Unsent Letters

[Verse 1]
You said I was too much, too sensitive, too loud,
but you never saw the way I swallowed storms
just to keep you proud.
You pulled away in slow motion,
and I pretended I was fine—
told myself I didn’t care
while every piece of me aligned
to catch the slightest shift in you,
the tone, the breath, the change—
I was reading hurricanes
from whispers in your face.
I wasn’t numb the way you claimed.
I felt it all.
Every inch.
Every ache.

[Chorus]
I felt everything—
the nights you didn’t text back,
the way my body tightened
when your love slipped through the cracks.
I felt the push, I felt the pull,
I felt the warmth turn into sting.
You thought I didn’t care at all,
but baby—
I felt everything.
I felt the fear, I felt the hope,
I felt the lies your silence brings.
Don’t tell me I was “overthinking”—
you made me feel
every
thing.

[Verse 2]
You gave me half-love, half-effort,
and expected me to stay—
like I’d be grateful for scraps of you
when I showed up all the way.
And yeah, I got avoidant too,
but only after you withdrew.
My body didn’t brace for love—
it braced
for losing you.
You called me fragile, called me clingy,
said I wanted too much air—
but you were the one who gaslit truth
and said you didn’t care.
I wasn’t falling apart for nothing—
your inconsistency lit the fuse.
I wasn’t scared of loving you…
I was scared of what I’d lose.

[Chorus]
I felt everything—
the nights you left me wondering,
the ache of chasing closeness
that you ran from every morning.
I felt the doubt, I felt the sting,
the way my voice got small, trembling.
You thought I didn’t feel a thing—
but baby,
I felt everything.
I felt the drop, I felt the shift,
the moments where your words would twist.
My heart took every hit you missed—
don’t tell me I
didn’t feel
a thing.

[Bridge — Devastating truth]
You only saw the armor—
you never looked beneath.
Didn’t see the little girl inside
who shook when you would leave.
Didn’t hear the silent prayers
I whispered into sheets—
“Please pick me this time,
please stay,
please see me.”
I wasn’t cold.
I wasn’t numb.
I was overwhelmed
and underestimated.
You didn’t know
because I never let you—
you’d never created a place
safe enough for the truth.

[Verse 3]
And now I see it clearly—
I was never asking for too much.
I was asking for what love required:
effort, safety,
steady touch.
I wasn’t wild, I wasn’t broken.
My nervous system wasn’t wrong.
It was reacting to a half-grown love
that never lasted long.
So call me sensitive,
call me deep—
I’ll wear it like a crown.
Because feeling everything
is what finally
saved me from
drowning.

[Final Chorus]
I felt everything—
the way you never chose me,
the way you’d say you missed me
but your actions never proved it.
I felt the truth beneath your voice,
the parts of you you wouldn’t bring.
You thought you fooled me with your distance—
but baby,
I felt everything.
I felt the rise, I felt the fall,
I felt the way you gave me small.
And now I’m done with almost-love—
I’m choosing someone
who brings
everything.

[Outro]
So don’t say I was cold.
Don’t say I didn’t care.
Don’t say I didn’t feel a thing—
’cause I felt everything.
More than you’ll ever
let yourself
bear.

[Verse 1]
I thought love was patient
Thought it learns to understand
So I swallowed every silence
Every distance in your hands
You’d pull me close, then disappear
Call it space, then call it fear
And I’d trace the shape of you
While you were barely even here
You never had to say it
Your distance said enough
You made confusion feel like love
While I kept calling it us
I kept choosing you in moments
You were already gone
I was building something real
You were just holding on

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought I was sitting in the silence with you
But I was sitting there alone
I kept trying to reach you
You were already gone

[Chorus 1]
I loved you while you were leaving
While you were learning to let me go
I stayed when I felt you slipping
But you had already let me go
You kept me close when it was easy
But distant when it got too real
I was fighting for something growing
While you were choosing not to feel
You didn’t say it, you just showed me
In every pause, every delay
I was loving you in full color
While you were fading into gray

[Verse 2]
You didn’t have to leave me
You just had to stay the same
You felt safe enough to need me
But not enough to keep
You made it feel like patience
Like love just needed time
So I kept bending parts of me
To keep you in my life
You never had to say it
Your distance did enough
You made confusion feel like love
And I just called it us
I kept rewriting everything
To match what you became
Holding onto who you were
While you slowly slipped away
I remember every moment
My body tried to speak
Every time I felt the shift
But still chose you over me
I kept trying to fix it
You kept pulling away
I was building something lasting
You were just passing through my days

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I thought love meant staying
So I stayed through every sign
You were slowly letting go
While I was holding on for life

[Chorus 2]
I loved you while you were leaving
While you were learning to let me go
I stayed when I felt you slipping
But you had already let me go
I stood there taking your bullets
Turned every wound into “I know”
I made excuses for your silence
You never had to show
I would’ve chosen you for life
You couldn’t choose me once though
I kept calling it patience
You kept telling me to go
But real love doesn’t watch you bleed
And tell you that’s just how it goes

[Bridge]
I didn’t dodge a bullet
I stood there, took every shot
Thinking if I loved you harder
You’d become someone you’re not
I learned to call it patience
You learned to call it done
You had weeks to leave me slowly
I only had the moment you were gone
You knew I wouldn’t walk away
You knew I’d try to understand
So you gave less and less of you
While I kept holding it in my hands
You didn’t have to say the truth
You let me slowly figure it out
And that’s the part that stays with me
More than you leaving now
And maybe one day it’ll hit you
In a quiet, empty room
That I was everything you needed
At a time you couldn’t choose
And you’ll remember how I held you
Without making you feel small
And realize I wasn’t asking too much
You just weren’t ready at all
I was learning how to love you
You were learning how to leave
You felt safe enough to need me
But not enough to keep

[Final Chorus]
I loved you while you were leaving
Before you ever said goodbye
Before I had the words for it
I felt it every night
You didn’t break me in a moment
You did it slow so I wouldn’t see
And that’s the part that stays with me
You were gone…
But still holding me
I stood there taking your bullets
Thinking love meant sacrifice
But real love doesn’t watch you bleed
And call that love in your eyes
And I don’t hate you for leaving
I hate how you stayed
Long enough to be loved deeply
Without loving me that way
You didn’t lose me all at once
You lost me long before the end
And I was still there loving you
While you were learning to pretend
And that’s the part that stays with me
You stopped choosing me before you left me
I didn’t lose you when you left
I lost you while you were still mine.

