Return to Sender

[Verse 1]
You only loved me in the doorway
One foot in, one foot gone
Kissed me hardest when you knew
You wouldn’t have to stay that long
You called me home
Then disappeared
And somehow I still blamed myself
Like maybe if I loved you softer
You wouldn’t need anybody else

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept turning pain into patience
Kept mistaking silence for depth
You kept teaching me
How to abandon myself

[Chorus]
So you don’t get to miss me now
You don’t get to say my name
Like you didn’t watch me breaking
And still walk away the same
You don’t get my midnight prayers
My forgiveness or my doubt
You don’t get to love me halfway
Then cry when I pull myself out
You lost me slowly
I died proving I could stay
So no—
You don’t get to miss me now
After teaching me to fade

[Verse 2]
I learned your moods like scripture
Every shift inside your eyes
Learned how to make myself smaller
To keep us both alive
And you loved that version of me
The quiet girl who understood
But every time I needed something
You treated love like something I misunderstood

[Pre-Chorus]
And the hardest thing to realize
Was you knew I was rare
You just didn’t want responsibility
Of loving me with care

[Chorus]
So you don’t get to miss me now
You don’t get to call this fate
Like I wasn’t bleeding honesty
While you hesitated
You don’t get to tell your friends
I was “hard to hold onto”
When I spent every piece of me
Trying not to lose you
You lost me slowly
While I begged us not to drown
So no—
You don’t get to miss me now

[Bridge]
I was not hard to love
I was hard to almost love
There’s a difference
One heals you
One teaches you
To survive on crumbs
And call it connection

[Final Chorus]
Now you watch me from a distance
Like the ghost of what you dropped
And I hope it haunts you knowing
I was everything you want
Just not enough for you
To become the man I needed
And that’s the part
You’ll carry forever
So you don’t get to miss me now
Not after all that leaving
You don’t get to reach for me
Just because I’m finally healing

[Outro]
You taught me love could disappear
Without a sound
But I finally learned
I don’t have to disappear
With it.

[Verse 1]
You like your love with the edges sanded down
No sharp truths, no shaking ground
Say I’m too loud in your quiet head
But silence never kept you warm in bed

You say you’re waiting, say it’s not fear
But I watched you freeze when I got near
You don’t want better, you want asleep
A heart that won’t wake you out of deep

[Pre-Chorus]
You flinch when it’s real
Call it chaos, call it me
But I don’t break systems
I show cracks you don’t wanna see

[Chorus]
I was your wonderful nothing
Dancing in your almost love
You had your chance, you had my body
Had my faith, my touch, my blood
You keep waiting for “better”
But better never comes
You’ll wake up one day alone with it
And realize I was the one

[Verse 2]
You don’t want fire, you want control
Someone who won’t touch your soul
I loved you open, I loved you loud
You called it pressure, I called it now

You said I move too fast, too deep
But comfort’s where you choose to stay
You don’t want healing, you want safe
A love that doesn’t ask you to change
Just lets you stay exactly the same

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I light you up
But you hate the heat
You want connection
Without vulnerability

[Chorus]
I was your wonderful nothing
Wrapped in your hesitation
You kept me close but never chose me
That’s not love, that’s sedation
You keep waiting for “better”
Someone who won’t feel like truth
But you’ll never find another
Who loved you like I do

[Bridge — half-spoken]
You don’t want peace
You want numb
You don’t want love
You want none
I wasn’t chaos
I was alive
And that scared you every time

[Beat pause]
Once I leave, I don’t come back
No reruns, no rewinds
You don’t lose me slowly, baby
You lose me all at once—goodbye

[Final Chorus]
I was your wonderful nothing
Until I became everything
Now I’m the ghost in your quiet nights
The truth in everything you sing
You keep waiting for “better”
But better won’t choose you too
You had me—fully, honestly
And now I’m done being yours to lose

[Outro]
Yeah…
Once I’m gone, I’m gone for good
Wonderful nothing
You misunderstood

[Verse 1]
Silence was safer than truth,
I bit my tongue just to comfort you.
Held my breath while I drowned inside,
Let your shadows cover up my light.

[Pre-Chorus]
I was soft when I should’ve been strong,
Kept the peace while I broke all along.
You were hiding, I was holding on—
But love shouldn’t feel like a war you can’t win.

[Chorus]
Silence was safer than the truth,
So I carried the weight for the both of us too.
You never believed me, never let me in,
I swallowed my needs so your child could grin.
But I can’t keep bleeding for both of our youth—
When silence was safer than the truth.

[Verse 2]
You built your walls, I built a cage,
Trading my voice just to calm your rage.
I spoke in whispers, you stayed withdrawn,
I delayed the ending, pretending we weren’t gone.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every secret screamed in the quiet night,
But you shut your eyes instead of fight.
I begged with patience, you answered with fear—
Now I’m screaming the words you refused to hear.

[Chorus]
Silence was safer than the truth,
So I carried the weight for the both of us too.
You never believed me, never let me in,
I swallowed my needs so your child could grin.
But I can’t keep bleeding for both of our youth—
When silence was safer than the truth.

[Bridge]
I loved the boy you never set free,
But I lost the woman I needed to be.
Your comfort cost me every piece of my fight—
Now I’m done dimming just to keep you in the light.

[Final Chorus]
Silence was safer than the truth,
But I’ve burned through the lies I mistook for proof.
You never believed me, so I’ll believe myself,
No longer your shadow, no longer your shell.
I’m done carrying the weight that was never my youth—
’Cause silence was safer than the truth.

[Outro]
Silence was safer… but it never was love.
Truth is the only thing I’m worthy of.

[Verse 1]
I wasn’t happy, you could see it on my face
The silence in the room, the distance in your space
I watched the way your eyes would wander somewhere else
While I was trying to hold us up all by myself
I saw the posts, the names I knew too well
Your ex’s shadow hanging where our future fell
And every time the feeling got too loud
I’d sit you down and try to say it out loud

[Pre-Chorus]
I said if something’s missing
You don’t have to stay
We could end this gently
Walk our separate ways

[Chorus]
I gave you every easy out
Every door to leave
Said we could just be friends if that’s what you need
I told you love shouldn’t feel like this fight
Shouldn’t feel like begging someone to try
But you looked at me and said you’d stay
Said we’d work it out, said things would change
So I stayed in the middle of all that doubt
Holding onto words that weren’t true somehow
I gave you every easy out

[Verse 2]
I wasn’t blind, I felt it in my bones
Something in you had already gone
I asked you questions you could’ve answered clean
But every truth got buried underneath
You said you loved me
Said you wanted us
Said you’d do the work
Said you wouldn’t run
But every promise that you handed me
Was just enough to keep me where you needed me

[Pre-Chorus]
And now you say you struggled
Now you say you didn’t know
But I asked you back then
You could’ve let me go

[Chorus]
I gave you every easy out
Every chance to leave
Said we could just be friends if that’s what you need
I told you love shouldn’t feel like this fight
Shouldn’t feel like losing sleep every night
But you looked at me and said you’d stay
Said we’d work it out, said things would change
So I stayed in the middle of all that doubt
Holding onto words that weren’t true somehow
I gave you every easy out

[Bridge]
You say it was hard for you
Living in your mind
But it was hard for me too
Trying to read the signs
You had doubts you never said
You had one foot out the door
And I stayed there breaking slowly
Because you said you wanted more

[Final Chorus]
I gave you every easy out
Every honest door
I told you I couldn’t keep living like before
If you didn’t want me
You could’ve been brave
Instead of telling me the things
That made me stay
Now the truth comes years too late
After all the damage done
I gave you every chance to leave
But you chose to keep me holding on
I gave you every easy out.

[Verse 1]
You say you want love, but not if it asks
You say you’re all in, then you step right back
You want the warmth, but not the weight
Want the kiss, but not the ache

You crave the light, but hate the mirror
Pull me close, then disappear
And every time I need you near
You vanish like you were never here

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it peace when you shut me out
Say I’m “too much” when I cry out loud
But I see you—broken, scared to be seen
And loving you feels like shrinking me

[Chorus]
You want love, only on your terms
No mess, no mirrors, no lessons learned
You want arms to hold you tight
But won’t stay through a single fight
You want the highs, not the healing burns
You want love—only on your terms

[Verse 2]
You want devotion, but not the depth
Only safe when I hold my breath
You say you’re honest, but never feel
You just perform what looks like real

I gave you room, I gave you grace
You gave me silence, masked as space
I begged for “us,” you needed “you”
And somehow made that my issue

[Bridge]
You want me soft but not too loud
Want me loyal but not proud
Want me open, but not raw
Want me whole without the flaw

You said, “You’re asking for too much.”
I was asking for enough

[Chorus]
You want love, only on your terms
No give, just take—no bridges burned
You want the parts that feel like praise
Not the parts that ask you to stay
You want the joy, not the growing pains
You want love—without the strain

[Outro]
But love…
Isn’t something you can halfway hold
It’s not a script or a line you told
And maybe you did your best
But your best was cold

And I?
I need more than ghosts with charm
I need safe, I need soft, I need arms
That don’t just reach—but stay

You want love
Only on your terms
But I love on mine.

[Verse 1]
You liked me loud, till I asked you to listen
You pulled me in deep, then blurred the vision
When I asked for real connection you made it feel like a curse
Left me alone while you fed on the worst
You called it “just a joke” when you crossed the line
You said “chill, I’m only playing” while gaslighting my mind
You’d pull me in, breathe me in, act like I was your world
Then disappear in silence, scrolling pics of other girls
I’d open up, you’d shut me down
You’d laugh while I drowned

[Pre-Chorus]
You wanted chaos, I gave you care
But safe love, for you, was too much to bear

[Chorus]
I was your placeholder, never your choice
You kissed me with silence and spoke with no voice
You needed control, so you pushed just to pull
I was never enough—just convenient to hold
You mistook a heart for a hole to fill
And left me wondering if any of it was real

[Verse 2]
You flirted with strangers, chasing fake highs
While I sat in the dark, reading your lies
Said “you’re my girl,” but it felt like a game
You’d praise me in private, in public, shame
My stories? Too deep. My pain? “Too much.”
You mocked what I felt, made light of my trust
It wasn’t that I was broken—
You just liked me silent and open

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You said we lost the fire—I say you blew it out
Guess peace feels boring when you thrive in doubt
But maybe you run when the love feels strong
You can’t hold love when you fear what’s real

[Chorus 2]
I was your placeholder, your back-pocket plan
A body for comfort, a fan in the stands
You dressed me in silence, wore me in shame
Then dropped me like baggage and dodged the blame
I was your calm until you felt confined
Something to hold when you needed time

[Bridge]
I was never your home, just a room you passed through
Safe till I asked if you felt it too
You hid in my love, like it made you brave
But the second it cracked, I was what you gave away
I was your calm until you felt confined
Something to hold when you needed time
I was just your mirror, cracked from the start
Used to shield you, then torn apart

[Final Chorus]
I was your placeholder, not your forever
But I’ll never shrink again for someone’s temper
You’ll scroll through lives and chase the thrill
But I’ll find someone who chooses me still
You’ll miss the heart you let decay
While I rise from the games you used to play
You never held me, just held control
But I’m done being half-loved—I’m taking back my soul

[Outro]
So keep your sarcasm, keep your feed
I was never yours—you just liked watching me bleed
But now I see it clear, no more delay
You were just a storm I outlived today.

