched hope in me
And left it bleeding.
Grieving the fantasy I knew was fiction
But loved anyway.
I’m grieving the ending
Of a love that never fully lived
But somehow broke me twice.
I’m grieving you—
And the truth I hate admitting:
You were never mine to keep.
And we…
We will never be.

[Verse 1]
I kept waiting on a version of you
That only lived inside my chest
You’d come back, say you missed me
Then you’d leave before I caught my breath
And every time I let you in
You slipped right through my shaking hands
How do you hold a ghost of someone
Who was never gonna stay, or stand?

[Pre-Chorus]
I rehearsed a thousand futures
That you never meant to build
You gave me almost nothing
But God, my heart still overfilled

[Chorus]
And I know it won’t work—
It never did, but I loved you anyway
You were half a promise
But my nervous system begged you to stay
I kept choosing history
Every time you turned away…
No, it won’t work, it never could—
But I loved you anyway

[Verse 2]
I kept shrinking into silence
So you wouldn’t feel me needing you
Called it “taking space”
But really I was terrified you’d see the truth
I let you sleep beside me
Pretending friendship didn’t break my bones
You’d leave before the morning light
And I’d lie awake and call that “home”

[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for crumbs of effort
Like they were something I deserved
You didn’t have to want me—
But you didn’t have to leave me hurt

[Chorus]
And I know it won’t work—
It never did, but I loved you anyway
You were half a promise
And I kept praying you might someday change
You’d come close, then disappear
Like loving me required pain…
No, it won’t work, it never could—
But I loved you anyway

[Bridge]
And maybe in another life
You’d choose me on the first try
You wouldn’t make me earn the bare minimum
Just to feel alive
But this life isn’t that one
And I’m tired of waiting for your turn
I’m done mistaking table scraps
For the kind of love I’ve earned

[Final Chorus]
’Cause I know it won’t work—
And I’m finally learning how to say
That losing you was mercy
Even if it wrecked me on the way
I kept holding onto maybes
That were never gonna stay…
No, it won’t work—it never could—
But I loved you anyway

[Outro]
I loved you anyway
But loving you was only hurting me
And now I finally see
It never could’ve worked

[Verse 1]
You talk like you’re solid
But you crack under pressure
Say you hate drama
Then you build it for pleasure
Every time I reach for truth
You hide behind a screen
It’s not deep, it’s just weak
You’re scared of what honesty means

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not that hard to say you’re lost
Or you need some time to think
But silence isn’t strength, it’s cheap
You’re just watching us sink

[Chorus]
Boy, grow up—this is grown man things
Real men talk, they don’t ghost and flinch
You call it peace, I call it weak
You call it space, I call it retreat
You can’t stand in your own truth
So you run and blame the mood
Your weakness wears you like a suit
But I’m not impressed by boys who bruise
You fold when things get real
That’s not strength—that’s you refusing to feel

[Verse 2]
You say you “don’t wanna hurt me”
Then you do it anyway
You disappear like honesty’s
Too heavy to say
I’ve begged for the bare minimum
Just a sentence, not a storm
But you fold like paper every time
A feeling isn’t warm

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not that hard to own your mess
Or say, “Can we talk later?”
But silence screams your immaturity
A grown boy, not a savior

[Chorus]
Boy, grow up—this is grown man things
Real men stay, they don’t hide and shrink
You call it calm, I call it fear
You vanish when I need you near
You can’t stand in your own truth
So you run and call it cool
You fold when things get true
But that’s not what real men do

Your weakness looks good on you
But it’s not a look I choose

[Bridge]
You want the body, not the burden
The love, not the learning
You light the match
Then blame the burning
I’m done teaching grown-boy lessons
Go find someone else to test in

[Final Chorus / Outro]
Boy, grow up—this is grown man things
Strong hearts talk, they don’t cut and cling
You call it calm, I call it scared
You call it space, I call it unprepared
You can’t love if you can’t face pain
You can’t heal if you can’t explain
So go hide behind your pride again
I’ll be loving someone brave instead

[Verse 1]
I used to picture us
Further down the road
Thought if I stayed steady
You’d finally come home
I tried to be the calm
When you were unsure
Tried to love you gently
So you’d feel secure

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you never meant to hurt me
I know you did your best
But loving someone halfway
Leaves a weight inside your chest

[Chorus]
So I wish you well
Even if it’s not with me
I hope you find a love
That feels like peace
I hope you don’t run
When it starts getting real
I hope one day
You let yourself feel
And I won’t hold on
To something that fell
I loved you honest
So I wish you well

[Verse 2]
You said you needed space
Said you felt overwhelmed
I felt it in my body
Before you ever told me
I wasn’t asking for forever
Just truth in real time
But silence feels like goodbye
When your heart’s wired like mine

[Pre-Chorus]
You kept your heart protected
I kept mine wide open
Somewhere in the middle
That’s where we got broken

[Chorus – Lifted]
So I wish you well
Even if it hurts to say
I hope you find yourself
Somewhere safe
I hope you learn
Love isn’t something to fear
I hope the next time
You stay right there
And I won’t chase
What I can’t compel
I gave you real love
So I wish you well

[Bridge – Soft, Reflective]
Maybe one day
You’ll look back and see
I wasn’t too much
I was just ready
Maybe one day
When the timing’s right
You’ll understand
Why I had to fight

[Final Chorus]
So I wish you well
But I’m choosing me
I won’t shrink down
To make it easy
I hope you grow
I hope you heal
I hope you find
The love you feel
And I won’t stay
Where I can’t dwell
I loved you deeply
So I wish you well

[Outro – Quiet]
No hard feelings.
Just hard lessons.
Goodbye… and I wish you well.