[Verse 1]
You were good at almost
Good at just enough
Knew exactly how to keep me
Right outside of love
You’d pull me in like you meant it
Then disappear for space
Call it “taking it slow”
But you just feared the weight

[Pre-Chorus]
You’d say you didn’t want to lose me
But never tried to stay
Held me like I mattered
Then let me slip away

[Chorus]
You keep it low stakes
So you don’t have to break
Or risk something real
Or feel what you feel
You’d rather reset
Find someone new instead
Than sit in the ache
Of something high stakes
You don’t fight for connection
You just keep your escape
It’s easier to leave
When it’s always low stakes

[Verse 2]
You’re chasing something easy
Something you can control
Where no one asks for answers
No one gets too close
You say you want something real
But real requires truth
And truth is where you lose it
When it starts needing you

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it “bad timing”
Or say it’s just not right
But it’s not about the moment
You just don’t know how to fight

[Chorus]
You keep it low stakes
So you don’t have to break
Or risk something real
Or feel what you feel
You’d rather reset
Find someone new instead
Than sit in the ache
Of something high stakes
You don’t fight for connection
You just keep your escape
It’s easier to leave
When it’s always low stakes

[Bridge]
You didn’t lose me ’cause it wasn’t right
You lost me ’cause you couldn’t try
Love isn’t scary when it’s shallow and safe
It only gets heavy when it asks you to stay
And I would’ve stayed through the hard and the weight
But you only show up when it’s low stakes

[Final Chorus]
You kept it low stakes
So you wouldn’t break
But you broke something real
Avoiding what you feel
Now you’re back again
Like it never meant
Anything to replace
Or something to face
But I’m not your option
I’m not your escape
You don’t get forever
When you choose low stakes

[Verse 1]
I know the story doesn’t hold
I see the cracks inside the frame
Every answer you’ve been giving
Never quite aligns the same
My friends say it’s obvious
They say the signs are loud
But somehow when you look at me
The noise all drowns out

[Pre-Chorus]
My mind keeps building evidence
My heart keeps pleading innocence

[Chorus]
How can two truths live inside me
Pulling every nerve apart
My head says this is hurting me
But you still have my heart
I see the pattern clear as day
I see the way it bends
But every time I try to leave
My hope rewrites the end

And I swear I know the answer
But the feeling won’t agree
That’s the quiet kind of torture
Of loving what can’t love me

[Verse 2]
I replay every moment
Like a film I can’t rewind
Looking for the version
Where the truth was more kind
You say you care about me
But never quite enough
Just enough to keep me close
But never call my bluff

[Pre-Chorus]
My body knows the distance
My brain just keeps resistance

[Chorus]
How can two truths live inside me
Fighting for the steering wheel
My logic says “this isn’t love”
But my chest says it is real
I memorize your silence
Like a language I can read
Just hoping if I love you right
You’ll finally see me
And I swear I know the answer
But my heart won’t let me leave
That’s the slowest kind of heartbreak
When the truth and hope both breathe

[Bridge]
Maybe this is limerence
Maybe it’s a spell
Maybe I’m addicted
To a story I can’t sell
Maybe it’s the hunger
For a love I never knew
Maybe it’s just trauma
Painting halos over you
And I hate the way I see it
While I’m still inside the dream
Knowing what this is
And still begging it to mean

[Final Chorus]
Now the truth is getting louder
Like a drum inside my chest
You were never what I needed
Just the ache I couldn’t rest
And the hardest thing to swallow
Isn’t losing what we had
It’s how long I fought the truth
Just to keep from feeling sad
But the spell is slowly breaking
And the fog is lifting too
Turns out I wasn’t crazy
I was just in love with you.

[Verse 1]
You held me like a promise
Like I was finally safe
Kissed my forehead in the kitchen
Said my name like grace
You memorized my silence
Learned every scar I hide
But somewhere in the distance
You were already saying goodbye

[Pre-Chorus]
And I didn’t see it coming
’Cause you looked so sincere
You made forever sound so easy
While your heart slowly disappeared

[Chorus]
My last relationship taught me
Someone can hold you like home
Love on you like you’re everything
Then leave you standing alone
They can build dreams in your presence
While planning their exit in secret
Smile while they slowly detach
And never even speak it
That kind of heartbreak changes you
Makes innocence harder to find
’Cause nothing hurts like finding out
You were never in their future line

[Verse 2]
You talked about tomorrow
Like I was in the frame
Meanwhile you were making peace
With giving someone else my place
I replay every memory
Trying to find the shift
The moment love turned into comfort
And I stopped being it

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe you stayed out of habit
Maybe fear kept you near
But loving someone halfway
Still disappears

[Chorus]
My last relationship taught me
Someone can hold you like home
Love on you like you’re everything
Then leave you carrying it alone
They can trace your skin like worship
While emotionally letting go
And by the time you feel the distance
They’re already gone
That kind of heartbreak changed me
Now I question what I feel
’Cause people can look you in the eyes
And still not be real

[Bridge]
I think that’s what shattered me most
Not that you left
But that you stayed while leaving slowly
And I loved someone
Who already had one foot out the door
While I was still begging heaven
To make us work

[Final Chorus]
My last relationship taught me
Love without honesty scars
’Cause I was busy building a life
While you were tearing ours apart
Now I know attention ain’t devotion
And closeness ain’t the same as choice
Some people love the feeling of you
Without ever protecting your heart
And that lesson changed me forever
But maybe it saved me too
’Cause now I’d rather lose somebody
Than lose myself loving you.

[Verse 1]
I knew it in the quiet
Not the words you said out loud
It was in the way you paused too long
Then hid behind the sound
I knew it in your distance
In the spaces in your eyes
In the way the truth would almost come
Then soften into lies

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t have to break me
You just had to be unclear
And I did the rest for you
Just to keep you here

[Chorus]
I knew
I always knew
But you never said it loud enough
For me to choose
So I stayed
Not ’cause I believed
But I wasn’t ready
To be the one who leaves
I bent the truth
Till it felt like love
Something I could hold
Without falling apart
I knew it wasn’t real
But I needed it to be
So I chose you
Over me

[Verse 2]
I translated silence
Like it had something to say
Turned your almost into promises
You never meant to make
I painted over red flags
In colors I could trust
If I made it soft enough
It wouldn’t hurt as much

[Pre-Chorus]
I called it understanding
I called it being strong
But it was just me staying
Somewhere I didn’t belong

[Chorus]
I knew
I always knew
But you never said it loud enough
For me to choose
So I stayed
Not ’cause I believed
But I wasn’t ready
To be the one who leaves
I bent the truth
Till it felt like love
Something I could hold
Without falling apart
I knew it wasn’t real
But I needed it to be
So I chose you
Over me

[Bridge — stripped and whispered]
It wasn’t your lies that broke me
It was mine
The ones I told myself
Every time you crossed a line
“It’s not that bad”
“He’ll change”
“He cares, just scared”
If I say it enough
Maybe it’s there
I abandoned my knowing
Just to not feel alone
And every time I chose you
I disappeared a little more

[Break / Build]
Again
And again
And again
Till there was nothing left
Of me to defend

[Final Chorus]
I knew
God, I knew
But I kept shrinking truth
To fit me next to you
I stayed
Even when it hurt
Even when my intuition
Was screaming I come first
I turned your love
Into something it’s not
Just to survive
What I knew in my gut
Now I’m standing here
With what’s left of me
Learning how to choose
Me

[Outro]
I knew…
I always knew
Next time I won’t need it
To be louder
To leave.