[Verse 1]
You lied to my face
Twisted truth till I couldn’t see straight
Made me doubt my own reflection
Turned my love into confession
I gave details you never asked
Poured myself out to make it last
While you kept your secrets stashed
Holding all the cards you never cast

[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for reassurance
You just left me in the silence
Guess you liked me second-guessing
While you slipped into defiance

[Chorus]
You left me guessing, left me bleeding
Made me question what I’m needing
I was loyal while you cheated
Hypocrite, your throne is seated
You took my love, my body, time
On your terms, you crossed the line
You’ll never see what it cost to stay
But you’ll feel the loss every single day

[Verse 2]
You called me guilty of your crimes
Projected shadows in your mind
Boys that never existed
Just your guilt, but you insisted
I was always yours, you were never mine
Gaslit me till I lost the signs
Now I’m stronger for surviving
While you choke on all your lying

[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for reassurance
You just left me in the silence
Now the roles are finally shifting
And it’s you that’s left with questions

[Chorus]
You left me guessing, left me bleeding
Made me question what I’m needing
I was loyal while you cheated
Hypocrite, your throne is seated
You took my love, my body, time
On your terms, you crossed the line
You’ll never see what it cost to stay
But you’ll feel the loss every single day

[Bridge]
That’s not caring, that’s control
You abandoned me, heart and soul
I suffered through it, tried to make it work
Loved you harder than you deserved
You’ll never know the price I paid
But you’ll feel the loss in every way

[Final Chorus]
You left me guessing, left me bleeding
But I know now what I’m needing
I was loyal, you deceiving
You’ll regret the love you’re leaving
Took my love, my body, time
But my freedom’s finally mine
You’ll never see what it cost to stay
But you’ll feel the loss every single day.

[Verse 1]
You wanted loyalty while breaking your own vows
Demanded reassurance, but you never gave it out
I gave you details you never even asked
While you kept me in the dark, hiding shadows in the back

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s always one rule for me, another one for you
I played by the lines, you just bent them till they blew

[Chorus]
Double standard, that’s your crown
Demanding what you can’t hand down
I was loyal, you were looking
I was truthful, you were scheming
Left me begging while you lied
Guess control is how you hide
Double standard, hypocrite
You can’t handle what you did

[Verse 2]
I begged for answers, you left me guessing
But couldn’t stand the silence when you were stressing
You spun your guilt and wore it like it’s mine
But projection doesn’t change the crime
One rule for me, another one for you
I kept my promises, you broke them through and through

[Chorus]
Double standard, that’s your crown
Demanding what you can’t hand down
I was loyal, you were looking
I was truthful, you were scheming
Left me begging while you lied
Guess control is how you hide
Double standard, hypocrite
You can’t handle what you did

[Bridge]
You starved me of the love I gave away for free
Then blamed your mess on me
You couldn’t face the mirror
So you shattered mine instead

But the cracks just show the truth
It was never me, it was you

[Final Chorus]
Double standard, wear your shame
Rewriting rules to dodge the blame
I was loyal, you were hiding
I was truthful, you were scheming
Left me empty, still I stood
But you’ll never match my good
Double standard, hypocrite
You can’t handle what you did

[Outro — whispered and snarled]
Demanding loyalty you could never give…
That’s the game you’ll always lose.

[Verse 1]
You say I should’ve known better
But you never said my name
Kept me in the maybe
While you played it safe
You wanted loyalty without a label
Rules without a ring
You wanted me to wait in silence
While you did your thing
You say I was “still around them”
Like that makes me untrue
But you never made me yours
So what was I supposed to do?

[Pre-Chorus]
You can’t hide me in the dark
Then get mad when I still glow
You don’t get girlfriend standards
When you won’t claim the role

[Chorus]
You say I’m not loyal
But you never chose me
Wanted girlfriend energy
While you stayed low-key
You say “we weren’t official”
But only when it’s you
Funny how that rule changes
Depending who it suits
If you didn’t want them looking
You should’ve stood beside me
Don’t blame me for the space
You refused to define me
You can’t play both sides
Then call me untrue
That double standard’s loud
And I see straight through you

[Verse 2]
I wasn’t sneaking, I was honest
They were friends, that’s all
While you were heart-reacting
Girls you’d never call
You say “I wasn’t chasing”
But your DMs say different
Funny how your silence
Always comes with fingerprints
You wanted access without commitment
Control without a name
But somehow I’m the villain
For not playing your game

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t get to rewrite history
Just ’cause your pride got bruised
You don’t get to shame my freedom
When you were using yours too

[Chorus]
You say I’m not loyal
But you never chose me
Wanted girlfriend energy
While you stayed low-key
You say “we weren’t official”
Like that excuses you
But the second I live my life
It’s a problem too
If you didn’t want attention on me
You should’ve stood beside me
Don’t hide me like a secret
Then act surprised when I’m not quietly waiting
You can’t play both sides
Then call me untrue
That double standard’s loud
And it sounds just like you

[Bridge — spoken and half-sung]
You don’t get exclusivity
Without clarity
You don’t get loyalty
Without safety
You don’t get to keep your options
While policing mine
That’s not love
That’s control dressed up as “timing”
I would’ve chosen you
If you had chosen me
I would’ve closed every door
If you’d handed me the key

[Final Chorus]
So don’t say I wasn’t loyal
When you never made me yours
You can’t ask for devotion
Then keep me behind closed doors
You say “we weren’t together”
But only when it helps you win
You don’t get to bend the truth
Just to fit your narrative in
If you wanted commitment
You should’ve spoken up
Don’t punish me for clarity
When you lived in “just enough”
I see the double standard now
I won’t carry it for you
You don’t get my loyalty
Without choosing me too

[Outro]
Next time you want devotion
Say it loud, say it clean
Don’t call a woman disloyal
For refusing to be unseen.

[Verse 1]
I read the room before you spoke,
Felt the cracks under my feet, but you said, “It’s fine.”
I asked you straight, you wore that joke,
Turned my questions into fights just to buy more time.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I reached for you,
You were already halfway gone.
You played it cool, I played the fool,
But my gut was never wrong.

[Chorus]
It was all on your terms,
When you’d love me, when you’d leave.
You held the truth like a loaded gun,
While I begged you just to breathe.
You lit the match, then watched me burn,
And kissed me after the goodbye.
It was all on your terms,
Guess control was your alibi.

[Verse 2]
You said respect was why you stayed cold,
But you still found my bed the night you cut the cord.
Told me “It shouldn’t be this hard,”
But you were the one locking every single door.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I gave you every out,
But you smiled and pulled me in.
You built the ending in your head,
While I was still trying to begin.

[Chorus]
It was all on your terms,
When you’d love me, when you’d leave.
You held the truth like a loaded gun,
While I begged you just to breathe.
You lit the match, then watched me burn,
And kissed me after the goodbye.
It was all on your terms,
Guess control was your alibi.

[Bridge]
Now I know your silence was strategy,
Every answer rehearsed in secrecy.
I thought I was losing my mind,
Turns out I was reading you right the whole time.

[Breakdown Chorus]
On your terms… when you’d come back, when you’d ghost,
On your terms… like I was just a body you owned.

[Final Chorus]
It was all on your terms,
But I’m done with playing small.
You can keep your power games,
I won’t answer when you call.
You lit the match, but here’s the twist—
I learned to dance inside the fire.
No more living on your terms,
I’m taking back what you desired.

[Verse 1]
You were a shadow sleeping in my bed
One foot with me, one foot somewhere else instead
I kept searching for your eyes
But you kept them closed, safe in your disguise
I felt the distance every time you stayed
Smiling just enough to keep me afraid
To call it out, to draw the line
While you kept yours safe, tangled with mine

[Pre-Chorus]
You said “we’re fine” when we were breaking
Told me “love” when you were faking
Every word a thread to keep me bound
While you quietly tore us down

[Chorus]
You were half in, half out
While I was all heart, no doubt
You let me drown while you touched the shore
Kept me close just to want me less
Kissed my mouth like a game of chess
Half in, half out—I don’t want that anymore

[Verse 2]
You held me back from the truth I knew
Gaslit the flames till I blamed me, not you
I trusted lies because I loved the dream
But love without trust is a hollow thing
And the cruelest part is you let it rot
When you had a hundred chances to say what you thought
But control felt better than setting me free
You didn’t want love, you wanted power over me

[Pre-Chorus]
You said “we’re fine” when we were breaking
Told me “love” when you were faking
Every word a thread to keep me bound
While you quietly tore us down

[Chorus]
You were half in, half out
While I was all heart, no doubt
You let me drown while you touched the shore
Kept me close just to want me less
Kissed my mouth like a game of chess
Half in, half out—I don’t want that anymore

[Bridge]
I’d rather be alone than on a leash
Chasing scraps you call a feast
I gave you love, you gave me fear
But I’m burning the bridge we built here

[Final Chorus]
You were half in, half out
While I was all heart, no doubt
You let me drown while you touched the shore
But I’ve cut the ties, I’m not your pawn
I’m walking out, and when I’m gone
You’ll be the one still standing there—
Half in, half out forevermore

[Verse 1]
You watched me fall apart, eyes like glass
No flinch, no reach—just let it pass
I begged for truth, you gave me charm
Held me close with hollow arms

[Pre-Chorus]
You called me “too much” when I needed care
But your silence screamed louder than your stare
Now I know love isn't meant to betray
And I won't bend just to make you stay

[Chorus]
I was the mirror, reflecting what you hide
You saw your shame in the light in my eyes
So you ran, like a ghost in the rain
I rose from the wreckage you left in my name
You can't shatter what you never held
I let go…and found myself

[Verse 2]
You called your distance some kind of depth
But your silence was always self-defense
I carried grace while you kept score
And made me bleed just to feel restored

[Bridge — stripped down]
It’s not love if I have to disappear
To keep you close, to keep you near
You stayed loyal to your wounds, not to me
Now your absence is finally peace

[Chorus 2]
I was the mirror, reflecting what you hide
You saw your guilt in my steady light
So you froze, ’cause you can’t fake truth
But I became fire in the space you removed
You can’t reach what you tried to dim
I let go…and I live again

[Outro]
You won’t hear me when your world feels small
I don’t wait for boys who can’t show up at all
I needed a man, not a mask to hold
So I left…and came back home whole

[Verse 1]
You said it got too heavy
But it only got real
You called it complicated
I just said what I feel
You started rewriting
Everything we were
Like truth needed softening
So leaving wouldn’t hurt

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t lose the feeling
You just changed the truth
Turned love into pressure
So you didn’t have to choose

[Chorus]
You had to make me smaller
To make it make sense
Turn something sacred
Into something you could quit
You called it too much
But it was just enough truth
You needed me flawed
So you didn’t have to choose
You didn’t fall out of love
You fell out of depth
And told yourself stories
So you could forget
But you don’t forget
No, you don’t forget

[Verse 2]
I watched you go distant
While standing right there
You said it was “better”
But you just didn’t care
Not loud, not explosive
Just quiet retreat
Like love became something
You needed to defeat

[Pre-Chorus]
You said it was over
Like it made you free
But freedom’s just distance
From what you couldn’t be

[Chorus]
You had to make me smaller
To make it make sense
Turn something sacred
Into something you could quit
You called it too much
But it was just enough truth
You needed me flawed
So you didn’t have to choose
You didn’t fall out of love
You fell out of depth
And told yourself stories
So you could forget
But you don’t forget
No, you don’t forget
You weren’t looking for better
You were running from depth
From feeling too much, from being fully met

Less feeling, less truth
Less love to protect
Less weight on your chest
Less need to confess

So you chose what was easy
Over something that’s real
Less risk of being seen—
Less truth to feel

[Bridge — stripped and haunting]
If you felt it fully
You would’ve stayed
If you called it real
You would’ve had to break
So you called it wrong
So you could walk away

You said you might find better
Like love was a scale
Like something more perfect
Would keep you from failing
But better was never
What you were chasing
You were looking for something
That wouldn’t awaken
No weight, no reflection
No depth to go through
No mirror that shows you
The parts you avoid in you
So you changed how it felt
So you didn’t have to stay
Turned real into pressure
So you could walk away

[Bridge 2 — build]
Now it’s quiet where I used to be
No more reaching, no more needing me
And the space you made to finally breathe
Is the same space where you’ll feel me

[Final Chorus — soft to powerful]
You had to make me smaller
To make it feel okay
Turn something real
Into something you could escape
You said it was easier
But you just ran from truth
You didn’t lose me
You lost what I saw in you
And one day it’ll hit
In the silence you kept
You didn’t walk away clean
You just didn’t feel it yet

[Outro — quiet, almost spoken]
You don’t feel the loss
Of what you said wasn’t real
But one day…
You will

[Verse 1]
I saw the weight you never said out loud
Carried fears that always pulled you down
I held the cracks, tried to make them whole
Stayed through the fire, through the cold