[Verse 1]
You met me like a quiet room
After years of slammed doors
Like warm hands
On a body still bracing for war

I loved you gently
Like no one had ever stayed long enough to learn
How your silence meant fear
How your anger meant hurt
How your distance was a language
You never had words for first

And I carried your ghosts
Like they were mine to heal
While you called my softness
Something too intense to feel

[Pre-Chorus]
You said love felt heavy
But love was never the weight
It was the mirror
Of everything you buried
Everything you couldn’t face

[Chorus]
I brought you a love
You had never known
A safe place to land
A heart that felt like home
And in return
You taught me how betrayal sounds
How abandonment echoes louder
When it comes from someone you wrapped your whole world around

You touched every wound in me
Like you knew exactly where they lived
And the cruelest part is
I still don’t think you understood
What I gave you
Or what you did

[Verse 2]
You were loved carefully
But handled me carelessly
Like my heart would survive
Any version of your uncertainty

You took my empathy
And made it learn survival
Turned my understanding
Into a doorway for your cycles

And I kept translating your behavior
Into pain you never healed
While mine kept bleeding
Right there in the open
Right there in the field

I thought if I loved you enough
You’d stop hiding from your scars
But some people confuse being loved
With being rescued from who they are

And they’ll drown the person trying
To pull them out
Before they ever admit
They were sinking in the first place

[Pre-Chorus]
You called it “complicated”
Like that softened what you broke
But confusion is still damage
And silence still chokes

[Chorus]
I brought you a love
You had never known
The kind that stayed calm
The kind that stayed close
And in return
You introduced me to grief with your face
To crying beside someone
Who could watch me shatter
And still look away

You made me feel lonely
Inside a love I fought to keep alive
And now I know
That being needed
Is not the same thing
As being chosen right

[Bridge]
One day
Someone will love me
Without making me earn rest
Without punishing tenderness
Without turning vulnerability into a test

And maybe one day
You’ll finally understand
That I was never asking for too much
I was asking the wrong man

[Final Chorus]
Because I brought you a love
You had never known
But you handed me pain
That changed my soul
Still…

I refuse to let your inability to love me
Become the way I love myself

So I’ll stop mourning
The version of you
That only existed
Inside my hope

And I’ll finally give myself
The love
You were too afraid
To hold.

[Verse 1]
The start was magic—light in your eyes
Late-night talks and butterflies
You showed up first, held every door
Made me feel like I was worth waiting for
But real love crept in, and you pulled away
Said it’s moving fast—you “need space”
I chased the ghost of what we were
While you built walls made out of hurt

[Pre-Chorus]
You said, “I can’t do anything right”
But all I wanted was your steady light
Not perfection, not a flawless plan
Just your presence—your open hand

[Chorus]
But you ran when it started feeling real
Pulled back the second you began to feel
And I leaned in—afraid to lose
Even leaving you felt like abandonment too
You needed space, I needed proof
And I kept shrinking just to stay close to you
It wasn’t love—just fear dressed up
You were almost mine…
But this was almost love

[Verse 2]
You messaged her like I wouldn’t know
Needed control when you couldn’t let go
I wasn’t asking for perfect lines
Just someone brave enough to try
But I reminded you of something deep
And that scared the part of you that doesn’t speak
So you backed away with silent grace
And I stayed, starving in that empty space

[Bridge — soft and aching]
You felt close, but only next to what I knew
A little more present than my dad—but still untrue
I called it love because it almost fit
But love doesn’t leave like this

[Final Chorus]
You ran when it started feeling real
While I begged your silence to finally heal
And I leaned in—afraid to lose
Even walking away felt like breaking you
You needed numb, I needed more
But I kept knocking on a locked front door
It wasn’t love—just fear wrapped up
You were almost home…
But this was almost love.

[Verse 1]
You gave just enough to keep me holding on
Sweet when I pulled away, cold when I leaned too strong
Every time I’d get fed up, you’d become what I’d been needing
Then disappear again, right when I started believing

You said laughter heals but used it like a blade
Mocked my trauma with a grin, and watched my heart fade
I spoke my truth, you made it mine to blame
Flipped it all around so I’d feel ashamed

[Chorus]
I was almost loved, almost safe
Almost seen, till I took up space
I held your ego while mine broke in silence
You feared closeness, I feared the quiet
We were both running, just not the same
Me from goodbye, you from anything that stayed
Was it fear, or did you just not care?
I begged to feel wanted—you just weren’t there

[Verse 2]
I asked to be friends just to feel less used
You said you didn’t want to lose me, but you still refused
No answers, just jokes, then silence again
You kept me close enough to claim, but too far to defend

I never knew if I scared you or bored you
If loving me felt too close, or if you just ignored truth
I gave my heart, you gave me pause
I needed presence, but you needed walls

[Chorus]
I was almost loved, almost whole
Almost chosen, till I lost control
I built you up while I fell apart
You needed worship, I just wanted heart
We were both running, tangled in pain
Me from being left, you from anything that stays
Was I too much or were you too scared?
I begged to feel loved—you just weren’t there

[Bridge]
You primed me for comfort, then punished my needs
Said I was intense while you fed your feed
Liking girls who never knew your name
While I cried, hoping you’d change

I broke my own rules to feel like enough
While you took my softness and called it “too much”
But love doesn’t vanish when it’s real
And silence is louder than words ever will

[Final Chorus]
I was almost loved—but almost still aches
Almost chosen—still feels like a fake
You feared being seen, I feared being replaced
But I’m done with half-love in a hollow space
We were both running, but I stopped today
I’ll find someone who shows up and stays
You don’t deserve the love I gave
And I’ll never settle for almost again

[Outro]
I begged to feel wanted—now I want me
You never could hold what you couldn’t be.

[Verse 1]
You said nothing was changing
Said the distance was in my head
Every question I was asking
You’d just pull me back to bed
I was offering you exits
Doors you never had to break
But you held me like a promise
While planning your escape

[Pre-Chorus]
You knew I wasn’t going anywhere
You knew I believed what you said
But while I was asking if we were okay
You were somewhere else instead

[Chorus]
You were already gone
Already looking for someone new
Already acting single
While lying straight through
Every word you gave me
Every “baby it’s just you”
You were already gone
Before I ever lost you
And the cruelest part of all
Was how you played it cool
You didn’t leave until you knew
There was someone there to run to
You were already gone
While I was loving you

[Verse 2]
Funny how it’s always
The one you said not to mind
The same name in the background
Every time I checked the signs
The same girl in your messages
The same girl on your screen
The same girl waiting quietly
Where you said she’d never be

[Pre-Chorus]
I wasn’t crazy for noticing
I was crazy for believing you

[Chorus]
You were already gone
Already looking for someone new
Already acting single
While lying straight through
Every word you gave me
Every “baby it’s just you”
You were already gone
Before I ever lost you
And the cruelest part of all
Was how you played it cool
You didn’t leave until you knew
There was someone there to run to

[Bridge]
You say you were scared of my reaction
But I gave you every chance to leave
I even said we could just be friends
If honesty was what you needed
But you chose the easy version
Where I stayed and you stayed too
Just long enough to find someone
To soften losing you

[Final Chorus]
You were already gone
Just waiting for the right time
Already replacing me
While telling me you were mine
And now I see the ending
That you wrote behind my back
You kept me as the safety net
Until you had another track
You were already gone
But you kept me holding on.

[Verse 1]
You said the end was heavy on your chest
Like loving me was somehow too much stress
You said you tried, you said you stayed
But you never chose me anyway
I was loyal, I was patient
I was quiet when I broke
You had someone in your corner
I was hanging from a rope

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I felt it slipping
You told me I was wrong
Said it was all in my head
But my body knew all along

[Chorus]
You had it easy
I was bleeding
You were halfway out the door while I was believing
You had it easy
I was torn
Loving someone who was gone but still holding me warm
You had my trust, my time, my truth
I had excuses and half of you
Don’t tell me it was hard for you
You had it easy—I went through hell for two

[Verse 2]
You slept till noon to dodge my name
Kept me hidden like a secret shame
Never posted, never claimed
Left the door cracked “just in case”
You were shopping for a feeling
Scrolling for a better high
While I was begging for a reason
Why I wasn’t worth the try

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave you exits dressed as honesty
Asked if you loved me, told you I’d leave
You held on just enough to stay
But never enough to choose me

[Chorus]
You had it easy
I was bleeding
You were halfway out the door while I was believing
You had it easy
I was torn
Loving someone who was gone but still holding me warm
You had my trust, my time, my truth
I had excuses and half of you
Don’t tell me it was hard for you
You had it easy—I went through hell for two

[Bridge — quiet to build]
You say you were confused
Say you were scared, say you didn’t know
But confusion isn’t honesty
And fear isn’t an excuse to let someone hope
You let me think I was crazy
Then admitted I was right
You don’t get to call that pain “hard”
When I lived it every night

[Beat drop]
You don’t get to say it broke you
When it shattered me

[Final Chorus]
You had it easy
I was breaking
You were waiting for a better life while mine was shaking
You had it easy
I was true
I loved someone who couldn’t love me back all the way through
You don’t get my body, my heart, my grace
You don’t get the parts you couldn’t face
If you ever wonder why I’m done with you
It’s ’cause you had it easy
And I paid the truth

[Outro]
I don’t hate you
I just see it clear
You didn’t lose me ’cause you were scared
You lost me ’cause I was here.

[Verse 1]
You never told me what you liked about me
Just brushed my leg and called it deep
You never asked me to be your girlfriend
But acted mad when I found my feet

I mistook your quiet for intention
Thought your calm meant I could breathe
But it was just a lack of presence
And I was gasping underneath

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to shrink, tried to soften the sound
Of all my needs that you shut down
I folded so small, you could ignore
The girl who wanted something more

[Chorus]
You turned love into a dark room
Where I had to feel around to find the truth
You never yelled, but you cut me still
With every silence you refused to fill
And I kept asking, “Is it me?”
When it was you who couldn’t be seen
I was never too much—you were just too removed
You turned love into a dark room

[Verse 2]
You made jokes when I shared my pain
Smiled while I unraveled again
I couldn’t cry without being the punchline
Couldn’t speak without twisting the frame

You’d cross my boundaries just to test me
Then say I’m sensitive, too intense
But breaking someone with a gentle hand
Doesn’t make the damage make more sense

[Pre-Chorus]
You called it peace, but it was delay
Of all the truths you’d never say
And I went silent to survive
But silence isn’t love, it’s just disguise

[Chorus]
You turned love into a dark room
Where I had to feel around to find the truth
You never yelled, but you cut me still
With every silence you refused to fill
And I kept asking, “Is it me?”
When it was you who couldn’t be seen
I was never too much—you were just too removed
You turned love into a dark room

[Bridge]
I fawned so you’d stay
Gave up parts of me each day
Told myself, “At least he’s kind”
But being quiet doesn’t make you right

You never told me what I meant to you
Just kept me spinning, guessing what was true
And now I know—
Safe shouldn't feel like walking on glass just to be held close

[Final Chorus — stripped]
You turned love into a dark room
But I’m done fumbling just to feel you
I need words, I need light
I need truth that doesn’t hide at night
So take your silence, take your shame
I'm not the girl who stays in blame
I was never too much—you were just too removed
You turned love into a dark room

[Outro — whispered]
And I deserve to be seen in full color
Not dimmed down to fit your comfort

[Verse 1]
How do I say this without shaking?
Without my voice giving me away?
How do I tell you that I’m breaking
But still look strong in your face?
I practiced it in the mirror
Tried to sound calm, tried to sound kind
But every time I get near you
My heart forgets the lines

[Pre-Chorus]
How do I name what it cost me
Without you turning away?
How do I hold all this love
When you don’t want it the same?

[Chorus]
I loved and I loved and I loved you
Even when loving you hurt
I stayed when my body was screaming
That something wasn’t secure
Now I’m standing here trying
To speak without falling apart
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it’s tearing me open, it’s dark
Yeah, it burns in my chest when I breathe
Like I’m carrying more than my heart

[Verse 2]
You say you never meant to hurt me
Like that should make it okay
But intent doesn’t stop the damage
When I’m the one who paid
You held me just close enough
To keep me hoping you’d choose
But not close enough to promise
That you wouldn’t let me lose

[Pre-Chorus]
How do I say I deserved more
Without sounding bitter or small?
How do I tell you I knew
Before you admitted it all?