[Pre-Chorus]
You acted like it was hard to do
But I was breaking myself just to show you

[Chorus]
You let it get like this
Now you’re haunted by what you missed
I would’ve loved you there
Carried the weight you couldn’t bear
Safe—safe to feel
But you pushed away the only thing real
Now you’ll haunt yourself with what you missed
Yeah, you let it get like this

[Verse 2]
I knew the battles you could never name
The pride, the silence, the hidden shame
I never ran, I never walked away
But you still made love a game

[Pre-Chorus]
You acted like it was hard to do
But I was breaking myself just to show you

[Chorus]
You let it get like this
Now you’re haunted by what you missed
I would’ve loved you there
Carried the weight you couldn’t bear
Safe—safe to feel
But you pushed away the only thing real
Now you’ll haunt yourself with what you missed
Yeah, you let it get like this

[Bridge — minimal, hypnotic]
Safe to feel…but you turned away
Real to heal…but you made me fade
You’ll tell yourself you tried
But I was the safest place to hide

[Final Chorus — big drop]
You let it get like this
Forever haunted by what you missed
I would’ve loved you there
Carried the weight you couldn’t bear
Safe—safe to feel
But you pushed away the only thing real
Now you’ll haunt yourself with what you missed
Yeah, you let it get like this

[Verse 1]
You never touched her, but you crossed the line
Slid into her DMs at two past midnight
Heart-eye emojis like I wouldn’t see
Looking up strangers when you’re next to me
Unblock, re-block, your old flame again
Tell me you’re loyal while you play pretend
You hide my name like it’s something to shame
But love in the shadows don’t wear my name

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it harmless, I call it a lie
Every tap of your finger was another goodbye

[Chorus]
’Cause emotional cheating still leaves the same scars
It’s a quiet kind of breaking that rips you apart
You had to pull away just to feel in control
Built a wall ’round your heart, made a cage for my soul
And I don’t know if you know it, but I’ve figured you out
You self-sabotaged just to wear your coward’s crown

[Verse 2]
OnlyFans tabs, your midnight escape
Searching for bodies you’ll never taste
Creating distance like you’re playing some game
Afraid of the closeness, afraid of my name
You say it’s nothing, but nothing still bleeds
And you can’t fix love when you’re planting the seeds
Of doubt, of damage, of running away
You’re scared of the truth so you hide in the gray

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it harmless, I call it a lie
Every scroll of your screen was another goodbye

[Chorus]
’Cause emotional cheating still leaves the same scars
It’s a quiet kind of breaking that rips you apart
You had to pull away just to feel in control
Built a wall ’round your heart, made a cage for my soul
And I don’t know if you know it, but I’ve figured you out
You self-sabotaged just to wear your coward’s crown

[Bridge]
You got too close, so you ran from the fire
Called your own fear ‘freedom’ while you dressed it in desire
But love ain’t control, it’s a place to be real
And you burned down the house just to see how it feels

[Final Chorus]
Emotional cheating still counts as a crime
You broke us in pieces without crossing a line
You had to pull away just to feel in control
But you lost the one thing that could make you whole
And I don’t know if you know it, but the truth’s coming out
You self-sabotaged just to wear your coward’s crown

[Outro]
Yeah, you wore it so proud
But the crown’s just a shroud
And the king’s just a coward in the end.

[Verse 1]
You said it shouldn’t be this hard
Like love is easy when you’re hiding scars
I held you through your silent storms
But asking for the truth became a war

Said I’m ‘too much’ when I just needed words
You snapped, I sank, still hoped I’d heard
Something gentle, something kind
But you weaponized your silence every time

[Pre-Chorus]
And the worst part?
I asked you weeks ago if you felt it too
Said no—but you already knew
Already planned your exit
While I was planning love

[Chorus]
You said you loved me—but you lied
Told me ‘we’re fine’ while you pulled back inside
Gaslit my gut while I broke down in fear
You knew it was over, but kept me near
That’s not love—that’s control
And now I see it clear
You said you loved me—but you lied
And I let myself believe you out of hope, not pride

[Verse 2]
Every ‘fight’ was just me asking to be seen
But your ego turned my pain into a crime scene
I wasn’t yelling, I was pleading
You were cold, and I was bleeding

If you’d just responded—calm, mature
We could’ve ended it before it hurt
But you lied to my face when I felt it shift
Told me ‘we’re good’ while tightening the grip

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I asked if you still cared, if you still felt close
You said ‘yes’—but your actions said ghost
Said you weren’t leaving—just ‘thinking things through’
But I was drowning in a sea you already flew

[Chorus]
You said you loved me—but you lied
Kept me confused just to stay in control of the ride
Let me question my worth while you planned the end
While I begged for answers, you just played pretend
That’s not love—that’s cruel
And you did it with a smile
You said you loved me—but you lied
And left me sick, small, and gaslit the whole time

[Bridge – Whispered, Then Rising]
I asked…
If you still wanted this—you said yes
If your heart was gone—you said no
If you loved me—you swore so
But it was all control, wasn’t it?
Just a game to keep me quiet
To punish me for needing more
You didn’t want a girlfriend—you wanted the floor

[Final Chorus]
You said you loved me—but I know now
That love doesn’t lie, manipulate, or make you bow
You broke me gently, strategically, slow
So I wouldn’t leave before you let go
But I’m not yours to play anymore
I’m done believing less is love
You said you loved me—but you lied
And now I’m walking away with all of my pride.

[Verse 1]
You said it was nothing, said I was enough
While hiding the truth in the back of your truck
I felt it shifting, you swore I was wrong
Funny how silence proves intuition all along
You called me crazy, I called it a clue
Every red flag started pointing to you
You played it cool while I played it real
Now I see everything you tried to conceal

[Pre-Chorus]
You made me question what I knew inside
Twisted the truth while I tried to confide
But something in me never bought your disguise
Now I see you clearly, no more alibis

[Chorus]
I was never the one—you just needed a place
When you got lonely, you came back to my space
Now I see it all, every lie you defend
I wasn’t your love, I was your in-between
So keep your excuses, your half-truth agenda
I’m sending it back—return to sender

[Verse 2]
You stopped reaching for me when I set a line
Guess it’s easier when there’s someone on the side
Late night silence, “I fell asleep early”
But your patterns were louder than anything you’d tell me
I saw the signs you tried to erase
Different energy I couldn’t replace
You thought I’d stay blind, stay small, stay sweet
But I don’t compete where I’m not meant to be

[Pre-Chorus]
You made me doubt every instinct I had
Turned truth into something you painted as bad
But I was never wrong, just trusting too long
Now I’m walking away where I actually belong

[Chorus]
I was never the one—you just needed a place
When you got lonely, you came back to my space
Now I see it all, every lie you defend
I wasn’t your love, I was your in-between
So keep your excuses, your half-truth agenda
I’m sending it back—return to sender

[Bridge]
You don’t get access to me anymore
Not after everything you ignored
You don’t get softness, you don’t get care
Go find it somewhere you actually show up there
I’m not your option, your fallback plan
I’m not the girl you half-understand
You lost me the moment you made me feel small
Now you get nothing—no me at all

[Final Chorus]
I was never the one—you just needed a place
Now I’m the loss you won’t ever replace
You had my heart, you just didn’t defend it
So I took it back—return to sender

[Intro – Whispered / Sparse Piano + Low Hums]
It started like peace
Or at least what I thought peace should feel like
You were calm—
But so is poison before it hits
I told myself this was love

But love doesn’t make your stomach knot
When the phone lights up
Love doesn’t feel like waiting
For a storm to decide if you’re worth the rain

[Verse 1 – Quiet Vocal / Ambient Pad + Heartbeat Percussion]
You said you liked my softness
But only when it served your strength
Every time I needed something real
You disappeared into ‘space’
And I—I called that maturity
I called that patience
But truth is, I was training my nervous system
To tolerate neglect and call it grace
You’d go silent
And I’d panic—
Scrolling through memories like medicine
You knew the rhythm of my anxiety
And you danced on it like a stage

[Pre-Chorus – Whisper Builds to Low Growl]
But silence was never peace
It was punishment dressed as calm
And love was never healing—
It was the high before the fall

[Chorus – Full Dark Alt-Pop Build]
This is the detox—the shaking, the scream
The ache that wakes you from the dream
You mistake adrenaline for peace
You call control ‘release’
But your body’s tired of begging ghosts to stay—
This is what healing feels like
When you walk away

[Verse 2 – Distorted Bass / Rhythmic Spoken Word]
You rewrote my boundaries
Like edits in your script
Taught me that love meant guessing
And truth was a risk
Every ‘sorry’ felt rehearsed
Every ‘I love you’ sounded borrowed
And I was addicted—
Not to you
But to the hit of being almost seen
Every time you left
I promised myself I’d stop chasing
Then your name hit my phone
And my trauma called it fate

[Bridge – Therapist Voice / Cinematic Breakdown]
You don’t miss them—
You miss regulation
The spike, the drop, the fixation
Your body craves the chaos it knows
Even when it kills you slow
Peace will feel foreign before it feels safe—
But that’s still progress, not a mistake

[Chorus – Bigger / Layered Vocals]
This is the detox—the trembling truth
Your hands shaking like a truce
You confuse chaos for devotion
But it’s just emotion in motion
You stop mistaking pain for proof
And start coming back to you

[Bridge 2 – Cinematic Rise / Spoken]
I threw out the notes
The screenshots
The playlist
But I still find your voice
In my nervous system sometimes
It whispers when I try to rest
That I’m hard to love
That calm means loss
But I’m learning to talk back now—
To say
‘No. Calm means peace.’
And peace doesn’t need permission

[Final Chorus – Cinematic Explosion Then Collapse]
This is the detox—the flood, the flame
The heartbreak calling me by name
I stop explaining what you couldn’t see
And start returning my energy
You were never medicine—
Just the wound I kept picking
Now healing’s the high
That’s finally sticking

[Outro – Soft Piano + Faint Choir]
This is withdrawal from the fantasy
From the version I thought I’d need
Let the ache cleanse what illusion fed—
I’m not dying
I’m being reborn instead

[Whisper]
This is the detox
This is me coming back.

[Verse 1]
I kept you happy just to feel safe
Bit my tongue till it forgot how to taste
I called it love when it was fear
And every ‘sorry’ pulled me near
I thought if I stayed, you’d see my worth
But I kept vanishing, line by line, first

[Pre-Chorus]
I let you take what I couldn’t lose
’Cause trauma taught me that’s what love do
But I can’t bleed to keep you calm
I can’t disappear to prove I belong

[Chorus]
I’m done being afraid of losing you
When I’ve been losing me
I built a cage and called it peace
Letting fear decide who I could be
Healing’s not soft—it’s saying no
It’s walking away when I want to stay close
I used to chase the ones who’d leave
Now I’m scared of losing me

[Verse 2]
I broke my back to make you feel tall
Said it was love, but it was withdrawal
Every time I gave more than I had
You called it sweet—I called it sad
You never asked me to stay that way
But you never stopped me when I paid

[Pre-Chorus]
So I learned to please what wouldn’t care
To earn the love that wasn’t there
But every time I disappeared
My reflection got less clear

[Chorus]
I’m done being afraid of losing you
When I’ve been losing me
I built a cage and called it peace
Letting fear decide who I could be
Healing’s not soft—it’s saying no
It’s walking away when I want to stay close
I used to chase the ones who’d leave
Now I’m scared of losing me

[Bridge]
You can keep your comfort, I’ll take the truth
You were never worth what I put me through
Love shouldn’t cost my peace of mind
I’m not breaking just to prove I’m kind

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I’m not afraid of losing you—
I’m afraid of losing me
Every time I stay for less
I teach my heart it’s all it’ll ever be
Healing’s not easy, but it’s clean
And I’m not scared of lonely anymore—
I’m scared of losing me.