[Chorus]
I loved and I loved and I loved you
Through silence, doubt, and delay
I begged for a little more honesty
You begged for a little more space
Now I’m standing here shaking
Trying to swallow my pride
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And God, it hurts to survive
Yeah, it hurts like hell, if I’m honest
But I won’t let it take my light

[Bridge — soft, almost whispered]
Maybe love isn’t enough
When one heart is halfway gone
Maybe I felt it before you did
That something was wrong
Maybe I knew in my body
Before you said it out loud
And maybe that’s what destroys me
I stayed when I shouldn’t have now

[Final Chorus — stronger, resolved]
I loved and I loved and I loved you
But I won’t beg to be chosen
I won’t keep shrinking my feelings
So you don’t feel so exposed
It hurts and it hurts and it hurts me
But pain doesn’t mean I was wrong
I loved you with everything in me
That kind of love makes me strong

[Outro]
So how do I say this without breaking?
Maybe I don’t.
Maybe I just let it be true.

[Verse 1]
I wake up, reach out
Still feel you somehow
Side of the bed cold
But I don’t move now

Your name in my phone
I don’t press call
But I don’t delete it
Not at all

[Pre-Chorus]
And it’s stupid, I know
But I still check the door
Like you might walk in
Like you did before

[Chorus]
You don’t know
How every second drags your name through my mind
You don’t know
How I replay you a thousand times
You don’t know
I see you everywhere I go
Even when I’m not alone
You don’t know
You don’t know

[Verse 2]
I laugh with my friends
But I’m not there
I hear what they’re saying
But I don’t care

Your voice in my head
Like it won’t fade
Every word you said
Still stays

[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate that it does
And I hate that it won’t
And I tell myself stop
But I know I won’t

[Chorus]
You don’t know
How every second drags your name through my mind
You don’t know
How I replay you a thousand times
You don’t know
I see you everywhere I go
Even when I’m not alone
You don’t know
You don’t know

[Bridge — emotional punch]
It’s in the quiet, it’s in the noise
It’s in the space where I hear your voice
It’s in the way I still turn around
Every time I hear your sound
It’s in the mornings I shouldn’t care
It’s in the nights you’re not there
It’s in my chest, it won’t let go
God, I wish that you could know

[Final Chorus — slightly lifted]
You don’t know
How every second feels like missing you twice
You don’t know
How I’m still yours in the back of my mind
You don’t know
I’d still pick you if you showed
Even after letting go
You don’t know
You don’t know

[Verse 1]
You didn’t yell, didn’t raise your voice
But the silence filled the room like noise
No slammed doors, no screaming fights
Just a joke, a shrug, and me swallowing my pride

You didn’t curse, didn’t call me names
But you hid me like I brought you shame
Blocked your ex, but still kept me blurred
Never said it, but your actions spoke first

[Pre-Chorus]
You were soft with me, but never safe
I was craving touch, you pulled away
I thought it was peace, but it was just delay
And the quiet cut deeper than rage

[Chorus]
’Cause your silence was louder than any scream
Your shrug hurt more than saying something mean
You joked when I cried, called me names like a friend
But I was your girl, not one of them
You didn’t fight, you disappeared
You were right there, but never near
And I begged for presence, not just your time
But you gave just enough to keep me blind

[Verse 2]
Sleeping next to me, phone in your hand
Flirting with strangers, feeding your demand
And I stayed, thought it must be love
’Cause you didn’t hit me with words that cut

But affection came like aftershocks
A moment of warmth, then you’d drop it off
I learned to chase it, then grieve the lack
You taught me love was a panic attack

[Pre-Chorus]
Pulled me close just to push again
Called me “bitch” and laughed like a friend
But I wanted softness, not pretend
And your silence screamed louder in the end

[Chorus]
’Cause your silence was louder than any scream
Your shrug hurt more than saying something mean
You teased when I asked for a real reply
Gave me your body but starved me dry
You didn’t fight, you disappeared
You were right there, but never near
And I begged for presence, not just your time
But you gave just enough to keep me blind

[Bridge]
I learned love from chaos, from rage, from pain
So quiet felt safe—but it hurt the same
I needed words, I needed truth
But you disappeared inside your youth

Now you post like you’re finally free
But you were always the one chaining me
And I broke the loop, I set me loose
Now I’m learning I don’t need your excuse

[Final Chorus — stripped down]
Your silence was louder than any scream
And I’m done begging to be seen
You called it peace, but it felt like war
I don’t need to earn love anymore
You didn’t fight, but I survived
And I found presence in my own light

[Verse 1]
You built your walls from shame and scars
Said love would break you, cut too far
But I saw the boy you tried to hide
The one who whispered, “I’ll never be enough inside”

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I reached for you, you pulled away
Not ’cause I couldn’t love, but ’cause you couldn’t stay
And it broke me down, yeah, it ripped me apart
To be punished for wanting to know your heart

[Chorus]
You were worthy—even in the shadows
I would’ve loved you in the dark, in the hollow
In the shame, in the cracks, in the places no one stayed
I would’ve chosen you anyway
But your fear turned love into war
And your sabotage left me bleeding on the floor
You’ll never know the love I carried there—
’Cause I would’ve loved you…I would’ve loved you there

[Verse 2]
You built a coffin out of silence
Buried every chance we had alive
I offered love in broken places
You chose your shame, and made me pay the price

[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I’d see the broken and run away
But I was the one who begged you to stay
Still, you left me questioning my worth
When all I wanted was to love you through the hurt

[Chorus]
You were worthy—even in the shadows
I would’ve loved you in the dark, in the hollow
In the shame, in the cracks, in the places no one stayed
I would’ve chosen you anyway
But your fear turned love into war
And your sabotage left me bleeding on the floor
You’ll never know the love I carried there—
’Cause I would’ve loved you…I would’ve loved you there

[Bridge]
But you chose the safety of silence
Over the risk of my defiance
You rejected yourself before I ever could
Didn’t believe in the love I swore I would

[Final Chorus]
You were worthy—but you couldn’t believe
So you left me haunted, tangled in grief
I would’ve loved you where no one dared
I would’ve stayed…I was already there
But your fear built a cage, locked from the inside
And I won’t keep waiting where love goes to die
So I’m taking back the pieces you couldn’t repair—
’Cause I would’ve loved you
God, I would’ve loved you there

[Verse 1]
I hate the way you disappear
When I finally let you near
I hate the silence after fights
The way you make wrong feel like right
I hate your calm when I’m on fire
Your need to run when I require
I hate that I still pick up when you call
God, I hate that I can’t hate you at all

[Pre-Chorus]
’Cause every time I say I’m done
You smile like you already won

[Chorus]
The seven things I hate about you—
You twist truth until it sounds brand new
You say “I care” like it’s half a line
Then ghost my peace, come steal my mind
You make me small, then call me strong
You pull me close, then prove me wrong
But the worst one that I can’t undo—
Is I still love the other six things too