[Verse 1]
You didn’t hit me, you just bent the truth
Like glass under pressure till it shattered my proof
You said ‘love’ softly, but it cut like a knife
Turning my own heartbeat against my life
You smiled while you moved every boundary line
Till I questioned my memory, my gut, my mind
And the girl I was before your games
Started disappearing inside your frame

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I’m learning things
I wish I never knew
How someone can break you
Without leaving a bruise

[Chorus]
You didn’t just break my heart
You changed me
Rewired every signal in my brain
Now my body shakes when it feels something safe
Like love is just another kind of pain
You didn’t just steal my trust
You rearranged me
Turned my nervous system into war
Now my mind runs circles around memories
I never questioned before
You didn’t just hurt me
You changed me

[Verse 2]
I used to sleep through every night
Now my body wakes up ready to fight
Like danger’s hiding in every room
Even when there’s nothing there but you
I used to laugh without thinking twice
Now every joy comes with a price
’Cause somewhere deep in my chest it stays
The echo of all your twisted ways

[Pre-Chorus]
And they say ‘just move on’
Like it’s easy to do
But they don’t understand
What you turned me into

[Chorus]
You didn’t just break my heart
You changed me
Turned my instincts into doubt and fear
Now my body holds the weight of words
You whispered in my ear
You didn’t just steal my love
You rearranged me
Turned my peace into a war inside
Now I’m healing things I never broke
Just to feel alive
You didn’t just hurt me
You changed me

[Bridge]
They don’t see the sickness in the soul
Or the way trauma lives inside the bones
How the body keeps the score of lies
Long after someone says goodbye
How love became a loaded gun
And silence louder than a scream
How the mirror shows a different girl
Than the one I used to be
You didn’t just leave scars in my heart
You left them in my chemistry

[Final Chorus]
You didn’t just break my heart
You changed me
Shifted every current in my veins
Now I’m learning how to trust again
Without drowning in the pain
You didn’t just take my love
You rearranged me
But you didn’t take the strongest part
’Cause even after all your damage
I’m still here
Learning how to find my heart.

[Verse 1]
I spoke in whispers, careful and kind
But you turned it around, said it’s all in my mind
Every truth I gave, you twisted to doubt
Left me screaming inside while you laughed it out

[Pre-Chorus]
You hid behind silence, I begged for a sign
But love isn’t love when it feels like a crime

[Chorus]
You made me invisible, kept me small
I was breaking while you built your wall
Now I’m done carrying weight that’s not mine
I’m finding my voice, I’m drawing the line
Silence was louder than words you denied
But I won’t live muted, not this time

[Verse 2]
I reached for your hand, you pulled it away
Afraid of the closeness, afraid you might stay
You said ‘I’m just joking’ when I called you out
But gaslight and laughter both feel the same sound

[Pre-Chorus]
You hid behind sarcasm, I begged to be seen
But love shouldn’t shatter a girl’s self-esteem

[Chorus]
You made me invisible, kept me small
I was breaking while you built your wall
Now I’m done carrying weight that’s not mine
I’m finding my voice, I’m drawing the line
Silence was louder than words you denied
But I won’t live muted, not this time

[Bridge]
I craved your love like oxygen
But all I breathed was smoke
I thought I’d drown without your touch
Turns out I never broke

[Final Chorus]
You made me invisible, kept me small
But I’m stronger than the weight of your wall
I won’t beg for a love that’s unkind
I’m finding my voice, I’m drawing the line
Silence was louder than words you denied
But I won’t live muted, not this time

[Outro]
Not this time…
Not this time.

[Verse 1]
Dear Drew, I tried to speak soft
You turned every word till the meaning was lost
I held out my heart, you kept it at bay
Too scared of the closeness, so you pushed me away

[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for connection, you gave me a wall
Guess loving me scared you the most of all

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, you made me invisible, kept me small
I was breaking while you built your wall
Now I’m done carrying what’s never mine
I’m finding my voice, I’m drawing the line
Silence was louder than love you denied
But I won’t stay muted—not this time

[Verse 2]
Dear Drew, you joked when I cried
Said it was nothing, but it cut deep inside
I wanted your truth, but you stayed unclear
Made me question my worth just for needing you near
And the butterflies I felt when I fell for you…
Turned out the butterflies were just wasps too

[Pre-Chorus]
I asked for your presence, you turned it aside
Love shouldn’t vanish when two worlds collide

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, you made me invisible, kept me small
I was breaking while you built your wall
Now I’m done carrying what’s never mine
I’m finding my voice, I’m drawing the line
Silence was louder than love you denied
But I won’t stay muted—not this time

[Bridge]
I craved your love like oxygen
But all I breathed was smoke
I thought I’d drown without your touch
Turns out I never broke

[Final Chorus]
Dear Drew, I see through the shadows you cast
A love built on silence was never meant to last
I won’t beg for the pieces you hide
I’m finding my truth on the other side
Silence was louder than love you denied
But I won’t stay muted—not this time

[Outro]
Dear Drew…
Not this time.

[Verse 1]
It wasn’t pressure, just presence I was needing
Not to fix me—just sit with what I’m feeling
But every time I reached for something true
You ran like love was something you could lose

You said, “Here we go,” like I was the storm
But you lit the match, then called it the norm
I wasn’t asking for a master plan
Just space to speak without breaking again

[Pre-Chorus]
You turned connection into control
Took my softness, made it cold
And every time I asked for more
You slammed the door and said I’m “too emotional”

[Chorus]
But a healthy love holds space
Doesn’t shame me into silence
Doesn’t flinch when I’m afraid
Doesn’t mock me while I’m crying

If I have to tiptoe just to speak
Then this was never safe for me
I wasn’t asking for too much
Just to feel heard. Just to feel loved.

[Verse 2]
I told you things I kept inside
Shared the hurt I used to hide
You brushed it off like it was small
Then made me feel I caused it all

You said I’m “too much”—but I was calm
Still, you turned my truth into alarm
You pressed on wounds you helped create
Then called it love and sealed my fate

[Bridge]
I need someone who sees my shaking hands
And doesn’t turn them into threats
Someone who won’t run from depth
Or treat my feelings like regret

You flipped the script, deflected blame
Said I was why we felt this way
But I was reaching out for connection
You kept choosing disconnection every day

[Final Chorus]
A healthy love holds space
Not a war zone dressed as patience
Doesn’t punish me with silence
Or mistake my needs for weakness

If I have to fight just to be seen
Then this was never love for me
I wasn’t asking for perfection
Just compassion in reflection

[Outro]
I’m done speaking through your storm
I deserve a love that hears me warm
Where I can breathe and still belong
Where I don’t have to break
Just to feel strong

[Verse 1]
You had the script before I knew the scene
Every line, every pause, every in-between
Smiling like nothing’s wrong
While you were halfway gone
I kept asking if the floor would break
You swore the ground was fine, guess that was fake
Pulled me close when you felt in control
Pushed me out when you wanted the show

[Pre-Chorus]
I was the last to know, but the first to bleed
Every kiss was you deciding what I’d need
You kept the power like it was your crown
Now I’m done playing just to be let down

[Chorus]
It was your terms, your game, your stage, your turn
My heartbreak was just fuel for your burn
You wrote the ending while I begged to belong
Guess I was just singing your song
Your terms—I’m breaking free
You’ll choke on the silence you get from me
It’s my life, my love, my time to learn
Never again on your terms

[Verse 2]
I saw the signs but I dimmed the lights
Didn’t wanna start another pointless fight
Held my breath just to keep the peace
While you planned your quiet release
You say you ‘cared’—yeah, maybe in your head
But you kept me starving while you were fed
Took the crown of ‘nice guy’ while you lied
And called it mercy when you left my side

[Pre-Chorus]
You were the judge, the jury, the final say
But I’m rewriting the rules today
You only win if I stay in your cage
But I’m walking out, turning the page

[Chorus]
It was your terms, your game, your stage, your turn
My heartbreak was just fuel for your burn
You wrote the ending while I begged to belong
Guess I was just singing your song
Your terms—I’m breaking free
You’ll choke on the silence you get from me
It’s my life, my love, my time to learn
Never again on your terms

[Bridge]
Control isn’t love, it’s a leash in disguise
And I’ve cut the rope, I’ve opened my eyes
So take your crown, take your throne, take your pride
I’m finding heaven on the other side

[Final Chorus]
It was your terms, your game, your stage, your turn
But my fire’s the one that’s gonna burn
You wrote the ending—but here’s the twist
I’m the one you’ll always miss
Your terms? Not anymore
I’ve locked and slammed that door
It’s my voice, my heart, my return
Never again on your terms.

[Verse 1 – Soft Piano / Intimate Vocal]
Dear Drew, I asked you straight if something was off
You smiled and said, ‘No, we’re fine’
But my body was screaming, my hands were shaking
And I still chose to believe your lines
I gave you outs, I opened the door
Asked if you had one foot out on the floor
You looked me dead in the eyes
And fed me comfort wrapped in lies

[Pre-Chorus 1 – Subtle Percussion]
You had the truth locked up in your pocket, Drew
While I was making myself sick
Calling it care, calling it kindness
But it was all just control dressed up as a gift

[Chorus – Restrained / Cutting]
Drew, you kept it all on your terms
Pulled me close, then let me burn
Rationed out affection like a prize
Gaslit the fire behind my eyes
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made loving me optional

[Verse 2 – Building Beat / Guitar]
You said you held back to be ‘respectful’
While you were halfway out the door
But still crossed the line the night we ended, Drew
So what was all that distance for?
You kept me orbiting in your sky
While you decided when to say goodbye
Every choice—the hook-up, the silence, the end—
Had to be yours, on your timeline, my ‘friend’

[Pre-Chorus 2 – Louder / Sharper]
You didn’t protect me, Drew, you protected your comfort
Made me question the truth I knew
You stayed in control of the story
While I was drowning in the version you drew

[Chorus – Full Drums]
Drew, you kept it all on your terms
Pulled me close, then let me burn
Fed me just enough attention
Then rewrote your own intention
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made loving me optional

[Bridge – Near Silence / Venom-Drip Vocal]
If you wonder why I’m still angry, Drew
It’s ’cause I’m still detoxing from the care you used as chains
From affection that felt like a reward I had to earn
From loving you like it was my job to prove my worth
You didn’t want a partner—you wanted a pawn
To move when it suited you
To keep in play until the game was won… for you

[Final Chorus – Full Band]
Drew, you kept it all on your terms
Pulled me close, then let me burn
Played my heart like a scene in your show
Gaslit me ’til I didn’t know
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made loving me optional

[Outro – Piano / Coldly Liberated]
And I can’t even look at you the same, Drew
Because now I see the power play behind the game
You didn’t protect me—you protected your control
And the cruelest truth of all…
Is that once you see manipulation for what it is
It never works again.

[Verse 1]
You wrapped your control up in something called ‘care’
Rationed your love out, like I had to earn air
Said everything’s fine when you’d already checked out
I asked for the truth, you just danced around doubt

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I see every ‘baby’ was just buying you time
Every kiss was a coin toss on if you’d be mine

[Chorus]
So if you wonder why I’m still angry
It’s ’cause I’m still detoxing from the hold you had on me
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made love something you rise above
An option you could pick up or set down when it suited you
That’s why this song’s called Dear Drew

[Verse 2]
You played God with the timing, all on your terms
Breaking up in the shadows while I crashed and burned
I gave you a thousand ways out, you took none
Guess blindsiding me made the game more fun

[Pre-Chorus]
And now every ‘I miss you’ is just noise in the wind
’Cause the boy in my bed was a stranger within

[Chorus]
So if you wonder why I’m still angry
It’s ’cause I’m still detoxing from the hold you had on me
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made love something you rise above
An option you could pick up or set down when it suited you
That’s why this song’s called Dear Drew

[Bridge]
You kept your hands warm while I froze in the dark
Counting the days you’d admit to your mark
And maybe one day you’ll choke on the truth
But it won’t matter—I’m already proof

[Final Chorus – Full Power]
So if you wonder why I’m still angry
It’s ’cause I’m still detoxing from the hold you had on me
You didn’t lose me ’cause I’m hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made love something you rise above
An option you could pick up or set down when it suited you
That’s why this song’s called Dear Drew

[Outro]
Dear Drew… hope you hear this in your sleep
And feel every promise you failed to keep.