[Verse 2]
I hate the highs, I hate the crash
The way you laugh when I fall back
I hate how your eyes apologize
While your words rehearse their lies
I hate that I believed your fear
And called it love just to keep you near
I hate that I still dream your name
And wake up whispering the blame

[Pre-Chorus]
You said “It’s pressure,” I said “It’s care”
Funny how I’m the one still there

[Chorus]
The seven things I hate about you—
You turn distance into déjà vu
You say “I’m fine” but you’re halfway gone
Then play my songs when you move on
You make me wait, then call it fate
You show up just a minute late
But the worst one that cuts right through—
Is I still love the other six things too

[Bridge]
Maybe hate’s just love that’s tired
A match that burns what it desired
Maybe healing’s just the truth
That I don’t need to hate to lose you

[Final Chorus]
The seven things I learned from you—
Love’s not real when it’s overdue
You taught me patience, taught me pain
Taught me who I won’t be again
You make me hurt, you make me grow
You taught me everything I know
And the best thing that came from you—
Is finally loving me, not you

[Verse 1]
Dear Drew, I think I need to say this once
So I can finally breathe again
What hurts the most isn’t the ending
It’s how the truth looks looking back on it
I tried to tell you what I was sensing
Something between us wasn’t right
But every time I named the distance
You turned it back on me that night
I even said we could end it gently
Said we could just be friends instead
But every door I left wide open
You closed it with the words you said

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave you every easy out
Every door to leave
But you chose reassurance
Instead of honesty

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, I would’ve left
If you were honest
I would’ve saved my heart
From trying to solve this
I wasn’t begging you to stay
I was begging you be real
But you gave me reassurance
You didn’t even feel
Dear Drew, that’s the part
That broke me in two
You say it was hard for you
But here’s the part you missed
It’s easy hiding from the truth
It’s harder living in it

[Verse 2]
You looked up girls like history
Still had their shadow in your mind
Sent heart eyes to someone random
While I was fighting for our time
I saw the girls you entertained
The ex you kept inside your past
I watched the distance grow between us
While you kept saying we would last
Every time I tried to leave you
You said you wanted us to try
So I stayed inside a promise
That was already a lie

[Pre-Chorus]
My body knew the truth already
But I believed in you

[Chorus]
Dear Drew, I would’ve left
If you had told the truth
I would’ve saved my heart
From trying to save you
I wasn’t asking you to love me
I was asking you be real
But you gave me reassurance
You didn’t actually feel

[Bridge — raw moment]
You say it was hard for you
Hard to take the blame
Hard to say the doubts out loud
Hard to name the shame
But I was sick from holding onto
Something breaking in my chest
Trying to fix a love
You had already left

[Final Chorus]
Dear Drew, I see it now
What I couldn’t see
You kept me there in limbo
For your own security
I would’ve left
If you told the truth
Instead you let me keep believing you
When I started moving on
You came back like before
Late night love and empty words
Knocking on my door
But that wasn’t love or friendship
That was convenience too
Dear Drew
I would’ve left
If you told the truth

[Outro]
Dear Drew…
Why did you let me believe in you?

[Verse 1]
There were nights my chest felt heavy
Like a storm behind my ribs
Your voice said everything was steady
But my body never did
I asked you in the kitchen doorway
If your heart was halfway gone
You laughed and said I worry too much
So I held on

[Pre-Chorus]
I had exits in my pocket
Keys I never used
Every truth was in my bloodstream
But I chose you

[Chorus]
I’m not broken ’cause I lost you
I’m not crying over that
I’m just grieving all the moments
I abandoned what I had
Every whisper in my chest
Every warning in my bones
I kept choosing your words
Over what my body knows
And that’s the part that cuts the deepest
That’s the truth I’m learning now
I didn’t lose you when you left me
I lost me when I stayed somehow

[Verse 2]
You were standing in the doorway
One foot halfway out the frame
And I asked you if you loved me
You said yes without a shake
I built a home inside your answers
Hung my hope on every line
But the ground beneath those promises
Was never mine

[Pre-Chorus]
I could feel it in the silence
Feel it in the air
Truth was knocking on the window
But I kept it there

[Chorus]
I’m not shattered ’cause you left me
That’s not where the damage lies
It’s the years I spent convincing
My own heart that it was fine
Every instinct in my bloodstream
Every signal in my skin
I kept handing you the compass
When it lived in me within
And that’s the part that cuts the deepest
That’s the truth I’m learning now
I didn’t lose you when you walked out
I lost me when I drowned you out

[Bridge]
Now I hear her in the quiet
That small voice I pushed aside
She was screaming through the static
“Don’t betray yourself this time”
And I wish I could go find her
Back before I dimmed the light
Tell her:
You were never wrong
You were only being kind

[Final Chorus]
I’m not broken ’cause I lost you
That’s a grief I’ll understand
But I’m healing something deeper
Learning how to trust again
Every whisper in my chest
Every truth inside my bones
I won’t trade my inner knowing
Just to keep from being alone
And the girl I was before you
She’s the one I’m running to
I didn’t lose you when you left me
I just finally chose me too

[Verse 1]
I loved you without defenses
No armor on my chest
No careful calculations
No map for what came next
I let you see the fragile parts
The thoughts I never say
The hours when the silence
Carries all my weight

[Pre-Chorus]
You learned the way I breathe at night
The places I get weak
Just well enough to know me
But not enough to keep

[Chorus]
I loved you unprotected
No armor on my heart
You held the fragile pieces
Then slowly pulled apart

You didn’t break me loudly
No slammed or shattered door
You just stopped choosing me
Like you did before
You didn’t leave a scar to prove
No wreckage I could see
You just grew tired of holding
The parts of me you used to need

[Verse 2]
I became a quiet habit
A space you used to know
Like a house you slowly outgrew
But never let me know
I felt the shift in silence
As it settled in the air
Like something still between us
That was never really there

[Pre-Chorus]
You said you were confused
But confusion doesn’t choose
Who it’s gonna hold onto
And who it’s gonna lose

[Chorus]
I opened every door for you
And called it love
I gave you rooms inside my heart
You never walked enough
You didn’t shatter anything
You just slowly withdrew
Until the quiet in the walls
Was louder than the truth

[Bridge]
I stayed longer than pride would say
Shorter than my heart believed
Somewhere between the leaving
And the girl I used to be
And now even the silence
Feels crowded in my chest
By every word you offered
That never meant its best