[Verse 1]
You showed up like a dream in disguise
With pretty lies dressed up as love in your eyes
Built me up on a throne of gold
Then blamed me when it cracked and I lost hold
Told me I was too much, then not enough
Spun me dizzy just to call it ‘tough love’
I kept shrinking to keep your peace
You fed me silence and called it ‘release’

[Pre-Chorus]
And I kept chasing crumbs of grace
While you erased me, face by face
You called it care, I called it pain
You left me crying in the rain

[Chorus]
It’s the cycle, the spin
You break me, then pull me back in
Say it’s over, then beg me to stay
Swear you’ll change, then push me away
Took my heart, then made it a game
Made me feel like I’m the one to blame
But your love was just control in disguise
With a smile that lied
And eyes that never cried

[Verse 2]
You turned my voice into static noise
Made guilt a weapon, silence a ploy
Said I was ‘paranoid,’ said I ‘misremembered’
Gaslit the fire and blamed me for embers
You picked a fight when I found joy
Cut me off like I was just noise
Made me need you just to breathe
Then said I was ‘crazy’ when I tried to leave

[Pre-Chorus]
You painted pain in pastel light
And made me beg to be treated right
But I got sick of being small
Now I see it all—

[Chorus]
It’s the cycle, the spin
You break me, then pull me back in
Say it’s over, then beg me to stay
Swear you’ll change, then push me away
Took my heart, then made it a game
Made me feel like I’m the one to blame
But your love was just control in disguise
With a smile that lied
And eyes that never cried

[Bridge]
You never held me when I broke
Just watched me drown under your smoke
I learned to call abuse ‘okay’
Until my soul finally walked away

[Breakdown / Quiet Vocal]
You crushed my spirit with neglect
Made me forget self-respect
But I’m not your puppet, not your prey
I found my worth in walking away

[Final Chorus]
No more cycle, no more spin
I’m not letting you pull me in
Keep your chaos, keep your games
I’m burning down your house of shame
Took my tears, but not my flame
You’ll never hurt me the same
Your love was poison, sweet and sly—
But I survived
I survived.

[Verse 1]
I met you when I hated myself
Lowest I’d ever been, living in hell
I wanted comfort, I wanted familiar
So I let your chaos feel like shelter

[Pre-Chorus]
I had standards higher than sky
Held out for years ’cause no one could climb
But I traded it all for your cheap disguise
Lost my value in your lies

[Chorus]
You stole my self-esteem
Cheated, lied, left me guessing in between
Never told me where I stood
Never showed me what you could
But I see it now, I was settling sore—
You were my placeholder, nothing more
Goodbye to you, I love me more

[Verse 2]
You kept me chasing shadows in the dark
Starving for scraps of a half-beating heart
Your silence carved me into doubt
While you let my fire burn out

[Pre-Chorus]
I was mad at me for letting you in
Called your neglect a love I could win
But the truth is clearer than it’s ever been:
Losing you means finding me again

[Chorus]
You stole my self-esteem
Cheated, lied, left me guessing in between
Never told me where I stood
Never showed me what you could
But I see it now, I was settling sore—
You were my placeholder, nothing more
Goodbye to you, I love me more

[Bridge]
I’m taking it back, every piece you broke
The girl you silenced, the words I choked
No more guessing, no more games
I know my worth, I reclaim my name

[Final Chorus]
You stole my self-esteem
But I built it back stronger than your cruelty
I know where I stand, I know how I feel
And this time the love is real
You were my placeholder, nothing more
Goodbye forever—I love me more

[Outro – Haunting]
Placeholder. Placeholder.
I love me more.

[Verse 1]
I said ‘this is what I need’
You heard ‘I’m trying to control you’
I said ‘this is how I feel’
You turned it into something untrue
I drew a line to protect my heart
You painted me the villain part

[Pre-Chorus]
So I twisted smaller
Apologized for the crime
Of wanting safety
Like love was a landmine

[Chorus]
But I’m not too much
You’re just too closed
I won’t carry the weight
That was never mine to hold
You can’t hear me through
The walls you never broke
And I can’t keep bleeding
Just to keep you afloat

[Verse 2]
Every truth I tried to hand you
You took as an attack
I bent myself to fit your comfort
But lost my color in the cracks
Your silence left me starving
While I kept calling it love

[Pre-Chorus]
I made myself smaller
Hoped it would be enough
But shrinking won’t save me
And begging’s not love

[Chorus]
I’m not too much
You’re just too closed
I won’t dim down
Just to keep you composed
Your wounds aren’t mine
To carry anymore
If you can’t rise
Then I’ll close the door

[Bridge]
You never learned to hear yourself
So you couldn’t hear me either
But my needs aren’t a burden
And my heart deserves a keeper

[Final Chorus]
I’m not too much
I’m exactly enough
My truth isn’t heavy
It’s the cost of real love
If my voice sounds like control to you
Then you’re not ready for the truth

[Outro – Whispered]
I’m not too much
I was never too much
You just never learned
How to stay.

[Verse 1]
You wore your damage like a warning label
Like I was supposed to read it and stay soft
You called your silence ‘self-protection’
While I carried both of us through every loss
You took my body like a safe house
Took my patience like a drug
Took the parts of me that loved too hard
Then called it pressure when I needed love
You let me build a home in someone
Already halfway out the door
And every time I felt the distance
You just pulled away some more

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I see it clearly
You didn’t love me carelessly
That would’ve hurt less
You loved me knowingly

[Chorus]
Stop calling it avoidance
When you knew exactly what you did
You took the comfort, took the loyalty
Then disappeared inside yourself again
You let me hold your shaking hands
While rehearsing your escape
God, you looked so wounded
I mistook your damage for depth

But trauma doesn’t make it noble
To take until there’s nothing left
You had access to my heart
Without the courage to protect it
And that’s the part that haunts me most—
You knew I was rare, something real
But self-destruction felt more familiar

[Verse 2]
You loved being understood
More than you ever loved being honest
Loved the way I stayed calm
Every time your chaos made me nauseous
You called me ‘too emotional’
Anytime I asked for truth
Like accountability was cruelty
And your distance was some wound
I kept translating all your silence
Into stories that made sense
Because believing you were damaged
Hurts less than seeing your neglect

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe you weren’t complicated
Maybe it’s painfully simple
You liked the feeling of being loved
Without becoming someone capable

[Chorus]
Stop calling it avoidance
When you knew exactly what you did
You took the safety, took the devotion
Then vanished when it got too real again
You said ‘I love you’ with one foot out
And called your fear an excuse
But fear doesn’t erase the damage
Of what you knowingly put me through
You fed on my forgiveness
While starving me of truth
And now you’ll spend your whole life
Meeting people who don’t love like I do

[Bridge – Half-Sung / Explosive Build]
I held the parts of you you couldn’t face
And you made me feel hard to love
Do you understand the difference?
You got used to being held
Without ever learning how to hold somebody back
And one day
When nobody waits through your silence
When nobody overexplains your cruelty
When nobody turns themselves inside out
Trying to understand you—
That’s when it’ll hit
Not every person who leaves you
Was asking for too much
Maybe they just finally realized
You were never going to grow

[Final Chorus]
So stop romanticizing your distance
Like it made you deep
You weren’t some tragic mystery
You were just scared to keep
Something honest
Something rare
Someone that saw you fully
And stayed there
And I was never hard to love
You were just underdeveloped
And too afraid
To become the man I deserved

[Outro]
I understand why you are the way you are
That’s why I finally left
Because empathy without boundaries
Is how people like you keep access.

[Verse 1]
You say you want something easy
No drama, no pressure, no weight
But I learned that ‘easy’ just meant empty
And ‘peace’ was just your word for escape
You want the highs but none of the depth
All the warmth, but not one real step
You say you’re not good with emotion
But I was never asking for devotion—just truth

[Pre-Chorus]
I showed up, heart in hand
You showed love, with your exit planned
I gave softness, you gave rules
I gave soul, you played it cool

[Chorus]
You want love without the layers
Hands to hold without the prayers
Validation when you please
But no one asking what you need
No fights, no tears, no risk of pain
No one knocking on your shame
You want me simple, sweet, and small
No needs, no voice—nothing at all

[Verse 2]
You like to come and go like wind
Only show up when you feel thin
When the world feels too loud, you crawl inside
But leave me waiting on the other side
You called it ‘chill,’ I called it ‘cold’
I was real, but you just fold
Every time I reached too far
You shut the door and called it ‘hard’

[Pre-Chorus]
You said, ‘don’t complicate the good’
But baby, you misunderstood
Love takes effort, love takes fight
But you only show up when it feels light

[Chorus]
You want love without the layers
Hands to hold without the prayers
Validation when you please
But no one asking what you need
No fights, no tears, no risk of pain
No one knocking on your shame
You want me simple, sweet, and small
No needs, no voice—nothing at all

[Bridge]
You want the perks, not the price
A body warm, a soul on ice
You say, ‘I’m not ready for more’
But I see now—that was always the score

[Final Chorus]
You want love that doesn’t move
No mirrors, no room for truth
You want ease, but ease ain’t real
You just want what you don’t have to feel
So keep your silence, keep your walls
I’m done being easy just to fall
You want me empty so you don’t break—
But I deserve love that doesn’t take.

[Verse 1]
You called me crazy when I called you out
Said I was overreacting, too loud
But you knew the things that cut me deep
Still you did them just to keep your peace

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve carried silence for too many nights
But the truth doesn’t hide in your alibis

[Chorus]
It’s not just drama, it’s me breaking free
From your selfish mask and your apathy
Don’t twist my pain into your excuse
This time I win, ’cause I see through you

[Verse 2]
You played the victim while I held the weight
Gaslit my love until it turned to hate
I kept forgiving what I should’ve left
But now your absence feels like a gift

[Pre-Chorus]
You’ll say I’m cold, you’ll say I’m through
But I just chose the peace you never knew

[Chorus]
It’s not just drama, it’s me breaking free
From your selfish mask and your apathy
Don’t twist my pain into your excuse
This time I win, ’cause I see through you

[Bridge]
I won’t defend myself from your lies
I won’t shrink down just to make it right
If peace is what you couldn’t choose
Then losing me is your own truth

[Final Chorus / Outro]
It’s not just drama, it’s me breaking free
From your selfish mask and your apathy
Don’t twist my pain into your excuse
This time I win, ’cause I see through you
Yeah, I see through you…

[Verse 1]
I laid my cards face-up on the table
Every truth, every trembling word
You built your walls out of silence
I built myself from being unheard

[Pre-Chorus]
I asked if it was fear or selfishness
You just let the question burn in the dark
But healing taught me both can exist
Missing you and hating the mark

[Chorus]
I can miss you and still be angry
I can ache and still walk away
Both can live inside my body
They don’t cancel, they just stay
I wanted AVR like oxygen—
Acknowledge, validate, reassure
But your fine print said ‘don’t feel too much’
And I can’t sign that anymore

[Verse 2]
You called my love ‘free feelings’
Like they were cheap, disposable things
But clarity isn’t free, it’s earned—
And your silence broke the strings

[Bridge]
One day, I’ll find it simple
To hold love without the bruise
But tonight I’m holding both of us—
The missing and the truth

[Chorus]
I can miss you and still be angry
I can ache and still walk away…

[Outro]
So if you ask what the fine print was
It’s what I’ve needed all along
Don’t dismiss me, don’t betray me
Just hear me, and prove me wrong.