[Final Chorus]
I loved you unprotected
No armor on my chest
But the girl who trusted everything
Is learning how to rest
You didn’t ruin all of me
But something changed the view
I loved you without armor
And you knew

[Verse 1]
You said it like it was small
Like it was just a phase
“One foot out,” “something missing”
Like words don’t leave a trace
You never raised your voice at me
Never slammed a door
Just slowly pulled your presence back
Till I couldn’t feel you anymore
But I remember asking
In the quiet of my room
“Are we steady? Are you sure?”
You said, “There’s nothing wrong with us”
I believed you

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave you every doorway
Every chance to let me go
You held me with reassurance
While you already didn’t know

[Chorus]
It wasn’t just the truth
It was how it came too late
You admitted what you felt
But you didn’t name the weight
No “I’m sorry for the damage”
No “I see what that did to you”
Just explanations for your reasons
Like that makes it less untrue
I could’ve handled losing you
If you’d handled it with care
But you told me after breaking me
And left it with no repair

[Verse 2]
I asked you if you loved me
You said, “Of course, I do”
I asked if you were halfway gone
You said, “That’s not true”
So I quieted my body
When it whispered something’s off
I chose your voice above my own
And that’s the part that cost

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I’m stuck between the versions
Of the story that you gave
The one where we were solid
And the one where you were brave
And I don’t think you meant to lose me
I don’t think you meant to break
But some things fall apart slowly
When no one chooses to stay

[Chorus]
It wasn’t just the truth
It was how it hit my skin
Like finding out the ground was gone
Where I had been standing in
You say you didn’t mean to
Like intent can make it fair
But meaning doesn’t mend a heart
When there’s no repair

[Bridge]
Intent explains it
Impact is real
You were protecting your image
I was learning to heal
You say you were confused
But I was confused too
The difference is
I was honest with you

[Final Chorus]
It cost me sleep
It cost me trust
It cost the girl who thought love was enough
It cost my intuition
I chose you over mine
And now I’m stitching back the pieces
One apology at a time
I didn’t need perfection
I didn’t need you to swear
I just needed you to see the wound
And meet me there
But you told me after breaking me
And left it with no repair

[Outro]
This song doesn’t scream
It doesn’t beg
It doesn’t chase
It exposes the missing apology
And that’s what makes it stay

[Verse 1]
I know silence is your shelter
And talking feels like the storm
You think pulling back keeps you safe
But it’s me that keeps you warm
I know it’s not about not caring
It’s that caring starts the ache
You build calm from quiet places
While I chase what you can’t face

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not asking you to fix it
Just to stay when it’s unclear
You don’t have to have the answers
Just let me know you’re here

[Chorus]
I see you still, even when you run
Even when you hide behind the calm
I know your quiet’s just a wall of fear
So you don’t have to disappear
You don’t fail me when you’re scared
You fail me when you don’t share
If we could meet halfway tonight
Maybe silence wouldn’t have to fight

[Verse 2]
You’re not wrong for needing space
I just need to know there’s a way back
If I reach and you step away
My body feels like it’s under attack
I don’t need every thought inside
Just a little sign of life
You don’t have to prove you care
Just don’t make me guess if you’re still there

[Bridge]
It’s not blame, it’s just truth—
Both our fears got in the room
You hide yours, I bleed mine
We both call it peace, this time

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I see you still, under all the noise
The fear, the silence, the old boy’s voice
You don’t have to earn your worth with fight—
Just stay, and say, “I’m here tonight”

[Verse 1]
You say you don’t want to see me with anyone else
But you can’t give me what I deserve yourself
You pull back when it feels too real
And I lean in just to feel
We keep dancing on the edge of maybe
Half afraid, half wanting to save me

[Pre-Chorus]
You say you’re stuck—I know that sound
It’s fear dressed up as middle ground
You want the warmth but not the weight
You call it peace, I call it wait

[Chorus]
So is it that you want me but you’re scared
Or you don’t want me but can’t bear
To watch me love somebody new?
’Cause both are truths you’ve hidden through
Either way, I’ll still have grace
I just need honesty, not space
If it’s love or if it’s doubt
Either way, we’ll figure it out

[Verse 2]
You said, “I’m stuck,” like it’s a curse
But indecision just makes it worse
You want connection without the call
To show up fully or not at all
I’m not asking for a map or plan
Just a word that says you can

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t need the fairytale lines
Just clarity to calm my mind
If silence speaks, I’ll still hear loud—
It’s love unsure, wrapped in doubt

[Chorus]
So is it that you want me but you’re scared
Or you don’t want me but can’t bear
To watch me love somebody new?
’Cause both are truths you’ve hidden through
Either way, I’ll still have grace
I just need honesty, not space
If it’s love or if it’s doubt
Either way, we’ll figure it out

[Bridge]
You pull away to feel okay
I reach out so mine will stay
Two bodies speaking different fears
Same heart, just shifting gears
I’m not mad—I’m just awake
To what I give and what you take

[Final Chorus / Outro]
So if it’s “I want you but I’m scared”
Or “I don’t want you but I still care”
Say the words, don’t fade to gray
I can handle truth, not halfway
Either way, I’ll set you free
If freedom’s what you need from me
But if it’s love you’re thinking about—
Either way, we’ll figure it out

[Verse 1]
I’m not asking you for more
Than what you honestly can give
I know the world gets heavy
And sometimes closeness feels like risk
But I get quiet in the spaces
Where I don’t know what you feel
And I end up pulling back
Just so I don’t fall deeper still

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you don’t mean to fade
You’re just trying to breathe inside your days
But sometimes I wish you’d let me in
A little closer, in a softer way

[Chorus]
If you stay, I’ll meet you gently—
I don’t need big gestures, just your honesty
If you need space, I won’t chase
I just want to know where you are with me
I’m not asking you to have it all figured out
I just want to feel like we’re choosing this somehow
If you stay…
I’ll stay too

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I push you from a distance
’Cause I’m scared of wanting more
Scared of hoping you’ll show up
And then watching you walk out the door
It’s not that you don’t try—
I see the ways you care in quiet things
I just wish I knew the moments
When your heart feels safe with me

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want to overwhelm you
Don’t want to make you run or hide
I just want you to know the truth:
I feel calm when you’re by my side

[Chorus]
If you stay, I’ll meet you gently—
I don’t need big promises, just your presence near
If you need room, I’ll give you breath
Just let me know you’re still here
I’m not asking you to change your ways
Just to let me in on the nights you feel afraid
If you stay…
I’ll stay too

[Bridge]
We both get quiet for different reasons—
You from fear of being held
Me from fear of losing you
But maybe there’s a middle place
Where neither one of us has to choose
Between closeness
And freedom