[Verse 1]
You never raised your hand
But you stole the air I breathe
Called it love, but every ‘no’ I gave
Was met with silence, rage, or leave
You rolled your eyes, made me small
Kept me quiet just to keep the peace
I thought I was choosing love
But love shouldn’t hollow you piece by piece
There are no police reports
No broken bones to show
But my laughter’s gone missing
And I don’t hum songs anymore

[Chorus]
These are the bruises you can’t see
The slow bleed you left in me
The ghost I became to survive your hold
The way I kept dying but never told
You didn’t have to hit to hurt
Your words cut deeper than the dirt
And now I’m crawling out to finally breathe—
Past the bruises you can’t see

[Verse 2]
You made me doubt my memory
Gaslighted storms into quiet skies
Every tear was ‘too dramatic’
Every truth dressed down in lies
I stopped singing in the car
Stopped trusting my own skin
Learned to smile through the silence
Just enough to keep you in

[Pre-Chorus]
They all said, ‘Love can be hard’
While you chipped away my name
I asked for help, but no one saw—
’Cause nothing looked the same

[Chorus]
These are the bruises you can’t see
The slow bleed you left in me
The ghost I became to survive your hold
The way I kept dying but never told
You didn’t have to hit to hurt
Your words cut deeper than the dirt
And now I’m crawling out to finally breathe—
Past the bruises you can’t see

[Bridge]
You wanted me compliant, tired, and small
Alive enough to serve
But not to stand tall
Now I’m stepping out with a voice you can’t steal
And the silence you loved is the thing I’ll kill

[Chorus – Reprise]
These are the bruises you can’t see
But I’m stitching the soul back into me
No more ghost in my own skin
No more war I’ll let you win
You didn’t have to hit to hurt
But I’m not crawling back to the dirt
I’m walking out with my own key—
Past the bruises you can’t see

[Outro]
No more living half-alive
No more shrinking just to survive
I’m done carrying the weight of your disease
I’m free from the bruises you can’t see.

[Verse 1]
You’d pin my wrists like it was playful
I’d say, “You’re hurting me… get off”
You’d only hold a little tighter
Like my fear was something to laugh off
You’d say, “Relax, I’m only kidding”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you that bad”
But every “sorry” came tomorrow
After you ignored the words I had
You convinced me silence meant permission
That pulling away meant “try again”
You treated every one of my boundaries
Like they were made for you to bend

[Pre-Chorus]
I wasn’t difficult to love
You were difficult to hear
Because every time I said “enough”
You taught me not to trust my fear

[Chorus]
You taught me my “stop”
Was something you’d negotiate
You taught me to question my no
Before I ever questioned you
No doesn’t need explaining
No doesn’t need a fight
You heard every word I whispered
You just decided your want
Mattered more than my rights
No doesn’t have to be louder
To mean exactly what it said
You called it love
But love would’ve listened instead

[Spoken Word]
If I say stop…
You stop
If I pull away…
You let me go
If I tell you you’re hurting me…
You let go
If I’m crying…
You don’t keep going
Love listens
Love never mistakes resistance…
For permission
Love doesn’t keep going…
After hearing…
“No”
Just because you laughed…
Didn’t make it harmless
Just because you smiled…
Didn’t make it love
Your want mattered more than my no
You taught me my boundaries…
Never mattered
Until I remembered…
They always did

[Outro – Spoken]
They say abuse is easy to see
Mine wasn’t
Mine wore a smile
Mine laughed
Mine apologized
Mine said…
“I didn’t mean to”
“I was just playing”
“You know I love you”
And somewhere along the way…
I started believing…
Love was supposed to hurt
Maybe that’s why…
You never accepted my “no”
Because somewhere deep down…
You knew…
It never meant…
“Maybe”
It never meant…
“Convince me”
It never meant…
“Try harder”
It always meant…
No

[Verse 1]
I said no with my mouth
I said no with my hands
Pulled you away like my body still had a plan
I said no in the space
Between breath and fear
Ten times louder than you ever chose to hear
My heart was beating warnings
My spine was screaming run
But you kept stepping closer
Like my no was just for fun

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to stand my ground
But the ground fell out beneath
When fight didn’t keep me safe
My body chose relief

[Chorus]
I said no
Before I went quiet
I said no
Before I went still
Just because I stopped fighting
Doesn’t mean I ever willed
Just because I went numb
Doesn’t mean I agreed
I didn’t give you my yes
You just took it from me

[Verse 2]
There’s a moment when anger
Has nowhere to go
So it curls up inside you
And turns into “maybe it’s my fault though”
I replay every second
Like I missed some sign
But the truth is I drew the line
And you crossed it every time

[Pre-Chorus]
When leaving felt dangerous
And staying felt small
My body picked the option
That hurt the least of all

[Chorus]
I said no
Before I shut down
I said no
Before I froze
Survival isn’t consent
It’s just the way my nervous system chose
I didn’t want it softer
I didn’t want it slow
I wanted you to listen
When I told you no

[Bridge]
Don’t rewrite my silence
Like it was desire
Don’t dress up your force
As something mutual or mild
I didn’t fail myself
I did what kept me alive
There’s a difference between surviving
And being denied

[Breakdown]
I’m not broken
I’m not weak
I’m not confused about what I need
I was clear
You ignored
That’s the truth you can’t afford

[Final Chorus]
I said no
And that should’ve been enough
I said no
I didn’t owe you being tough
If my body let go
It was trying to stay safe
You don’t get to claim my surrender
When you created the threat

[Outro]
I’m learning my body
Isn’t something to blame
It remembers the danger
So I don’t have to stay
I said no
And I’ll say it again
My silence was survival
Not consent

[Verse 1]
I rebuilt myself in silence
Piece by piece, I learned to see
How to trust my own reflection
How to stand inside of me
I didn’t come to you broken
I didn’t come here unaware
I knew exactly who I was
When I let you in there

[Pre-Chorus]
I told the truth, I stayed composed
I didn’t play the games I know

[Chorus]
I wasn’t confused, I was made to feel that way
Every time you twisted what I’d say
I knew the truth but you blurred the lines
Till I second-guessed my own mind
I did the work, I showed up clean
You questioned everything in me
Don’t call it love when it rewrites truth
I wasn’t confused—that was you

[Verse 2]
I gave you honesty, not chaos
I didn’t project my past on you
I knew my wounds and where they came from
I did the healing you wouldn’t do
I stayed longer than I should have
Not ’cause I didn’t see the signs
But I was taught to keep on trying
Even when it cost me mine

[Pre-Chorus]
I held the mirror, you looked away
Then made me doubt what I could say

[Chorus]
I wasn’t confused, I was made to feel that way
Every time you twisted what I’d say
I knew the truth but you blurred the lines
Till I second-guessed my own mind
I did the work, I showed up clean
You questioned everything in me
Don’t call it love when it rewrites truth
I wasn’t confused—that was you

[Bridge – Emotional Peak]
Do you know what that cost me?
To rebuild what you broke slowly
I spent years learning how to trust
And you made me question all of it
I wasn’t crazy, I wasn’t blind
I just stayed longer than my time
Thinking maybe you would meet me there
But you never cared

[Final Chorus – Power Shift]
I’m not confused, I see it clearly now
You couldn’t meet me where I stood
I brought the truth, you brought the doubt
And called it love when it was just
Avoidance dressed up carefully
So you wouldn’t have to feel or see
I did the work, I chose to grow
You chose to stay who you were before

[Outro]
I trust myself again…
And I’m not losing that for anyone.

[Verse 1]
I said it soft so you wouldn’t break
Still you flinched like love was a mistake
I wasn’t screaming, just needing grace
But every word made you look away

[Pre-Chorus]
I held my hurt in gentle hands
Tried to build a bridge, you built a dam
You said, ‘I don’t wanna fight’
But I never raised my voice that night

[Chorus]
You knew better
I deserved better
Told you what was breaking me
You kept pressing on the same old fracture
Trust was something I begged for
Safety—something you swore
But you shut me out, shut me down
Now I’m screaming in a ghost town

[Verse 2]
Every ‘I feel’ was a loaded gun
In your world, emotions weigh a ton
You laughed it off, called me too much
But I was starving for a softer touch

[Pre-Chorus]
I asked you how to reach you right
You said you ‘don’t have answers tonight’
I wasn’t trying to pick a fight
I was trying to make us feel alright

[Chorus]
You knew better
I needed better
Shared the scars I kept in silence
Met with shame, defense, and violence
Told you I felt unseen
You turned it back on me
Like I’m the storm, when you’re the match
Always running, never looking back

[Bridge]
I’m not your mother, not your sin
Not your past you buried in
You want love without the cost
But real connection’s what you lost
I whispered, ‘This hurts’
You heard, ‘I hate you’
I said, ‘I need’
You said, ‘I blame you’
You feared the depth, so you stayed shallow
Now your silence echoes hollow

[Final Chorus – Stripped / Haunting]
You knew better
But you didn’t bother
You had my heart in your hands
And you dropped it like water
I deserved more than panic and pride
Than your fear disguised as ‘I tried’
So I’m done explaining my pain
To someone who runs from the rain.

[Verse 1]
You pulled me close, then pushed me away
Loved the chase, but you hated the stay
Said you wanted depth, but you swam so shallow
Left me bleeding in the mess you can’t follow
You knew my history, the weight I hold
But you weaponized the pieces I’d told
Made me feel like a burden for needing too much
While you vanished every time I reached for your touch

[Pre-Chorus]
All the words you never said
Still echo loud inside my head…

[Chorus]
Dear Drew—you knew better, but you did it anyway
Turned love into silence, made safety a game
Dear Drew—you broke me with the things you never showed
And I can’t unsee the cracks in the version you sold

[Verse 2]
You’d pull away when I got too near
Then reel me back with a half-sincere tear
Made me question my worth, made me twist in doubt
But the truth is you’re the one who’s hollowed out
You called it love, but it felt like a dare
A tug-of-war I could never repair
I carried it all, but you couldn’t lift
And I see now your ‘love’ was just a trick

[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for honesty, you gave me disguise
Now I only see red when I look in your eyes

[Chorus]
Dear Drew—you knew better, but you did it anyway
Turned love into silence, made safety a game
Dear Drew—you shattered what I never got to keep
And you haunt me in the hours I can’t even sleep

[Bridge – Slow / Haunting Build]
You wanted me quiet, a body, a face
Not the soul underneath you refused to embrace
I was screaming for closeness, but you turned to stone
So I learned it’s less lonely being alone

[Breakdown – Minimal]
Dear Drew…
I hope the silence echoes back at you

[Final Chorus – Explosive / Raw]
Dear Drew—you knew better, but you did it anyway
Cut me with the distance, let love decay
Dear Drew—your ghost is a wound I outgrew
I’m stronger in the ruins than I ever was with you

[Outro]
So, Dear Drew…
This is the last song I’ll ever waste on you.

[Verse 1]
You’ll probably love her loudly at first
Like you always do
Like a flood that mistakes itself for devotion
Like attention means truth

You’ll learn the shape of her sadness
Before she even speaks
You’ll kiss every bruise she hides
Then teach her new ways to bleed
And she’ll think, ‘finally…’
Like every lonely part of her
Has found somewhere to sleep
But your love has a slow leak in it
A beautiful kind of grief
The kind that keeps someone starving
While convincing them they’re being fed

[Pre-Chorus]
You build futures with your mouth
Then disappear when feelings swell
And leave her calling it ‘too sensitive’
Instead of calling it hell

[Chorus]
She’ll call herself the problem
Before she blames the wound
Turn hunger into gratitude
Just to keep from losing you
And every small betrayal
Will arrive soft enough to deny
Until she’s apologizing for the smoke
While the whole house fills with fire

[Post-Chorus]
I won’t envy her
I know what it takes
To love somebody
Who only loves you in waves

[Verse 2]
I know how your affection
Turns women into detectives
How your silence makes them question
Everything they used to trust inside themselves
I know she’ll shrink herself slowly
Trying not to trigger your leaving
Until one day she looks in the mirror
And realizes she disappeared for somebody else’s healing
You once told me I was different too
I wore that sentence like a crown
Until I learned you say ‘forever’
The way storms promise they’re calming down

[Bridge]
So no—
I will not envy her
But somewhere in me
I’ll ache for her quietly
Because I remember what it felt like
To love someone
Whose brokenness felt beautiful
Until it broke me too

[Outro]
I won’t envy her
But I’ll recognize her
The way survivors recognize wreckage
From the side of the road
And somewhere
At a distance
I’ll grieve for her softly
Because people don’t survive
Loving someone like you.