[Breakdown]
I’m not here to push you
I’m not here to pull you
Just here to walk with you
If you want me to

[Final Chorus]
If you stay, I’ll meet you gently—
In the pace that feels right in your chest
I don’t want pressure
I just want connection
In the version that feels safe for you to give
I don’t need certainty or grand displays—
Just something real we make in our own way
If you stay…
I’ll stay too

[Verse 1]
I tried to leave you in a clean-cut way
No slammed doors, just walking away
But you pulled me back with a half-held hand
Said, “Don’t go yet,” but you never said stay
You kept me somewhere in between
Not yours, not free, not anything
Like I was yours in the dark at night
But gone by morning, off the screen

[Pre-Chorus]
You never chose me out loud
But you never let me go
And somehow that was enough
To keep me close

[Chorus]
If the world was ending, you’d still be the one I call
Even after everything, I’d forget it all
You’d laugh while I’m sick, hold my hair back from my face
Make a joke, kiss my head, like nothing’s out of place
And I hate that it’s true
After all that you do
I still run to you first
Like you’re the cure and the curse
If the world was ending…
I’d still choose you

[Verse 2]
You never changed that status line
Never said “she’s mine” out loud, not once
Kept me hidden like a secret life
While I gave you all of mine
I saw the girls, I saw the lies
Still stayed when I should’ve walked by
’Cause when it was just me and you
It felt like something real inside

[Pre-Chorus]
You showed up just enough
To keep me from moving on
Came back when I got strong
Then disappeared again

[Chorus]
If the world was ending, you’d still be the one I call
Even after everything, I’d forget it all
You’d wake me up half asleep, asking me for love
With that stupid smile I still can’t get enough of
And I hate that it’s true
After all that you do
I still run to you first
Like you’re the cure and the curse
If the world was ending…
I’d still choose you

[Bridge]
You were almost everything I needed
If you’d just stayed
If you’d just meant it
If you’d just chosen me
You were perfect in the moments
That you let yourself be
And I built my whole world
On who you could be

[Breakdown]
It’s been almost a year now
And I still don’t know why
You come back just to touch me
Then leave me behind
And I know you’re not good for me
I know every sign
But if my phone lit up with your name…
I wouldn’t decline

[Final Chorus]
If the world was ending, you’d still be the one I call
Even after everything, I’d forget it all
I’d fall right back into you like I never learned
Like I didn’t watch the whole thing burn
And I hate that it’s true
After all that you do
I still run to you first
Like you’re the cure and the curse
If the world was ending…
I’d still choose you

[Verse 1]
I found the words I never said, folded up inside my chest
A story stuck between the lines of everything I tried to forget
You were the calm I mistook for peace
The silence that made me fall to my knees
I kept holding on to almost true
Trying to make a home out of missing you

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept waiting for a spark that never lit
Calling what hurt “love,” pretending it fit
Every time I reached, you slipped away
And I forgot what it’s like to be held that way

[Chorus]
’Cause I was a heart you borrowed, not one you kept
A secret you guarded, a promise you left
I wrote your name in ink and pain
Tried to fix what you never would change
I keep telling myself I’m okay
But I still miss the boy I thought I knew—
The letter I’ll never send to you

[Verse 2]
You’d hold my hand just long enough to let go
Say you cared then vanish before I’d know
You built your walls out of fear and pride
And I built my hope where your truth should’ve lied
Maybe we were two ghosts in the same small town
Too scared of love to ever slow down

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I tried to meet you halfway through the hurt
But you can’t heal someone who won’t learn their worth

[Chorus]
I was a heart you borrowed, not one you kept
A secret you guarded, a promise you left
I wrote your name in ink and pain
Tried to fix what you never would change
I keep telling myself I’m okay
But I still miss the boy I thought I knew—
The letter I’ll never send to you

[Bridge]
Maybe loving you was how I lost myself
But maybe losing you was how I found help
I don’t hate you, I don’t blame you
But I finally see right through you

[Final Chorus]
I was a heart you borrowed, not one you kept
But I’m taking it back, no tears left
Your name still fades but mine still shines
And I’m not yours between the lines
I’ll forgive, I’ll forget, I’ll make it through
That’s how I’m signing off this truth—
The letter I’ll never send to you

[Outro]
Sincerely,
The girl who finally accepted she deserved better than you

[Verse 1]
You were always there when the TV was on
On your side of the couch, but somehow still gone
Had your arm around me, but your mind somewhere else
I was begging for connection while you settled for yourself
We spent every night together, but I still missed you somehow
Everybody thought I had love, I thought so sometimes
But I learned the hard way that proximity lies
’Cause you can share a bed and still cry every night

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept calling it patience
Calling crumbs dedication
Told myself if I stayed long enough
You’d finally show up

[Chorus]
’Cause loneliness ain’t always sleeping alone
Sometimes it’s staring at somebody you call home
It’s having them beside you but still missing them somehow
Holding their hand while they’re impossible to find
It’s being loved just enough not to leave
But never enough to feel seen
And that’s the kind of heartbreak nobody talks about
Being lonely next to you

[Verse 2]
You knew all my trauma, knew my scars by name
But every time I needed you, the ending stayed the same
Knew my schedule by heart, never learned my shame
I don’t think you meant to hurt me the way that you did
But you got comfortable watching me beg for what love gives
I was dying of thirst in the middle of the sea
How’d I end up feeling abandoned with you next to me?
Now I know attention and intention aren’t the same
And a warm body can’t keep a cold heart from the rain

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept lowering standards
Calling bare minimum magic
Told myself if I loved hard enough
You’d finally meet me there

[Chorus]
’Cause loneliness ain’t always sleeping alone
Sometimes it’s staring at somebody you call home
It’s sharing every night but never feeling known
Watching them beside you while you feel completely alone
It’s hearing ‘maybe’ when your heart needs something sure
Living in uncertainty and calling it secure
It’s being loved just enough not to leave
But never enough to feel seen
And that’s the kind of heartbreak nobody talks about
Being lonely next to you

[Bridge]
Now I’d rather eat dinner by myself
Than feel invisible with somebody else
I’d rather miss you than miss me
Trying to make you into what you’d never be
And maybe that’s the lesson I was supposed to learn
Love shouldn’t feel like something you have to earn

[Final Chorus]
’Cause loneliness ain’t always sleeping alone
Sometimes it’s staying somewhere you’ve already outgrown
It’s mistaking presence for somebody who cares
When real love is effort even when nobody’s there
Now I’d rather be alone and free
Than lonely in somebody’s company
And that’s the kind of freedom nobody talks about
Walking away from you

[Outro]
A warm body isn’t love
A relationship isn’t just proximity
And I’d rather be alone
Than lonely next to you.