[Verse 1]
She don’t know the way I stood by through the smoke
Taught you how to feel, gave your cold heart hope
She’s got your smile, but not your soul
And she don’t know she’s just a role
She don’t see the cracks I patched
Thinks the love she has is built to last
But baby, I was the blueprint—
She’s just living in my past
I’m not tryna be cruel, just saying what’s true
It’s a shame what she stepped into
She’ll see my name in your search bar soon
And honestly, I almost feel sorry for her too…

[Chorus]
I feel bad for your girl—she don’t even know
She’s chasing a ghost, trying to fill my glow
Yeah, I’m humble, I know I ain’t for everyone
But if I’m what you lost, good luck moving on
She’ll scroll through my life, see a whole different tier
And wonder how you had me, then disappeared
She’ll see the glow-up, the heart, the depth
And know you lost your best bet yet
So good luck to her—I hope she don’t drown
Trying to live up to the queen you let down

[Post-Chorus]
Ooh, I hope she’s sweet…
But she ain’t me
You fumbled gold
Now she holds debris
I feel bad
Yeah, I feel bad for your girl

[Verse 2]
I’ve got a heart that heals and a mind that sees
A glow you don’t fake with a filter or feed
You had it all and let it slip—
Now you’re stuck with a ‘what if’
It’s not her fault, she’s just next in line
It’s not her fault, she’s just next in line
But no upgrade ever comes after a dime
And when she finds me on your feed
She’ll know she’s just Plan B

[Bridge]
I do feel bad for her, ’cause I know this game
It’s not just her turn—it’s always the same
You run when love gets way too close
And leave good hearts like haunted ghosts
She’ll give her all and still feel small
Think it’s her fault when you withdraw
But it’s a wound you never faced
And now we both got left in your wake

[Final Chorus]
I feel bad for your girl—bless her sweet soul
She thinks she’s the one who’ll finally take control
But I’ve danced this dance, I’ve kissed that fear
And I know the pain that’s drawing near
’Cause baby, you don’t know how to stay
You disappear before the love can lay
So good luck to her—she’ll try her best
But you can’t love when you fear the depth
So yeah, I feel bad—not ’cause she’s second best
But ’cause she’s stuck in the same broken test
You lost a woman who would’ve stood by your side
And now you’ll just keep running from your pride
I had the heart, the looks, the soul, the fire—
And all you’ll have now is love expired
So good luck to her—I hope she learns soon
You can’t build a home with a man who fears the room

[Outro]
Yeah, I feel bad for your girl…
She’s trying to love what never learned to stay
And that’s the price we both still pay.

[Verse 1]
You didn’t destroy me
I did that myself
You were just the mirror
Reflecting my hell
I blamed you for the spiral
The overthinking storm
But truth was in the silence
That’s where I was torn

[Pre-Chorus]
You pulled away, I clung on tighter
You needed space, I made myself smaller
You shut down, I screamed out louder
Lost myself just to feel your power

[Chorus]
But I’m not her anymore—
The anxious girl begging at your door
You cracked me open, yeah you broke me wide
But from the pieces, I learned to rise
You didn’t destroy me…
No, you set me free

[Verse 2]
I gave up my boundaries
Just to make you stay
Thought if I loved you harder
You wouldn’t run away
But love can’t be forced
And I can’t fix your fear
Your avoidance wasn’t mine to carry
Now the truth is clear

[Pre-Chorus]
You feared being engulfed
I feared being left
Two broken souls
Running from ourselves

[Chorus]
But I’m not her anymore—
The anxious girl begging at your door
You cracked me open, yeah you broke me wide
But from the pieces, I learned to rise
You didn’t destroy me…
No, you set me free

[Bridge – Raw / Gritty Build]
I’ve done the work, I’ve sat in grief
Felt the ache, found my release
I don’t chase hurt, I don’t stay unmet
I’m whole, I’m worthy, no regrets

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I’m not her anymore—
The anxious girl begging at your door
You cracked me open, but I’m not broken
From the ruins, something sacred was spoken
You didn’t destroy me…
You never owned me
I’m finally free.

[Verse 1]
You say you’re deep, but you drown in the shallow
Chasing reflections, your heart’s just hollow
Eyes on the strangers, scrolling for more
While I was the ocean you washed up on shore

[Pre-Chorus]
You called it love, but it felt like a dare
You craved the bodies, but I wasn’t there
I gave you soul, and you gave me games
Now all that’s left is the sound of my rage

[Chorus]
So here’s your anthem, sing it loud
I was the lightning, you’re just a cloud
Good idea? Nah, you’re the worst I’ve had—
A king of lust with a paper crown, sad
You can’t be real, can’t even try
I needed love, you just needed eyes
Good riddance, baby—not a good idea
Your ghost don’t haunt me, I’m louder than your fear

[Verse 2]
You worship the mirror, but it cracks when you stare
All of your secrets still hang in the air
I was the spark you could never contain
Now I’m the wildfire burning your name

[Pre-Chorus]
You wanted bodies, but I wanted truth
You sold me promises, wasted my youth
Now every red flag looks better in black
I lit the match—no, I won’t look back

[Chorus]
So here’s your anthem, sing it loud
I was the lightning, you’re just a cloud
Good idea? Nah, you’re the worst I’ve had—
A king of lust with a paper crown, sad
You can’t be real, can’t even try
I needed love, you just needed eyes
Good riddance, baby—not a good idea
Your ghost don’t haunt me, I’m louder than your fear

[Bridge – Whisper to Growl]
Tell me, was it worth it?
All the stares, all the thirst, it’s
Funny how empty your kingdom feels
I was the only one real

[Final Chorus – Crowd Chant]
Here’s my anthem, scream it loud
I was the storm, you’re underground
Good idea? Nah, you’re the worst I’ve had—
A king of lust with a paper crown, sad
You can’t be real, can’t even try
I needed love, you just needed eyes
Good riddance, baby—not a good idea
I’m not your echo—I’m the end, I’m the seer.

[Intro / Hook]
Boys play games, it’s like they’re chasing trophies,
Hearts on a shelf just to feed their stories.
Red flags flying, but I’m done decoding,
I’d rather be alone than waste my time exploding.

[Verse 1]
They’re smooth with the lines but they’re hollow inside,
Gaslight your truth just to cover their pride.
Narcissists in training, manipulators too,
But baby, I’ve got better things than wasting it on you.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve seen this movie, I know the end,
Another false start dressed up as a friend…

[Chorus]
Boys play games, it’s like they’re chasing trophies,
Hearts on a shelf just to feed their stories.
Red flags flying, but I’m done decoding,
I’d rather be alone than waste my time exploding.

[Verse 2]
Unavailable, but act like they care,
Promise you the world, then vanish in thin air.
It’s a circus of emotions, a performance they perfect,
But I won’t audition for their lack of respect.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every mask they wear starts to slip,
And I’m not falling for the same old script…

[Chorus]
Boys play games, it’s like they’re chasing trophies,
Hearts on a shelf just to feed their stories.
Red flags flying, but I’m done decoding,
I’d rather be alone than waste my time exploding.

[Bridge]
Maybe it’s not just here, maybe it’s the world we’re in,
But I’d rather keep my peace than play a game I’ll never win.
I’m not your lesson, I’m not your fix,
I’m stronger on my own than caught up in your tricks.

[Breakdown Chorus – Half-Time / Raw]
Boys play games, and they think they own me…
But I’d rather die free than be their trophy.

[Final Chorus – Explosive / Alt-Rock]
Boys play games, it’s like they’re chasing trophies,
Hearts on a shelf just to feed their stories.
Red flags burning, I’m not exploding,
I’d rather be alone—my freedom’s worth protecting.

[Outro]
I’d rather be alone…
Than let another red flag take my throne.

[Verse 1]
You loved me loud in the beginning
Like I was sunlight through your ribs
You reached for me before I reached for you
Like closeness was a gift
You said nobody understood you
The way I somehow always did
And I believed if someone saw me deeply
They would finally stay this time

[Pre-Chorus]
But every month we got closer
You got harder to hold
Like your nervous system panicked
Every time the love got real

[Chorus]
The spark didn’t die
It shut down
You started treating love
Like something to survive somehow
I kept talking softer
While you disappeared in silence
You called it losing feelings
I called it fear disguised as distance
And I spent months trying to get back
To the version of you
Who didn’t look terrified
Every time I needed you

[Verse 2]
You loved me best inside the honeymoon
Where nothing heavy touched the air
Back when I was still exciting
And not somebody you had to care for
But relationships get deeper
And eventually require truth
And every time I opened up
You heard pressure instead of love

[Pre-Chorus]
So I chased harder
You ran faster
And both our wounds started calling it fate

[Chorus]
The spark didn’t die
It shut down
You turned intimacy
Into something you could drown inside
And I became emotional CPR
Trying to bring us back to life
While your body treated closeness
Like a threat it had to fight
You called it ‘needing space’
I called it slowly losing you
But now I see your nervous system
Was protecting you from love too

[Bridge]
Maybe I was never asking for too much
Maybe you just hit the ceiling
Of what your heart knew how to hold
Maybe I confused your inconsistency
With depth
Because chaos always felt like home

[Final Chorus]
The spark didn’t die
It shut down
And I kept blaming myself
For something wired long before I came around
Now I know love cannot survive
When one person fears being left
And the other fears being fully seen
So we became exactly what we feared
You disappeared
And I abandoned myself trying to keep you here

[Outro]
The pattern repeats
The person just changes
And somewhere inside me
I still mourn the beginning.

[Verse 1]
You wore your pain like polished gold
Smile sharp enough to hide the cold
Everybody loved the version you designed
But I could hear the panic underneath your pride
You never had to say a word
I felt the violence in the hurt
The little boy abandoned in the hall
Still punching holes inside your walls
And maybe that’s the problem
I could see through every mask
Most people ran from your shadows
I kept trying to hold them back

[Pre-Chorus]
You called it love when I absorbed your storms
When I translated rage into something warm
I thought being chosen meant being able to survive you

[Chorus]
I loved the monster softly
Held the knife and kissed the wound
Stayed long after my own body
Started breaking in two
You looked at me like salvation
Like I was air inside your lungs
But every time I pulled you closer
You disappeared from what you’d done
I wasn’t weak for loving deeply
I was dangerous to myself
’Cause I could understand your darkness
And still forget to save myself

[Verse 2]
You said nobody ever stayed
After seeing all the things you became
And God… I made that my responsibility
Like your healing was somehow attached to me
I learned your chaos like a language
Learned your silence like a threat
Learned how to calm your nervous system
While abandoning mine instead
You wanted unconditional
Until accountability arrived
You wanted intimacy without exposure
Love without sacrifice

[Pre-Chorus]
And I kept turning my intuition into empathy
Kept calling destruction ‘complexity’
Kept confusing being needed with being loved

[Chorus]
I loved the monster softly
Held your shame like it was mine
Watched your darkness flood the room
Then blamed myself for drowning inside
You looked at me like redemption
Like I could pull you back to God
But you can’t heal somebody
Who survives by staying lost
I wasn’t weak for loving deeply
I just didn’t know when to leave
I thought if I understood your pain enough
You would stop causing it to me

[Bridge]
Maybe I terrified you
Because I saw the child beneath the king
Saw the fear beneath the power
The emptiness beneath everything
And maybe you loved me too
In the only way you knew how
But love without safety
Still burns the whole house down

[Final Chorus]
So I loved the monster softly
Until there was nothing left of me
Now I know some people confuse
Emotional hunger with intimacy
And I still ache when I remember
The way you looked at me sometimes
Like I was the first person
To ever truly see behind your eyes
But being seen is not the same
As being capable of love
And I can miss you with my whole heart
Without returning to the flood

[Outro]
I was never hard to love
I was just willing to love what hurt me
Longer than I should’ve.

[Verse 1]
You disappeared without a warning
No final truth, no final fight
Just silence hanging in the doorway
Like you vanished mid-sentence one night
And everybody tells me healing
Starts when you let go and move on
But my mind was built for answers
And you left me with none

[Pre-Chorus]
Now every memory feels loaded
Every word has seventeen meanings
I replay us like surveillance footage
Trying to find where you stopped needing me

[Chorus]
You turned my brain into an unfinished equation
A question mark I carry everywhere
And no contact feels less like distance
More like emotional air deprivation
I don’t just miss you
I miss resolving you
My nervous system keeps reaching
For a door that won’t move
And maybe that’s the cruelest part
Of loving someone who leaves quietly
You gave me silence
And my mind turned it into infinity

[Verse 2]
I build fifty different versions
Of why you suddenly went cold
Maybe you got scared of closeness
Maybe you stopped loving me months ago
Maybe I was too emotional
Maybe I finally became too real
Maybe your silence says nothing
But my body still searches for meaning still

[Pre-Chorus]
I know intelligence should help me
But it only makes the loops run deeper
Because analytical minds don’t rest
Until they finish what they’re trying to solve

[Chorus]
You turned my brain into an unfinished equation
An open loop that never closes right
Now every quiet room becomes a courtroom
Where I put myself on trial at night
I don’t just grieve you
I grieve the explanation too
Because closure isn’t weakness
When your nervous system was built around truth

[Bridge]
People say ‘if they wanted to, they would’
Like that’s enough to stop the ache
But my body still waits for resolution
Like your silence is a code I have to break
And maybe I don’t miss you anymore
Maybe I miss certainty
Maybe I miss knowing where I stood
Before you disappeared from me

[Final Chorus]
You turned my brain into an unfinished equation
But I’m slowly learning not every ending speaks
Some people leave without explaining
And the silence has nothing to do with me
So maybe healing isn’t solving
Every mystery they left behind
Maybe healing is surviving
Without needing every answer to survive

[Outro]
The hardest thing I ever learned
Was that closure sometimes sounds like silence
And the story still ends
Even when nobody explains why.

[Verse 1]
You said it’s all in my head
Guess my heartbeat lied instead
I was reading the signs in the silence
You were busy pulling strings behind it
Every ‘I’m fine’ was a stone in my chest
I was drowning while you played your chess
You knew I’d swallow the words to keep peace
While you wrote your goodbye under the sheets

[Pre-Chorus]
You lit the match, then called it a spark
Made me question my own heart
Told me shadows were the sun
’Til my vision came undone

[Chorus]
Now I’m burning in your gaslight glow
Every truth you twisted starts to show
You said love should be easy, guess you meant for you
Left me tangled in the lies I thought were true
Now your fire’s out, but the smoke still knows
I’m still choking on your gaslight glow

[Verse 2]
You kissed me the night before you let go
Like a thief with a key to a home you don’t own
You played god with my trust, called it care
But you were gone long before you weren’t there
And every time I reached for your hand
You were halfway gone, halfway a man
But I stayed, praying for the day you’d choose
Turns out all you were choosing was how I’d lose

[Pre-Chorus]
You lit the match, then called it a spark
Made me question my own heart
Told me shadows were the sun
’Til my vision came undone

[Chorus]
Now I’m burning in your gaslight glow
Every truth you twisted starts to show
You said love should be easy, guess you meant for you
Left me tangled in the lies I thought were true
Now your fire’s out, but the smoke still knows
I’m still choking on your gaslight glow

[Bridge]
You said ‘respect’ while you lied through your teeth
Said you were in, but your ghost was with me
And I hate that my love gave you a stage
To rehearse your goodbye in a velvet cage

[Breakdown – Quiet / Raw]
Every no was a yes in disguise
Every truth I held up, you denied
But I’m done playing blind for your show
Go keep your gaslight glow

[Final Chorus]
’Cause I’m done burning in your gaslight glow
Your shadows can’t follow where I go
Love should be easy, but not at my expense
I’m taking back my heart, I’m taking back my sense
Now your fire’s out, and the smoke will know
I won’t choke on your gaslight glow.

[Verse 1]
Dear Drew…
I asked you if something felt off, you swore it was all in my head
I gave you a hundred ways out, but you held me there instead
You looked me in the eyes and said you were all in
While you were halfway out the door, rehearsing the end

[Verse 2]
You let me twist in the quiet, my body screaming the truth
But you wrapped your silence in “care” and called it protecting me from you
I got sick from the weight of the lies you let me carry
You rationed out your affection like I had to earn what was already mine

[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you think that’s kindness
Maybe you’ve rewritten it that way
But I see the strings now, Drew
And I know the game you played

[Chorus]
You loved me but you lied
You didn’t lose me ’cause I was hard to love
You lost me ’cause you made loving me
Something you could pick up and put down
Whenever it suited you

[Verse 3]
You called it “respect” when you pulled away, said it wouldn’t be fair
But respect is giving the truth, not hiding it ’til you’re ready to walk
You kept me in your orbit, just close enough to keep me from leaving
But far enough that I’d never feel safe

[Pre-Chorus 2]
And Drew, you didn’t protect me—you protected your comfort
You stole my choice and called it love
But control wrapped in tenderness is still control
And now I can’t even look at you the same

[Chorus 2]
You loved me but you lied
And you can tell yourself it was mercy
But it was power
It was selfishness
It was keeping me blind so you could feel clean when you finally left

[Bridge]
Drew, I’m still detoxing from you
From the gaslight, from the half-truths, from the way you made me doubt my own mind
You played judge, jury, and executioner in a love you already sentenced to die
And I can’t forgive that you let me drown just so you could stay dry

[Final Chorus]
You loved me but you lied
You had the truth and you let me burn
You had my trust and you let it rot
And maybe you’ll never care, maybe you’ll sleep fine
But I see you now—and once you see the strings
You can never be fooled again

[Outro]
Dear Drew…
You don’t get to tell this story anymore.

[Verse 1]
I was taught to keep it quiet
Protect your image, guard your name
Carry all the damage privately
While you walked away unchanged
I was told the truth would hurt you
That speaking up would be unfair
So I carried every wound alone
And called it love because I cared

[Chorus]
But no more
I’m done shrinking for your reputation
No more
Protecting the story while I’m breaking
If the truth makes you look bad
Maybe the truth isn’t the problem
And I’m not speaking now to tear you down
I’m speaking so I can finally heal

[Verse 2]
I stayed silent while you rewrote history
Made me question what was real
Turned my loyalty into a weapon
And my forgiveness into a shield
But I’m done carrying your secrets
Done carrying your shame
The weight belongs to the one who caused it
Not the one who stayed

[Final Chorus]
No more
I won’t make myself smaller to save you
No more
I won’t bury my voice to protect you
I’m telling my story now
Not for revenge, not for applause
But because healing starts the moment
You stop apologizing for your scars.

[Verse 1]
You’re probably sitting where I sat
Looking at his name light up your phone
Thinking maybe this time it’s different
Maybe this time you’ve finally found home

He’s probably telling you you’re special
In that way that makes your chest cave in
And you’re thinking all the things I thought
Before I learned how stories end

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you won’t believe me
’Cause I didn’t either then

[Chorus]
If I could talk to her
I’d tell her, “Baby, run”
Not because you’re hard to love
Not because you’re not enough

I’d tell her, “Please don’t spend your heart
Trying to fix what he’s become”
Some lessons take a thousand tears
Some wounds take years to overcome

And if I could save you from the hurt
God knows I’d try to do it first
But nobody could’ve warned me then
And I don’t know if you’ll listen now

So all I can do is sing this song
And hope you get out

[Verse 2]
You’ll start making little excuses
For things that never felt quite right
You’ll call it fear, you’ll call it timing
You’ll call red flags a troubled life

You’ll become an expert translator
Of words that never match his deeds
You’ll shrink yourself to keep the peace
And call survival what you need

[Pre-Chorus]
And one day you’ll wake up wondering
Why you’ve forgotten what you need

[Chorus]
If I could talk to her
I’d tell her, “Baby, run”
Not because you’re hard to love
Not because you’re not enough

I’d tell her, “Please don’t lose yourself
Trying to be somebody he wants”
The hardest thing you’ll ever learn
Is love can’t make somebody honest

And if I could save you from the hurt
God knows I’d take it all instead
But every woman has a chapter
Where she mistakes hope for a hand

And thinks if she loves enough
The story changes in the end

[Bridge]
So when he leaves you questioning
Every beautiful thing you are
Please remember someone’s choices
Are not a measure of your heart

And when you’re staring at the wreckage
Wondering what you couldn’t do

The answer is the same one
I wish somebody told me too

[Final Chorus]
If I could talk to her
I’d tell her what I needed most

That love should never feel like waiting
For somebody who won’t choose

That peace is worth more than potential
And clarity is worth the truth

And one day you’ll stop missing him
The way you miss a storm that’s through

You’ll just be grateful that you survived
The version of yourself you outgrew

And if I could talk to her

I’d tell her she’s gonna be okay

Even if she doesn’t believe me yet.

[Verse 1]
I’ll never forget the way my hands shook
Holding a truth I never wanted to know
It wasn’t a scene, no screaming, no goodbye
Just the weight of a feeling I’d carried all this time
I think somewhere deep down I already knew
Why every answer never quite fit the proof
Why my chest got tight every time you said my name
Like my heart was trying to warn me before my mind could explain

[Pre-Chorus]
And being right wasn’t victory
It didn’t heal a thing in me

[Chorus]
’Cause I was right, and I wish I wasn’t
The truth didn’t free me, it only crushed me
You let me love you with my whole heart open
While you were already walking somewhere else
I gave you trust, I gave you faith
Believed every promise you made
And what hurts the most isn’t losing you tonight
It’s finding out I was right

[Verse 2]
I keep replaying every moment in my head
Trying to find the place where the story went dead
Was my love not enough, was sincerity too much?
Or were you always someone I could never really touch?
I wasn’t playing games, I wasn’t keeping score
I just wanted the kind of love worth fighting for
But you kept choosing comfort over honesty
And I kept mistaking your words for integrity

[Pre-Chorus]
Now the silence says more than you ever did
And that’s the hardest thing to sit with

[Chorus]
’Cause I was right, and I wish I wasn’t
The truth didn’t free me, it only crushed me
You let me love you with my whole heart open
While you were already walking somewhere else
I gave you trust, I gave you faith
Believed every promise you made
And what hurts the most isn’t losing you tonight
It’s finding out I was right

[Bridge]
I don’t miss you
I miss who I thought you were
I’m grieving a version of you
That never existed at all
And maybe that’s why I’m still hurting
Not because I want you back
But because I loved someone deeply
Who was wearing a mask

[Final Chorus]
I was right, and I hate that I was
Because the truth showed me exactly who you were
Not the man I loved
Not the man I believed
Just someone willing to watch me trust him
Knowing what he’d never reveal
And being right didn’t bring me peace
It only made the heartbreak real

[Verse 1]
You’re blowing up my phone again,
Saying you’ve changed, want what we had then.
Funny how you only miss my face,
Now that I’ve moved on to a better place.

[Pre-Chorus]
With you it was silence, questions, and games,
Now I hear his love every time he says my name.

[Chorus]
My ex wants me back, but boy it’s too late,
I’ve got someone who loves me without all the weight.
He tells me I’m beautiful, soft when he speaks,
Not scared to be honest, not scared to be weak.
You’re a ghost in the shadows, still calling my name,
But it’s better this way, yeah it’s better this way.

[Verse 2]
You made me doubt if I was enough,
Left me addicted to your push and shove.
But he makes me laugh, he makes me believe,
He gives without asking, he makes it so easy.

[Pre-Chorus]
You kept me guessing, kept me confused,
Now I get love that I’ll never lose.

[Chorus]
My ex wants me back, but boy it’s too late,
I’ve got someone who loves me without all the weight.
He tells me I’m beautiful, soft when he speaks,
Not scared to be honest, not scared to be weak.
You’re a ghost in the shadows, still calling my name,
But it’s better this way, yeah it’s better this way.

[Bridge]
Butterflies were just wasps in disguise,
Took your chaos and dressed it as “highs.”
Now I’ve got peace, and I’ve got grace,
You can’t compete, you’ve been replaced.

[Final Chorus]
My ex wants me back, but I won’t look away,
I’ve got someone who shows me love every day.
He tells me I’m beautiful, soft when he speaks,
He gives me the safety I used to seek.
You’re a ghost in the shadows, still calling my name,
But it’s better this way, yeah it’s better this way.

[Outro]
Better this way…
Better this way.